Author: ivansfanfiction
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When to Keep Quiet, Do I Know?
‘Tis the season for weird offenses.
People who get offended by “Happy Holidays” instead of “Merry Christmas” are annoying. There are all kinds of holidays. What in the hell is wrong with wishing someone well, which is what “Happy Holidays” is. People seem to think “Happy Holidays” is something new that came about because of the “War on Christmas” (laughable) but Andy Williams sang a song called “Happy Holidays” in the early 60s. Truly people, get over it.It’s not offensive to be told Happy Holidays even if you are Christian.
Someone posted on AO3 complaining that all the Spirk Christmas fics ignore that Spock is Jewish. Well, I don’t. But here’s the thing. Roddenberry was an Atheist. As far as I know what “religion” anyone was on Star Trek was not discussed. I don’t recall it. I know Leonard Nimoy was Jewish and was allowed to incorporate much of the Jewish religion into things we now know as Vulcan today. No one is disputing that. I admit I haven’t read any Spirk fics that show Spock being Christian, but I guess it’s possible there are. Usually in my own fics I leave Jesus out of the whole thing because I treat Christmas as a secular thing as I am at best agnostic. Anyway this person complained that a lot of it came from the people writing about the 2009 movie and onward. First of all, if you ARE new to the fandom, welcome. I would never ever think you should be made to feel unwelcome. And second, I know for a fact Spock’s religion is never brought up then. Winona Ryder who plays Spock’s mother, too briefly in my opinion, is Jewish. Zachary Quinto is not. So if you came to the fandom for the more recent movies, of course you aren’t going to know. I don’t know, it just seems something entirely too silly to get bothered over.
Right after that, I saw someone’s comment on a fic where the author did mention Spock being Jewish, and she made a comment that no other fics do that. Since I have and have seen others, I couldn’t help shaking my head and wondering when I became invisible.
Anyway, I have always been taught when you are different religions (or not at all religious as applies to me) you compromise on celebrations and the like. But what do I know?)
I guess I should keep my mouth shut as usual.
Happy Holidays!
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Using Music for Inspiration
Just as the title indicates I have a whole playlist that inspires my stories. No surprise many of them are angsty.
Here are some of them:
Keep the Streets Empty for Me – Fever Ray
You Will Pull Through – Barcelona
I Found -Amber Run
Nitesky – Benjamin Francis Leftwich
Cry For You – September
Say Something – A Great Big World
I Would Die For You -Jann Arden
My Skin – Natalie Merchant
Fight Song – Rachel Platten
There I Said It – Adam Lambert
This is a small list of them. I may do a part 2 at some point
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Weekly Ramblings, Week of December 19
So, this is the last week before Christmas. My plans have altered somewhat. I thought I was going to get to have Christmas Eve with just the two of us. There was hope for a half a second. Ever since we met a certain friend, many years ago, we have spent Christmas Eve with her and her family. It’s kind of a drag always doing it.
This year she made plans to be in Vegas with her boyfriend for the whole weekend. And we were going to do our Christmas get-together on Thursday the 22nd. But well then her boyfriend remembered suddenly that his family would throw a fit that he didn’t come for Christmas and those plans changed. And so did mine. So much for the Christmas Eve with just the two of us plans.
He doesn’t understand of course. He sees me every day and so he thinks the holidays are about spending time with family and friends not with each other. So I have to grin and bear it, as usual.
I have to work all week. We will get off early on Friday. I’m going to try like hell to get all my holiday stories done by Christmas, but I am only one person. Worse, was I thought of an idea for another but I am seriously resisting. Seriously.
That’s it. Merry Christmas and see you on A03
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Our Shopping Day
So we went Christmas shopping. I’d already done a bunch but this was to finish it all off, including for a few friends I have at work. And the Significant had stuff to do too.
First we hit Walmart and it was sort of earlyish so it wasn’t so bad. There were lots of people there and I admit some of them made me want me to go…
Next we went to Bevmo, which was nearby and a bit better of an experience. I had Jack Daniels to buy for my friend at work and some little miniature bottles for a friend’s basket I am making. I don’t know if you’ve heard of Moscow Mules but SO is giving this friend a set of copper Moscow Mules cups so that’s why I was getting little vodkas. We coordinate nicely, after all.
Then we moved on to the mall.
