Just now I finished Anything.
After nearly two years, even I think it’s about time!
So I was watching some videos and I came across a song that is inspirational to me for Spirk. This one would be for Spock, as in Jim would be the one saying all this about Spock.
Below are they lyrics and I would call it Beneath Your Beautiful. Will I write it? We shall see!
You tell all the boys no
Makes you feel good yeah
I know you’re out of my league
But that won’t scare me away oh no
You’ve carried on so long
You couldn’t stop if you tried it
You’ve built your wall so high
That no one could climb it
But I’m gonna try
Would you let me see beneath your beautiful
Would you let me see beneath your perfect
It’s me again.
At it again.
Yes, last night I thought of a new idea for an angsty Spirk story. I ran the idea by Kris, who was definitely on board with me writing it, but I can’t write it right now. I have too much going on that will prevent it, at least for a little while.
This will be totally off the timeline you see in the movies. It will be more similar to TOS but with the AOS cast, basically, and some elements of the AOS stuff. The entire prologue will take place before they are all on the Enterprise. I anticipate the prologue being kind of longish as I will have a lot to cover in it, but we will see when it sees the light of day.
The thing is we are coming up on the busiest time of year for me for personal time requests from family and friends. This is going to make my writing updates even more erratic.
For example, I have something personal I simply must attend to for September, which puts everything else on hold until it’s done. It’s just the way it has to be. I hope it won’t take me the rest of the month, but it might, consider I am doing the Queen Mary thing at the end of September as well.
Plus I also have the Professor Spock Halloween story to finish. I have started it and got a decent start, I think. It’s probably going to end up a one-shot rather than a multi-chapter fic, but we will see. There’s also the OMS challenge story (TOS) that I have to have ready in November. It won’t be a long story and I have started it at least but it takes a bit for me to find the TOS voice. And of course there is still my Christmas story! I have quite a bit done on that one and the boys are getting very close to a very nice Christmas indeed HA HA.
I’d also like to finish Anything in the not too distant future.
So you see there’s a lot I need to do before starting anything else plus all my regular updates. It felt good to finish What Happened to Spock, although now that it is finished, I can think of things I should have done, addressed, etc. Oh well.
But for now, I am working on me. My personal thing. Once I get through that, I can turn back to writing Spirk/Kock (ha ha).
For now I leave you with a picture
What Happened to Spock is finished if anyone cares!
Began part 2 of My Devotion today. Look for it on AO3.
I was home today so I started a little bit of pre-autumn decorating.
Those are battery operated leaf lights in case you can’t tell. I also went through my closet and got rid of some stuff and then took it to the Goodwill.
Alas it’s back to work tomorrow and supposed to be 100 this weekend. Sigh.
At the end of this month, our Maine cousin who comes almost every year to visit is coming and we decided to do something special this year. We are going to stay over one night at the Queen Mary in Long Beach. This is a very famous place. And they have great restaurants and bars. They start their Halloween thing the same night we are going but we aren’t going to that.
Here’s an example of a room there.
It’s a fun place with lots of atmosphere and we think she will just love it. Likely we will go to Sir Winston’s Restaurant when we go which is very fancy.
Something for sure to look forward to.
I think next up is What Happened to Spock. So we shall see!
I really wish I knew how to make Spirk videos because this song would be perfect for a piney (ha) Kirk thinking about Spock and she who will not be named.
You may have noticed my lack of updates on my OMS story here better known as The Love of a Lifetime. I plan to get back to it soon but there is no denying my current mood is unmotivated.
Got off work early today at 1:00. Our department is very cool about this. We only have to work a six hour day before major holidays but sill get paid for 8. A small and appreciated perk.
The other day at the grocery store they had a display of my favorite cereal already!
I didn’t get any though. I can’t eat the same things I usually eat these days but I may give in at some point. We will see.
I think next up to update is Nine Lives. Look for major developments in that one. After that update, I am not sure what I’m going to do.
I have an extra long weekend though I think I have plans on both Saturday and Sunday.
I’m glad to see September and will be even more so when Autumn officially starts later in the month. I love autumn. Decorations, foods, tea, holidays (Halloween and TG). I should have been born in Fall but I was not.
I’ve made no particular decisions about my internet presence.
A couple of days ago, friends of mine broke up after being together for 17 years. Though they never got married, when you are with someone that many years, you’re as good as married in my book.
He came up with the usual crap of “I think we should see other people”, meaning of course that he should see other people. Or rather, he already is. I think she was a bit gobsmacked, honestly, though I think she knew the signs were there.
He’s been acting like a douche for a while now, I think now maybe in an effort to get her to dump him or something, but that didn’t happen. I guess you tolerate a lot after that many years together. A year or so ago she found a condom wrapper in his bedroom and asked him about it. They had gotten to the point that they no longer used condoms. He came up with some BS story but now looking back at it, she guesses something was even going on then.
M and I have wondered for a while why they were still together as their relationship seemed pretty toxic to us. He seemed to go out of his way to be a dick. We discussed it many times. While neither of them are perfect and she had her fair share of culpability in their disagreements, he was much worse about it all.
Anyway, he gave her the ‘we can still be friends’ speech, which she rightly struck down. Especially since one of these ways was to watch his dog while he vacations with someone else. Yeah, right.
It also means the end of our friendship with him, because she is our friend, and he became our friend through her. So yeah, dude, you do lose out. He had the nerve to tell her he wanted to keep in touch with her niece and great niece (who are like her daughter and granddaughter). She told him that was up to her niece, but I’m going to be pissed off myself if she has anything to do with the asshole.
M obviously was pretty affected by the whole thing because he said to me last night, thank you for not breaking up with me. AS IF.
Life really sucks sometimes.
Reminds me of this lyric from Her Town Too by James Taylor.
Well, people got used to seeing them both together
But now he’s gone and life goes on
Nothing lasts forever, oh no
She gets the house and the garden
He gets the boys in the band
Some of them his friends
Some of them her friends
Some of them understand
In other news, I am thinking of leaving the internet again. I find the whole thing incredibly discouraging to be honest. Not just the news and our president, which is definitely bad enough, but just everything, really. Star Trek news, Tumblr crap (I’ll never be part of the clique obviously), even this blog which gets almost no attention but just a few of you, which thank you, by the way. Those who get to know me are aware I am a very very sensitive person. Too sensitive, it’s true. But I am not going to toughen up at this point in my life. I’ve been through several internet friendships that ended due to my sensitive nature and my apparent ability to attract those who are equally sensitive. I don’t know, at some point, when all you’re getting out of something is discouragement, it’s time to end things.
When I first started this journey of fanfiction, I stuck to that site only, and didn’t do the rest, so I don’t know, maybe it’s time to go back to that. I’ve gotten some great pictures and art and memes on places like tumblr but are they really worth the aggravation and bad feelings I often come away with? Probably not.
Anyway, it has me thinking I need to return to anonymity and stick with it. After all, who really needs to know the person behind the writer of Spirk on AO3? Those are my present thoughts anyway.
Spirk (with a small dose of Pinto) 