For a moment, Jim didn’t know what to say. He was trying not to feel crushing disappointment and failing.
A huge part of him should have known because the truth was nothing ever worked out for him, not really. And he hated feeling self-pity, but he was struggling with it just then.
The Kirk family rolled with the punches. They let stuff just slide and learned to move on. This was what Jim had been taught all his life.
He forced a smile and nodded. “Okay. So, we aren’t talking about tomorrow or anything, are we?”
“No.” Spock shook his head quickly. “No. Definitely not that quickly.” He hesitated. “I am not yet sure of my end date here. At present it is…up in the air.”
“But you are leaving.”
“Correct. I will be returning to where I came from.”
Jim wished he had something stronger than coffee. Like a double scotch or something. A glass of wine. But nope.
Be a big boy, Jimmy you can do this.
“Until then, we can continue to see each other then, right?”
Spock blinked long and slow kind of like a cat Jim once had. Jim had surprised him, he could see that. And for a moment Jim thought Spock was going to say no.
“Yes. That is my hope. I do…I am sorry for not informing you of this prior to the commencement of something between us.”
“Sex,” Jim supplied.
“Yes, before the commencement of sex between us.”
Jim smiled a little then, mostly because Spock’s face looked so pinched a that moment it looked painful. Someone had to ease the tension here.
“The situation is far from ideal,” Jim admitted. “I was hoping for…well whatever. What I have is this. However long it lasts. As long as that’s what you want too, Spock. I can’t speak for both of us.”
“I want this,” Spock said simply, not elaborating beyond that, yet Jim was tempted to read something deeper there.
His smile widened. “Good.”
After dinner and clean up, Jim made the decision to return to his own apartment for the night, even though there was the barest hint of staying from Spock.
Jim wasn’t ready for that, not after the shock he’d just received. And maybe if this was temporary, he shouldn’t get to that point anyway.
“I get up early,” Jim said, standing by the door of Spock’s apartment. “All my stuff is there, next door. It’s just you know, easier to go to my bed for the night.”
Spock nodded. “Quite understandable.”
Jim leaned in to kiss him, which Spock returned the kiss with such enthusiasm, Jim almost dragged him back to the bedroom. He resisted though.
Jim opened the door and went out into the hallway.
“Will I see you tomorrow?” Spock asked.
Jim grinned. “Try and stop me.”
April 28, 2022 at 5:03 am
Try and stop him indeed. But oh man. I love that they had a frank conversation about it. And I like that Jim is taking the time to work through it. But oh man, roll with the punches? Jim! You’re breaking my heart here. You shouldn’t have to settle and just “deal with it”.
Hopefully this has a better resolution for you 😉
April 28, 2022 at 7:25 am
It’s a huge disappointment for Jim but he’s trying very hard to be okay with it, poor sweetie
April 28, 2022 at 5:54 am
Oh Jim. I just want Spock to wrap him in a big hug and whisk him away.
Can’t wait for more!!
April 28, 2022 at 7:26 am
Yeah it’s not a good outcome for Jim but he is trying to act like it’s okay
April 28, 2022 at 7:33 am
Well, first. That’s one of the few Pine pics that actually favors some pics of Hemsworth. So what a great choice after using the Sam pic.
You don’t want to hear my second.
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 ad infinitum.
OR till you fix this!! Whichever comes first.
April 28, 2022 at 7:58 am
There should be some sort of resolution by the end of May even if it’s Spock saying goodbye to Jim 😦
April 28, 2022 at 8:14 am
Oh, like THAT makes it better!
April 28, 2022 at 8:33 am
well no but look at the poor Jim Kirk from Bitter Frost (one from the 50s) Spock had to leave him and make him forget they were ever together
April 28, 2022 at 8:46 am
True. I LOVE Bitter Frost. But he HAD to marry Sadie or Jim would never be born to even need saving.
April 28, 2022 at 8:56 am
Yes I did too and Spock had it made getting to be with both Jims!
April 28, 2022 at 12:31 pm
I’m having an atrocious technology day. My Venmo got locked out and I had to recover it. And I’m back at this.
May the internet deities take pity upon me!
🤞 🤞 ❤️💚😘🖖
April 29, 2022 at 8:52 am
your comments are showing up here but not in my inbox, how odd
But you are back to yourself so I guess it’s fine! lol
I’ve never used Venmo
April 28, 2022 at 12:48 pm
Loving this story! I feel for Jim.
Fix this, Ivan please!! I’ll just stand here in the corner and wait!
I still don’t trust the comment process here, since I tried to make it easier. I think my brain has melted today. And now I’m getting bombarded with emails from WordPress. 🤦🏻♀️
April 29, 2022 at 8:54 am
strange as I don’t get any emails from your comments
but so far your comments are showing up correctly
Yeah poor Jim has it bad but Spock is leaving