Now in spite of Jim’s face here, it’s not that bad. It’s an outdoor mall. I am sure they don’t have those where most of you live. Whenever the SO parks, he chooses the farthest away spot you can imagine.Which admittedly makes me go a little Sylar.
Anyway, we found a spot and headed into a place called Marshall’s. I don’t know that they have these everywhere, but they are sort of a little of everything. I didn’t get anything here but the SO did.
We then headed for lunch at Red Robin. After that we hit a Hallmark store, where the SO bought stuff again, but not me, and then Bath and Body Works. I was buying stuff here for females in my family. Place was a nightmare.
I was tempted to do this.
But it gets worse! LOL.
we leave to finally go to somewhere other than the mall and we can’t find the car. I thought we were further down then we were, because as I said, he parks far. We wandered around this parking lot for like 20 minutes and I was starting to panic thinking someone had stolen it with all the crap we’d just bought in it. Fortunately, that was not the case.
Then we hit Bed, Bath and Beyond which wasn’t so bad at all.
But then…we went to Target
Seriously scary stuff.
Then finally the grocery store. Right. Ugh.
So when we finally got home and put everything away at last
Right so there was our day.
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For the World is Hollow
Don’t really know what that has to do with my post, I’m just a Star Trek nerd.
Sometimes I feel like this:
Or maybe this:
I love December and the holidays involved with it. But it is not without its stresses and also its sad moments. A couple of people I was very close to had birthdays in December and each year that passes with them no longer with us I cannot help but feel that heartbreak.
Neither died during December but their births remind me even though both have been gone several years now.
One was born on December 12, which has now already passed for the year, and though I won’t go into details of the significance or even the identity of this person, there is a particular Christmas song that reminds me, Augie Rios’ Donde Esta Santa Claus. For a long time I was unable to get this version, which is the one that I remember my loved one for. Then a few years back on December 12th, I was sitting in my car waiting at the train station when the radio station I was listening to played this song and that version. To this day I remember sitting there with tears streaming down my face.
I do not believe in God, have not for a very long time, but to say that was a freakish coincidence is putting it lightly.
Now, I own this song and play it at least once on the 12th, and other times too.
The other was born on the 18th, a week before Christmas. She has been gone fewer years than the other but her absence is also keenly felt.
And others, too. Each year sees changes in our holidays, absences that cannot be overlooked. And I feel that more as I get older. Your mortality hits you hard at some point.
Last night was not a good night for me. I spent the night in severe pain on my left side from a bad arthritic attack and no matter how I tried I could not get comfortable. Losing loved ones and living with pain is something you learn to get used to as you age, I guess. But all I know is that time is marching on and will eventually leave me behind.
Tomorrow, Saturday, I intend to do a lot of Christmas shopping. I want to finish everything. I have a good start but tomorrow it will be over, if I have anything to say about it. I admit I have gone way overboard this year. I just feel the need to. My credit cards will not thank me later.
And since more and more holiday stuff is coming up, I am beginning to think I have bitten off far more than I can chew with regard to my holiday stories. Should have learned to leave well enough alone.
I have no more time off from work coming up other than the regular holidays of December 26 (for Christmas) and January 02 (for New Year’s). I decided to let co-workers take the holiday time to be with their families. And I have a ton of work to do, as always.
Anyway, I am working on the next chapter of I Heard the Bells. Should be up tomorrow before I go marathon shopping.
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Story Ideas
What does everyone think of a MPreg story (obviously AU) where Jim gets pregnant from a day where he has sex with three different guys? HA, I know. But, um, bear with me. The first one would be a boss or Admiral or Captain that sort of coerces Jim, then Jim would have sex with Professor Spock, well just because Spock is hot obviously, and then finally Jim has sex with his boyfriend, Gary. LOL. Anyway. He won’t know who the father is. Who’s the Daddy? Eventually, he’d be with Spock and blah blah blah.
Too weird? Too Slutty? Too Bridget Jonesy?
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Random Self-Loathing
I sometimes wonder how long it would take before anyone would notice if I didn’t post anything for days and days on AO3. I honestly think it would take most people a long time. And then they wouldn’t care.
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Ivan Recommends
It’s rare, though not unheard of, that I recommend a fic, but this one is really stellar. It won’t be for everyone (it has mpreg elements) but it is Top Spock, Bottom Jim, Alpha/Omega dynamics, and the emotions just pack a punch.
It’s long. With the first chapter being 30,000 words and a second chapter eventually expected.
