“Unfortunately, I have already made prior plans for that period of time,” Spock replied.
His newly established boyfriend, Jim Kirk, had asked Spock if he’d care to come to Riverside, Iowa for the short Thanksgiving break they were receiving from Starfleet Academy. Jim planned to take a shuttle to Riverside Tuesday afternoon and then return Sunday afternoon to San Francisco.
He’d explained to Spock that it would be him, his mother, and Jim’s brother, Sam, and his new wife, Aurelan. His mother had a new man she wanted them all to meet as well.
Jim smiled at Spock’s response. There seemed nothing unusual in that smile.
“Oh, okay. No problem.” He paused. “Should I be jealous?”
Spock stared. “Jealous? Of what, Jim?”
Jim laughed then. “That you have plans with someone else.” He laughed again. “I’m only kidding, Spock.” He patted Spock’s arm just like he often patted McCoy’s arm, who at that moment was watching their interaction with narrowed eyes. “I gotta go. Got a class in three minutes and on the other side of the campus.”
“You will be late,” Spock predicted.
“Guess I’d better run then. Bye.”
And Jim was gone. Spock was left with a now glaring Leonard McCoy.
“Are you out of your Vulcan mind?”
Spock had no idea what had earned him that question and he opened his mouth to reply.
“That was rhetorical,” McCoy snapped. “Just what do you have planned that’s more important than Jim?”
Spock frowned. “The importance of my plans has little to do with Jim. It is a science symposium I planned participation in many months ago that takes place in Colorado.”
“Uh-huh. You don’t get it. Jim invited you to meet his family. That’s hugely significant. He has…issues. Family issues, personal ones. This is the first time his whole family has gotten together in, well, maybe never before this. He wanted you to be there. Everyone’s going to have a significant other there except Jim. Can you imagine how that makes him feel?”
“No,” Spock admitted. “Since my attending a symposium is no reflection on my feelings or lack thereof for Jim. To conflate them is illogical.”
McCoy pinched the bridge of his nose. “All I’m saying here, Spock, is you are on extremely thin ice, and you really ought to rethink your rejection of Jim’s invitation.”
“As it was merely a rejection of his invitation and not of him, I cannot agree that it is a cause for concern. My plans for this coming week have already been set for months and Jim seemed all right with that.”
“Yes, he seemed all right, I’ll agree.”
“Look, you figure it out, Spock. Or don’t. But in the next day or so, Jim is going to distance himself from you and you’re going to wonder why and don’t say I didn’t warn you. And I have to go too. I don’t have a class, but I am meeting someone. If I don’t talk to you again, have a good symposium.”
Spock watched the doctor walk away and with a shake of his head, Spock dismissed his words. He and Jim were fine.
Sorry, Spock. I have a bunch of stuff to do and can’t make it tonight.
Spock read the message from Jim in regard to their evening plans. Spock was disappointed as he had been looking forward to spending time with Jim prior to their differing plans over the next few days.
There was, of course, tomorrow night, which would be the night before their Tuesday departure.
Understood. Tomorrow evening then? I will make dinner at my apartment, and we can retire early if that is your desire.
Spock got busy doing other things and didn’t see Jim’s response for a while.
Can’t make it tomorrow either. Really busy. Sorry. See you after the break.
And that set alarm bells off in Spock’s head. Since they’d gotten together, Jim was never too busy for Spock and vice versa. Any moment of spare time they spent together and in fact, Spock was close to asking Jim to share his apartment.
Spock had not spoken in person to Jim since Spock had advised he could not make the trip to Riverside.
Jim is going to distance himself from you and you’re going to wonder why.
Those words played in Spock’s head now. He re-read Jim’s two messages a few times before typing out,
Jim, is something amiss?
And Spock, prior to his “warning” from McCoy would have just accepted Jim’s answer on face value. But now Spock conjured up in his memory that smile Jim had given him when he’d said, “Oh, Okay.”
Now that Spock thought about it, his words were much more. “Oh. Okay.” Two separate words. Not “Oh, okay.” Which the more he thought about it, there was a definite difference, subtle though it might be.
Spock brought up the site for the symposium and found his reservation.
Spock could see the look of surprise on Jim’s face when Jim arrived at his shuttle gate to find Spock standing there, waiting for him, bag in hand.
“Spock? What are you doing here?”
“I am here to accompany you to have Thanksgiving with your family.”
“My plans changed.”
“They did or did you change them?”
“Does it matter?”
Jim shook his head. “Except you didn’t have to do that, Spock. You had something else to do. No big deal.”
Spock exhaled slowly. “I found that I decided it was a…big deal. You are concerned with seeing your family over these next few days, are you not?”
“Well. Yeah. I haven’t seen Sam in…I don’t know how long. Years. I was surprised he was coming. And bringing his wife. And Mom. Anyway, I was okay with you not coming. I can’t blame anyone who doesn’t want to deal with me and my family.”
“Spending time with you is not “dealing” with you, Jim. In fact, perhaps, when we arrive you can announce that you are now living with me.”
Jim laughed. “I am?”
“I want you to.”
Jim smiled and leaned in close to kiss Spock softly, and though Spock did not care for public displays, he found this time, he did not mind.
“I can’t believe you’re here. Thank you. Let’s go.”
Spock turned to go through the gate with Jim.
