Spirk (with a small dose of Pinto)

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Thanksgiving EVE EVE

So I was all proud of myself as I have written and scheduled the first 10 for December. And then I realized that means I still have 14 more to go! Ugh. LOL

This calls for something amusing to brighten the day.

On Pause

Of all AO3 updates right now.

I have SIX more flashes to write for November so yes, I maybe panicking a bit. I did write ONE for December.

I’m also gone Sunday, Monday and Tuesday coming up so this is just making things crazier. So for now, please be patient. I know things need updating but I simply do not have time.


Better Today

Not 100% or anything, but better

Yesterday was bad. I barfed up a lot. Me and Anesthesia  don’t do well. I had the same experience in 1997 when I had my gallbladder out.

I still have a touch of a headache but was able to have some soft food this morning without barfing, so that’s a plus.

I’m OKay

the anesthesia makes me barf so still a bit oogie

head hurts mouth full of blood but am okay face almost no longer numb

Will post more later not up to it now


Let’s Get Serious…Okay not THAT serious

It’s less than a week until my oral surgery and I am petrified. Yes, it’s routine. But it isn’t for me. So, and I mean this absolutely sincerely, please pray for me.

Now that’s out of the way.

I have written the flashes for Friday and Monday and will try to get Wednesday (day of surgery done) and following Friday done. I don’t know how I’ll feel after that but I’ll do my best. As you know I am also writing Cabin in the Woods.

Should I Fail to Deliver on any Stories for Whatever reason, see below.

Most of you will ignore these recommendations but I am throwing them out here just the same. Maybe someone will see it and finally give them a read.

These are the Spirk fanfics I currently HIGHLY recommend. I have read them countless times and I find them breath taking. The majority I am insanely jealous of their talent. Please note some of these have changed from what I used to recommend as I found new favorites. Where available, I provide links.

Shine Like the Sun (not new, but I can’t not mention this one. Cream of the crop good.

Rhadamanthus – I have no idea what that word means if it means anything, but there’s just something about this 6,000 word story that touches me and calls to me. It takes place after Into Darkness, written before Beyond.

In Any Universe This is the first of two stories by this author I just love. This one had mirror elements. About 11,000 words. Basically Mirror Spock loses Mirror Kirk and goes so insane he has to have AOS Kirk. It’s excellent.

The Greatest of These – the other one. Amazing. Truly. Her Spock and Kirk are just so accurate and so perfect. It’s 18 chapters. I have read it like 600 times. Just read it again. They are on a mission in a shuttlecraft and it crashes, Kirk is gravely injured. And Spock refuses to let him die. Stellar.

How We End – A priestess tells Kirk and Spock they will one day be in a relationship. Jim knows how it starts. Spock knows how it ends.

The Steadfastness of Stars – As far as I know this is the only thing she’s ever written for Spirk but it’s incredible. I’ve also read this one 600 times. 61,000 words and very detailed but so worth it. I love her Kirk and Spock and everything about them.

Those are my current recommendations if you want to take a gander.

Thanks for your support.

What I Am NOT Doing


They are starting up the sign ups for the 2022 T’hy’la Bang.

The rules are the same as last time. I think they are posting in Spring this time instead of Summer

I am not participating. Last time was not a particularly positive experience for me though I am certainly proud of the work I produced. Plus they want you to start during the holiday season and I am 100% not prepared to do that. Nope. Not going to do that to myself.

So if you see any posts about it. I tell you now. That’s a nope for me.

Good luck to anyone else who wants to partipate


So I was lucky enough to get an appointment with the endodontist today and unlucky enough for him to tell me there was nothing he could do, the tooth can’t be saved, and it would have to be extracted.

So the continuing saga of my hapless tooth continues


Flash Fic, August 16, 2021

This takes place directly after the events of The Wrath of Khan and before The Search for Spock

Leonard knew it was time to go check on Jim. He’d tried to give him some time. Spock’s funeral service had been pretty rough on him and even though he’d acted as though he might be all right on the bridge after, Leonard was not fooled.

