I’ve been writing. Sort of. I wrote two little parts of Young and Beautiful. Which I posted. And I started the next chapter of My Devotion and the One-Shot Collection 5 but I didn’t get very far on either. I didn’t post anything this past weekend on AO3 and I am not sure I will have anything to post today. I’m sort of…I don’t know. Blah.
I want to delete my account sometimes as you know. Just make it go away and never post another word. Another story on there. I haven’t and I am not sure I will. Because that’s happened to me on there and I know it sucks. I’ve been that reader that goes…oh no…
Sometimes it’s not enough though.
I don’t kid myself that someone else won’t come around to fill the gap I would leave. New writers of the Star Trek reboot movies come along all the time. The whole Spock/Bones thing seems to be catching on way too much since Beyond but whatever. I lament the lack of Kirk/Spock fics on there but alas that’s the way it is.
And I refuse to ever return to the K/S Archive.
Anyway, if I ever did delete, the fandom would go on. Springing up new life all the time and new fans. And some of them are really good, so I don’t think I’d be missed for long, really. There are those I adored to read who don’t publish anymore, so it happens.
I do have people tell me I am their favorite and that’s lovely, really. I had a reader make such a comment today. And I guess that’s why I still haven’t deleted my account there. But I can’t say the thought doesn’t occur to me still, because it does.
What’s the gist of this? I don’t know. This is called rambling for a reason.
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10 responses to “Ramblings of the Week October 10”
Oh he’s just so beautiful!
You know I totally get it. Though I think that you would leave a bigger void than you think, and it would take longer to fill then you think. Every day you go on I consider a gift bc your words mean so much to me. You know how fangirly I get. And with good reason! 😀
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Yes, he gazes at me all smoldery like that. Smoldery! Ha I like that invented word.
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I’m sorry you’re feeling “blah”. I’d be devastated if you ever stopped, but I know that all decisions have to be made for your own good. As for Jim and Bones, I actually haven’t noticed an influx in stories, just the same smattering. On the other hand, I really don’t venture much past spirk or pinto posters, what I’m looking at is pretty regulated. And as an end note, there might be more spirk writers that come down the line, but nothing is like a good Ivan story!
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Not more Jim/Bones, although there are tones of those, but SPONES. Spock and Bones which frankly gives me the willies but I recognize that’s just me. I don’t see them together at all ever. Frenemies, yes, but that’s as far as it goes. Anywho, I see mostly K/S too because that’s what I go looking for, but once in a while when I just look for AOS stories those pop up on my screen. I am hoping they will go away like most of the Kirk/Khan stories have now but we shall see.
When I first started writing in the fandom there were several writers I really liked and would everything they wrote, which was right after Into Darkness I think. Anyway, not a single one of them is posting stories today that I have seen anyway. Makes me sad.
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Wait. What. SPONES?
…. YECH.
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Or is that yuck? Blech?
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YES! that’s what I’m saying. Yuck! I blame Beyond because of the scene in the cave suddenly there are a bunch of people shipping them. Ugh
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Now that’s just crazy talk. LOL.
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I always say this “DON”T DELETE! PLEASE! I LOVE ALL YOUR STORIES! YOU’RE AWESOME! A LOT OF US WOULD BE SAD TO SEE YOU LEAVE!
Sorry about the all caps. Its out of my system 🙂
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Yeah some would. I doubt it would be a lot though
Thanks 🙂
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