“Oh and Jim?”
“You have nothing to be jealous about.”
Jim gave him a quizzical look. “Yeah?”
“You will always come first.”
November 22, 2021 at 4:03 am
Oh I knew he’d do the right thing but gah he sort of broke my heart in the meantime. Of course, Jim *could* have been more open. But I understand why he wasn’t.
I love it when he’s a little messed up and needs extra love.
November 22, 2021 at 8:34 am
Yeah I knew Spock would eventually get it and of course he did
many of us don’t know what to ask for what we need
November 22, 2021 at 8:35 am
November 22, 2021 at 8:14 am
There you go, Spock. Your first big relationship test. With a Human, anyway.
Significant others and relationships aren’t REALLY that difficult to navigate. Of course, we have proof you learn that in later life. But it will still be a couple of years until FUTURE YOU has the chance to share what you/he eventually learn – to do yourself a favor and do what feels right.
Until then, you have Jim’s BFF Bones to guide you through, especially since he’s coming at it from the other side of a painfully failed relationship and has the benefit of hindsight.
And as FUTURE YOU eventually learn from FUTURE JIM in Tholian Web, “…temper your judgment with intuitive insight. I believe you have those qualities, but if you can’t find them in yourself, seek out McCoy. Ask his advice. And if you find it sound, take it.”
Clearly, this is that time when you begin the journey to start listening to Bones and…sometimes finding his advice “sound.” Because this time, it certainly is.
And to Ivan:
Lovely pulling all that together. When I read your stories like this, I always think how we can’t even begin to really know AOS Kirk and Spock and Bones until we know TOS Kirk and Spock and Bones, inside and out, as you clearly do.
TOS reveals SO much more into their characters. Because they are, after all, the same people, just younger. With strangely different eye colors. But knowing both TOS and AOS lends a depth to your writing that those who only know one or the other will never have.
And yeah, knowing the TOS movies gets us partway there. But even in those, the characters have developed so much deeper relationships than in the series, where the REAL triumvirate was formed. It’s the character building in the series that even enables us to see the richness of those TOS movies. Without watching the series, how could anyone even begin to glean the treasure that TMP really is? To even realize how momentous those special glimpses into Spirk are – those “this simple feeling” moments that bring it all together? Spock hearing his T’hy’la calling him across lightyears of space? That’s…that’s as HUGE as it can get in the Spirk world. And you just can’t appreciate that fully without the original series.
But seriously, who would even consider using hazel tinted contact lenses to hide the depths of that crystal blue that is Chris/Kirk? I mean…we’d all rather pretend Shat had blue eyes than to cover up the beauty that is Chris’s eyes.
November 22, 2021 at 8:40 am
I never think much about the eye color issue any more. I mean the boy that played young Jim in the opening scene also had different colored eyes than Chris. And yet he worked for me. of course nowadays when in acting you aren’t allowed to play anyone who isn’t exactly like you (it was called acting for a reason mind you) they probably wouldn’t have cast Chris because of those eyes. But I love them and can still think of jim as “Jim”.
Thank you, I do think I have enough knowledge at this point as a tried and true Trekkie. I’ve watched every TOS episode and every TOS movie too many times to count and I suspect as the years past I will watch them again and again and again. I have watched AOS movies multiple times. TNG multiple times. I’m working on getting every other Trek watched multiple times too. So yes I think I pretty much bleed green blood at this point. I am glad that comes across in my fics, because I do try quite hard
November 22, 2021 at 8:47 am
Hard GRANITE agree on the acting thing. It’s not acting if you’re just playing yourself with a different name. And to this day, nobody has said even one word where those of other cultures have played white people. Which to me proves it’s all hypocrisy. And I still enjoy those movies.
I can list a hundred things I don’t like about actors and movies/TV shows. And not one has a thing to do with whether the person playing the part is exactly like the character.
In SCANDAL, a gay man plays a straight main character through all 7 years, and 2 straight men play gay men. I never heard ONE WORD out of ANYONE when that show was on.
And of course, there are the Will and Grace actors.
Nobody said a word back then nor even in the revived series.
The hypocrisy of Hollywood is …just vile.
They’re all anti-gun.
And yet there are weapons used in almost all their productions at some time. By the “good” guys.
November 22, 2021 at 1:37 pm
I really enjoyed this flash! I read it this morning and reread it now when I had a moment to myself.
I especially love it when McCoy is being a good friend to Spock as well as Jim. His advice is spot on and he gets through to Spock, because his friendship with them both shines through!
This deserves to be on ao3. It’s an excellent glimpse into the growing relationship between Jim and Spock! Oh and I’d love to see their visit to Riverside, at some point. These two are just so sweet. Jim will feel that Spock coming with him is a sign of his support and love… as indeed it as s!!!
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November 22, 2021 at 1:44 pm
Oh yeah. I 1701% agree with your AO3 comment!
November 22, 2021 at 2:49 pm
Thank you so much! Yes, Bones was a good friend to both of them here!
Ps. Alas no plans to continue to show them in Riverside 🙂
Too busy working on those December flashes! LOL
I’ve got 8 of them done!
November 23, 2021 at 4:14 am
I’m glad bones talked sense into Spock. Bones is the bestest bestie. Looking out for both of them.
And good on Spock to realize his plans needed to change