I couldn’t really find a satisfactory picture, so you get snow

Sort of a continuation of the one in November when Jim went outside when Sam arrived and Spock brought him his a coat
“Dinner is almost ready.”
Jim bit back an irritated, snarky ‘I’m not hungry’ and instead managed to grumble, “Okay.”
He thought his mom would go away then and leave him alone. But though she might not have been born a Kirk she somehow managed to get the Kirk stubbornness, nonetheless.
He was sitting on a raised log by the barn. As long as Jim could remember this same stupid log had been in the same place. It had been used as a sort of bench for decades. His mom sat beside him instead of going back into the house where it was warm and she belonged.
A short time ago he’d sent his frozen husband inside to get warm.
“You know it wouldn’t hurt you to try to get along with your brother. You’re both adults now.”
“I didn’t know turning eighteen made all the pain go away.”
“Jim.”
He sighed. “I’m trying.”
“Not very hard.”
He shot her a look. “What do you want from me?”
“What do you want from me? He’s my son too. What was I supposed to do? Tell him not to come? He’s hurting and he needs a place to stay right now. He’s going through some serious stuff. And what was I supposed to tell you? No, Jim, don’t come for the holidays, your brother will be here.”
“No. I don’t know. It’s just…every time I look at his stupid face I just want to punch him.”
“So punch him.”
Jim rolled his eyes. “I can’t punch him.”
“Sure you can. Maybe it’ll help.” She shrugged. “He might punch you back.”
“That’ll go over real well with Spock.”
“The Great Christmas Fight of Stardate 2266,” she cracked.
Jim laughed, he couldn’t help himself. And yeah she’d intended that. Moms were manipulative that way.
“Come on inside. I made all your favorites.”
“All of them?”
“Yep. And I have eggnog and…brandy.”
Jim smiled.
“And I’m pretty sure I saw Spock taking a bite of a chocolate bar.”
He rose from the log, grabbed her hand to pull her up, and put his arm around her. “Okay, Mother mine. Let’s go inside.”
“Thanks, honey.”
“I know. Merry Christmas.”
December 14, 2022 at 6:13 am
Oh man. A) he’s breaking my heart bc I understand that pain but also b) I love Winona here. The whole convo is just so good. The love is clear and I love the open communication. Excellent!
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December 14, 2022 at 7:21 am
thank you so much!
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December 14, 2022 at 8:56 am
This is very anxiety and spot on. Mom just wants everyone to get along! She loves them both, in their own way. ❤️❤️❤️
Poor Spock just wants to see Jim happy and is turning to chocolate!
Sounds like my house just after Thanksgiving this year. My oldest would be Sam, and my twins would be Jim. It’s an improvement overThanksgiving last year, when one twin and my oldest got into an argument over nothing. It led to pushing, and arm swinging at one another.
Yeah it can be very bad! 💔
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December 14, 2022 at 9:18 am
I didn’t realize your girls had come to blows in their fights. Ugh. Poor you
And thanks for your comment about the fic 🙂
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December 14, 2022 at 8:58 am
Typo^. This is very angsty… However, it is very anxiety-provoking too!
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December 14, 2022 at 9:17 am
Yes it is!
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December 14, 2022 at 10:14 am
Ah. Winona. No mother wants to be put between her kids. But of course she wanted Jim there, and Jim wanted to be till…
I’m so glad she didn’t react to Jim’s snark. She knew he didn’t mean it. That it was coming from a core of deep hurt. She’s very wise.
“I didn’t know turning eighteen made all the pain go away.” Ouch. So very ouch. (Turning almost 70 doesn’t either.) Reminds me of ST V and Kirk and Sybok: “…pain and guilt can’t be taken away with the wave of a magic wand. They’re things we carry with us, the things that make us who we are. …If we lose them, we lose ourselves. I don’t want my pain taken away. I need my pain.”
Though honestly, AOS Jim knows much more pain that we were ever told TOS Jim experienced.
I’m glad Jim calmed down and actually listened to his mom and conceded to go in to dinner.
And maybe this time, Winona can help both her sons find a way back to each other and help diminish both their pain.
May she be successful.
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December 14, 2022 at 10:16 am
(Today would have been my 50th wedding anniversary.)
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December 14, 2022 at 10:45 am
And yet you escaped that abuse, you are a survivor *hugs*
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December 14, 2022 at 10:47 am
❤️
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December 14, 2022 at 10:49 am
Well TOS Kirk did lose Sam (although in a much different way) and he did experience Tarsus but for the most part I agree, he had a much more stable life, though by V he’d lost David too.
Yeah it’s got to be rough being torn between your children. Winona understands where Jim is coming from and she doesn’t condone what Sam did, but he’s still her son and she can’t turn away
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December 14, 2022 at 10:56 am
TOS Kirk had his dad. And he didn’t have to be subjected to Frank. He got along with Sam at least before he lost him. It’s all pain. But it’s like AOS Kirk wanted to commit suicide, he was so emotionally damaged by everything in his life before that moment, and as far as we know, TOS Kirk didn’t. Those are the reasons I was thinking that direction.
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December 14, 2022 at 11:12 am
Oh I definitely agree
and TOS Kirk didn’t have all the abandonment AOS went through
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