“It is a far, far better thing that I do, than I have ever done, it is a far, far better rest that I go to than I have ever known.”

Those words notwithstanding, Leonard knew his friend and he was hurting.


When Leonard stepped into Jim’s quarters, his friend stood near to the observation window he had in his quarters. He was looking out, though Leonard wasn’t sure exactly what Jim saw.

“It’s just me,” he said, softly.

He saw the slight curve of Jim’s lips. “Hi, Bones.”

Leonard looked toward the small bar in the quarters where he spotted the decanter of brandy Jim kept there. He walked over to it and poured two glasses, approaching and handing one to Jim.

“You okay?”

Jim looked into the glass. “What do you think?” He downed it in one swallow.

About what Leonard guessed.

“Jim, don’t take this question the wrong way, but, just what was between you and Spock?”

Jim flicked a glance at him. “He’s my friend.” Paused. “Was.”

“I know that. But…was there more?”


Leonard took a sip of his own brandy. “You two were closer than most friends, closer than most brothers.”

“Sam and I hadn’t been close for years before his death,” Jim said, musingly. He shook his head. “And I haven’t kept in touch with my nephew. I really am an asshole sometimes.”

“But you and Spock—”

“What are you trying to say here, Bones?”

“Were you in love with Spock?”

“In love.” Jim shook his head. “What does that mean? I loved him. I don’t know how to go on without him, Bones. He’s been the better part of my life for years and…now he’s gone. I’d do anything to have him back. Give up anything. But I can’t raise the dead. Spock’s gone.”

“So, did you have romantic feelings for him?” Leonard persisted.

“Maybe. I honestly never sat down and analyzed things. I know that when we parted after the mission and he went for Kolinahr, I thought my heart would break.”

“Well, then.”

“That’s nothing compared to now. I’d give anything for him to be back on Vulcan, having gone through Kolinahr and never looked back.”

“I’m sorry, Jim. And I’m sorry I brought all this up. I guess…I just needed to know.” Leonard put the empty glass down. “I’ve been feeling a bit out of sorts myself lately.”

And it was true. Sometimes Leonard felt as though there were someone else’s thoughts in his head. Strange.

Jim smiled faintly. “It’s okay, Bones. But if you don’t mind, I’d like to be alone.”

“All right. Let me know if you need anything.”

Leonard left and returned to his own quarters, still feeling as though he was missing some piece of information.

Flash Fic, August 9, 2021

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In the early days of their relationship, he didn’t really notice it. Love is blind they say, and he certainly was as fully in love as anyone ever was.

But after they bonded and married, he’d noticed it. Oh, it was minor. A mere insignificant thing and he would never mention it to anyone, including his love.

His love was still absolutely brilliant. Beyond brilliant. And such tiny inconsistencies were nothing. There was the old tale of the absentminded professor, and he was certain that applied.

And it was never every time, anyway.

A missing number in a report that should have been there. Nothing really, it could have been missed by anyone, and the fact that it was missed by him, that was why he paid attention to it.

Truthfully, it was endearing.

And he did not know why.

So, he’d taken to going into these reports and other things and adding it himself. He had the same accesses and same passwords to accounts his love did. They were bondmates after all. No real secrets existed.

Except perhaps this. If he knew that these things were being corrected, he never let on.

Much later, when they retired from Starfleet and went to live together in San Francisco, and they both took up teaching at the Academy, it was even more minor things.

Their apartment number left off an address when he ordered something. As it was now.

With a shake of his head, he read the notice from the shipping company that they needed a unit number as it had been left off the order form.

He added the unit number, saved the address, and closed the site.

The door to the apartment opened only moments later. He stood and gave his husband a kiss. Sweet, gentle, and welcomed.

“Did my order arrive yet from the teashop? I placed it some time ago and it has still not arrived.”

He smiled, pulled him close, and said, “I’m sure it will soon, Spock. It’s likely on its way, even now.”

And yes, his absolutely stunningly brilliant husband who had an incredible memory was not perfect. He was okay with that. More than okay.

Because, yes, he was perfect after all.      

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