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The Love of a Lifetime, July 20, 2018

And I couldn’t. That was the truth. I just hoped that when he arrived I would remember his name. His face. Sometimes all there was for me was Spock. If I forget Spock, then please just end this.

He was frowning slightly now.

“What?”

“Through the bond, I feel…you are distressed.”

“It’s nothing, Spock. Just a little…unsure. I don’t want to disappoint you or Suvoc.”

“That is impossible.”

“You know what I mean. My-my memory issues.” I sighed. “God I hate this.”

“Whatever happens, I will be with you until the end,” Spock assured me.

“I know and that’s what bothers me.”

“Jim—”

“I know. You don’t want to hear how I’m a burden to you like this. But I am, honey. And we both know it.”

Rambling Update, July 18, 2018

So what am I working on at present?

Well, I started the next chapter of Nine Lives. I feel like I need to move forward with this story. It’s been fun to write but Spock has been a cat for a long time now and I feel like there needs to be payoff here soon. So that’s where my thoughts are going with that story.

Otherwise I am preparing to begin penning/typing the next chapter of My Devotion. The other day I was looking at my statistics and there are a crazy insane amount of subscribers to that story. I don’t know if all of those people are still reading it but it was great to see the interest there anyway.

Everyone has their favorites and everyone wants those updated faster and next, of course, and I totally get that, so I try to update as in order as I can but also with the idea of current popularity in mind, which is why you saw some frequent updates on Idiots in Love.

As I indicated prior, though, I am coming up on a very busy month for me, August (not to mention expensive), so I will do the best I can. I am going to Solvang, the Hollywood Bowl, and San Diego, one right after the other after the other.

This weekend, I believe anyway, that I have it free. Thankfully! Then beginning with the last weekend of July (mom’s 92 birthday), I go in to the busy period until the end of August.

So anyway, look for Nine Lives coming soon. And we will see after that.

My thoughts July 17, 2018

First, I saw some poor guy on a motorcycle get hit by a car this morning on the way to work. It was AWFUL. Still shaken up by it. The guy was sitting up when someone went to him, so that was good. But it was just so horrible. I still can’t believe how close the car that hit him was following him. I witnessed it and I still can’t fathom how that asshole hit him. It looked almost deliberate.

Second, a note about canon. I’m going to lock this post from comments because I don’t want to get into any arguments with anyone and this is MY opinion on what is canon and I cannot be dissuaded from it.

To me what the original creator created is canon. So in this case of the characters of Spock, Kirk, McCoy, Uhura, Chekov, Sulu, etc, created by Gene, as created by Gene, are canon. As he created TNG this would be the same for those characters. Those behind DS9, Voyager and Enterprise created that.

In the case of the new movies, no Spock and Uhura being together is NOT canon. Gene did not create them as a couple. He created t’hy’la to describe the relationship between Spock and Kirk, whether you believe it was platonic or not. In much the same way, George T can claim Sulu being gay is not canon, because that’s not what Gene created, I submit the same for Spock and Uhura. No, not canon.

JJ changed it just like any fanfiction author has over the years. We can change what we want to suit our purposes too, but that doesn’t make it canon.

And frankly, I feel the same about Michael Burnham from Discovery. Canonly, she is NOT Spock’s adopted sister. While the original cast was still active in the show and the movies, Gene never created this scenario/storyline for Spock. In fact, Leonard Nimoy had already passed away and had absolutely nothing to be able to say in this. So, just like the other, I think the Discovery writers who decided to add her as Spock’s “adopted sister” is just the same as fanfiction and non-canon.

What prompted this? Well stuff on tumblr of course. I enjoy many aspects of tumblr but there is much to really dislike.

Anyway, thanks for listening, or not.

The Love of a Lifetime, July 17, 2018

Spock stared at me in that intense way he had always stared at me. As though he was trying to see into me, not just on the outside, and I had always loved it. I still did. And at least I remembered that much.

“What are you thinking, Adun?”

My smile was more genuine now. I took his hand in mine and curled our fingers together. “How much I love you.”

Those brown eyes warmed. People who bought the emotionless Vulcan stories were fools.

“It cannot compare to my love for you.”

I laughed then. “Want to bet? So when does Suvoc arrive?”

“Tomorrow.” Spock hesitated. “If that is okay.”

“Of course it is. Can’t wait to see him.”

 

Messing Around

Hypos

Jim flopped down on his bed in the dorm and groaned. “Oh my God.”

Bones was already rising from the bed next to him, reaching for his medical bag. “You’re sick? What happened? Someone slip you something? You get into a fight? I have a hypo for that.”

“No, Bones. I’m not sick.”

Bones paused, hovering over Jim. “Not sick?”

