When I post this all at once on AO3 (if I do so we can all collect it if we want), I’ll probably play around with chapter placement, for now, this is the chapter numbers you get.

Spock kissed Jim for a long time. Holding him close. Arms around his waist. Just kissing. He wanted no pressure on either of them. Yes, he’d brought the necessary lubricant. And yes he wished for them to do whatever they felt like doing, but…on the other hand, he didn’t want to rush Jim. Or himself. They had time.
They made it over to Jim’s single bed. Fell on to it. Lips still connected. Arms still locked around each other. A fleeting thought was that they really needed bigger beds, both of them.
During a particularly heated kiss, Spock managed to knock Jim’s glasses askew, which caused a puff of a laugh to escape from Jim’s mouth to Spock’s and somehow it was like breathing the same air.
Spock removed the glasses and put them on a little side table by Jim’s bed. Now as he drew back and looked into those sapphire eyes, Spock thought they were like the most beautiful of jewels. He felt a bit foolish thinking this but he did anyway.
Jim licked his lips and Spock watched him. He watched Jim’s every move.
“Do you want to…do what we talked about or…like the-the full thing?”
Jim’s shy question filled Spock with so much warm affection and yes, lust, that it was almost too much for a Vulcan. He put his hand on Jim’s face. Everything about him, about this human, felt perfect, felt right.
“I want…everything with you.”
“Have you-you ever—?”
“I have no more experience than you, Jim, but…I have done research and I understand the logistics.”
Jim turned a bit pink, but his smile lit up his face. “Well…as long as you understand the logistics.”
“You are laughing at me.”
Jim shook his head, but his smile widened. “No. I mean, sure, but only a little. I, uh, too did some research. And I know how it works too.”
Spock’s lips twitched. “That is good.”
Jim returned to kissing him, and all amusement fled Spock’s mind, and his thoughts turned to what would happen next.
May 7, 2021 at 4:12 am
They are so freaking cute and awkward and adorable and hot. Like how do you manage to make them all the things?? I love it
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May 7, 2021 at 8:20 am
Well in all honesty I don’t try to make them awkward.
Thank you!
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May 7, 2021 at 9:04 am
Biggest laugh of the day – your reply to Kris – that you don’t TRY to make them awkward. hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
Anyway, they ARE adorable and you so well describe the feelings of a first time ever love. Spock plans that they BOTH need bigger beds? haha He’s planning for the future a little better now.
And yes, ao3. I love when you put your works there so we can reread in its entirety easily.
And every one of these updates blows me away that you are doing this for us, through all the stuff in your life right now.
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May 7, 2021 at 9:29 am
🙂
Yeah it’s getting tougher, honestly. Not sure how much longer she can last. She’s not eating at all but she still drinks a bit. She’s SO weak and pale. I can’t promise anything in particular on any day next week but we will see ❤
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May 7, 2021 at 9:36 am
I don’t know if it helps or hurts, and if it hurts, please just delete this, but from the point my dad asked if he could just stop eating because it just tasted awful to him (from cancer) and was too much effort any more, it was 4 days.
I had read that sometimes people hang on for their loved ones and just need permission to go. At that point, I kind of did that. He was in such pain. The 3rd day he was unconscious all day. And it was very early the 4th day he left.
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May 7, 2021 at 9:41 am
It doesn’t hurt, so thank you. She’s not really been eating for a lot longer, honestly. And you can tell her cancer is taking its toll on her but man has she got a strong will to hang on. We are honestly surprised. ❤
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May 7, 2021 at 9:29 am
And yes I love these two sweethearts
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May 8, 2021 at 7:04 am
I love these two so much. So cute and adorkable 🙂
Big hugs!
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