Spock has been unsettled ever since the events surrounding Psi 2000. Oh, he is back to his normal self, no longer feeling any effects of the infection, and yet Spock still suffers some…embarrassment…from his behavior.
He hovers outside the captain’s quarters, feeling an inexplicable need to either or apologize or explain himself and the things he said, but now that he is there, he feels more uncertain.
Spock supposes he wouldn’t have even thought about it, but there’s no doubt that Kirk has treated him somewhat differently since their encounter in the conference room. He is about to turn away, deciding not to speak about it after all, when the door of Kirk’s cabin suddenly opens, and the captain looks startled to see him.
Spock does not blame him.
“Mister Spock? Was there something you wanted to speak with me about?”
Did he? Well, if there is one thing Spock is not, it is coward.
“If I may have a moment?”
“Sure.” Kirk steps back to let him inside.
The door closes behind him, after his entry. He doesn’t want to stay long, he wants this over and done with.
“I wish to apologize.”
Kirk cuts him off with a shake of his head. Then, “Forget about it, Spock.”
“The things I said while in the conference room—”
Kirk smiles. “I’ve already forgotten about them.”
“Have you?” he asks doubtfully.
“Of course. Many of us did and said things we now regret, Mister Spock. I don’t hold that against any man or woman.” He pauses, his smile widening. “Especially you.”
“Why especially me?”
“Well.” He shrugs. “Those things we experienced. The out of control emotions and the insanity that went with them—”
“One of the reasons Vulcans follow Surak’s teachings is because we view many emotional responses as…insanity.”
“I know. Which is why I don’t blame you most of all. It was something none of us were used to, and especially you. Whatever you said, whatever you felt while under the influence of the infection…I’ve forgotten about it. And forgiven too. I suggest we, all of us, move on from that.”
Spock is more than willing to move on, so he nods. “Very well, Captain.”
“Is that all, Mister Spock?”
“I was about to go to the mess for some dinner. Care to accompany me?”
Spock nods again. “That would be agreeable.”
They exist the cabin and fall into step beside each other even as McCoy suddenly appears to join them.
“Where are we going?”
“Excellent, I’m hungry.”
And for the first time since they left the dying planet of Psi 2000, Spock feels like most everything has returned to the way it should be.