“No.” Jim sighed and closed his eyes. “I just had the most amazing sex of my life.”

Bones sat down and buried his face in his hands. “This is about sex?”

“No. Not sex. Sex.”

“I’m too tired for this. With who?”

“Uh. Well. That’s it.”

“What is it? And I know I’m going to be sorry I asked.”

“I, um, don’t know. But God it was incredible. He was.”

Friday’s Musings (07/13/2018)

Friday, I finished Unbonded. This story was started at the end of May 2017, but it’s finally complete. I think this was another idea that came out of a one-shot idea that ended up being not a one-shot. I still closed it at under 20,000 words because try as I might, I am not particularly wordy.

That leaves me with the following WIPS:

My Devotion

All I Ever Wanted

The Sight

Young and Beautiful

Idiots in Love

The Love of a Lifetime

Where My Demons Hide

Didn’t We Almost Have It All

What Happened to Spock

Nine Lives

Anything

When I Loved You

The Experiment

Some of those were started quite recently and others have been around for quite a while. In the coming months (July-August) I anticipate having Anything finished and likely Idiots in Love.

This all doesn’t count Bitter Frost, which is still on hiatus and I am unclear if I will ever finish it. I started off with a lot of excitement and enthusiasm for that story but it has quite frankly died. I can’t even say why. So we will see.

When all of these are finished, if I haven’t started yet another story, which you never know about me, I will have to decide if I will continue writing Star Trek fanfiction. I have been at it since 2013 and that’s a long time. I dearly love Star Trek and Kirk and Spock specifically, so it would be hard for me to quit it all together. I can’t keep up with my brain these days. I’m always thinking of new ideas and unable to write them in a timely manner, which has absolutely, clearly, lost me some readership. I’ve seen readers come and go over the years, which I think is normal for this type of thing, but I also know there are those still on the site that have given up on reading my work. I may be fooling myself, but I don’t think it’s that my quality has gone down, but rather they don’t want to follow ongoing stories. I do understand that. And you never know if someone will disappear without ever finishing a story you’ve spent months investing reading in only to have them give up or die or whatever. I get it. I do.

August is a crazy busy month for me though, especially weekends, so I will do my best to keep updates coming as regularly as I can manage them and my sanity.

Weatherwise, in my neck of the woods, we are having typical July weather, 90s. We are having a little atypical humidity too but it’s manageable. At least, so far, knock on wood, my AC still works. You may or may not recall the horror of the dead AC last year during a beastly heatwave. It cost $500 to fix and the AC dude said that our AC was old and would only last another couple of years.

I have already bought a Christmas decoration. Yes, I know. But it was a Christmas in July sale and he was this really cool snowman. I’m not usually fond of those AT ALL but this one was cool and is battery operated and lights up, etc. I am looking forward to showing him off come Christmas. Which reminds me! I also have the Christmas story I am working on as well as the Old Married Spirk. Oiye. Only one Christmas story this year though. It’s shaping up to be a story with only Jim and Spock as the characters, so that’s kind of nice.

 

 

The Love of a Lifetime, Continuing Story

Sometimes I ask for death. Not in front of Spock. That would be too much. Too cruel. But to myself. I didn’t think I would have to face this.

And now I am.

Would it have been better to be lost during a mission saving others as the other Kirk was? I sometimes think…

“Jim?”

Judging by the edge of panic I detected in Spock’s voice he was concerned again. I must have spaced out.

Space.

I missed it.

I smiled, didn’t know if it was forced. No longer cared really. I squeezed his hand. “Right here, Spock.”

Just Random Stuff

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I got the update done on Young and Beautiful, go me.

I’ve posted 2 chapters of Idiots in Love.

I have another part to The Love of a Lifetime coming up Friday.

In other news I signed up for the Old Married Spirk challenge this year. I did it in 2016 but not 2017. I intend to try for The Original Series Spirk as I think that’ mostly the intended though she allows you to write it for others. Would be kind of amusing to do Old Married Spirk Mirror Universe! HA. At this point I have zero ideas but I have until November.

The horrible heat has decreased though it’s still hot. I don’t have much planned for t his weekend coming up and that makes me happy!

 

The Love of a Lifetime, continuing story

I’m losing my mind.

It’s strange knowing. Sometimes I know. I think. Other times I think whatever I am thinking is normal, even when on some level I maybe know it is not. Spock says I get worse as the sun goes down. Sun Downers. And worse when I am alone. This means Spock is either trapped to constantly stay with me or he has to get me a “baby sitter”.

I try to convince him to put me in some sort of facility where he will no longer be so burdened with me. But if one thing has remained the same, it is that Spock remains very stubborn.

We will not be separated.

So he says. And so we will not be. Until I unburden him with my death. Whenever that is.

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