And so begins another month of flashes. I have no particular theme for this month, whatever strikes my fancy and fills my imagination. Here’s the first one.
Jim finds him on the observation deck. Truthfully, he had been unwilling to wander the ship looking, so he had asked the computer for Spock’s location.
But now that he is faced with Spock, back to him, Jim isn’t sure whether he should be here or not. Still, he is pretty sure that Spock knows he is here.
“Hey,” he says. Because he’s so uncertain how to begin. He finds he is hugging himself, which he knows is defensive body language, yet he can’t help it. He is defensive.
Spock turns to look at him, and though Jim can see there is a troubled look in his chocolate eyes, that trouble does not seem to lie at his footsteps, so to speak.
Jim asks, anyway, “Did I do something wrong?”
Because they’d just spent hours sexually exploring each other. And from Jim’s point of view, it had been incredible, better than anything he’d ever experienced, and he’d thought it was pretty incredible from Spock’s point of view also, but he’d just woke up alone, and somehow that had felt…big.
“No, Jim. I apologize for making you have any doubts whatsoever about us. Tonight was…more than I could ever hope for.” Spock unexpectedly holds his out his hand towards Jim, who takes it and is drawn to Spock’s side. “I was thinking of my mother.”
Spock nods. “I…often do…still. I suppose that is a weakness.”
“No way, Spock. What would make you ever think that?”
He shakes his head. “A Vulcan—”
“Never mind all that, Spock. She was your mom. What are you thinking about?”
“She would have been very happy to know you and to know that I have found my…T’hy’la.”
“T’hy’la?” Jim whispers.
“No Vulcan in a hundred years has been so fortunate. And yet, I have found mine. Brother, friend, lover. The closest standard term would be soulmate and yet for a Vulcan, it is so much more.”
Jim smiles, hesitantly, because it is hard to believe he could be this. “And I am that to you?”
Spock takes both of Jim’s hands in his. “Yes and more. Even those simple three standard words I love you do not seem to convey the depth of my great affection for you, my Jim.”
Jim’s eyes well up with tears. “I feel the same. And I’m sorry your mom isn’t here. I know you miss her, and I wish I could have met her.”
“You two would have been conspiring against me and my father, I have no doubt.
Spock shakes his head. “I often think about her. What she would think or say about whatever is going on in my life. She never judged me about anything and always said she would be proud of me, and yet, there are times I wonder if that would be true.”
“I’m sure of it, babe. There is no one better than you that I know and there’s no way your mom wouldn’t think the same.”
“She was always on my side no matter what. No one else has ever been that way for me.” Spock gazed into Jim’s eyes. “Until you.”
“And I always will be on your side, no matter what.” Jim kisses him. “Come back to bed with me?”
“Yes, T’hy’la. I will.”
August 2, 2021 at 5:38 am
This was so good.
Amanda and Jim def would’ve been thick as thieves lol
August 2, 2021 at 7:58 am
thank you and yes they would
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August 2, 2021 at 6:13 am
Oh man! I loved this so much.
The despair at first. And then so much emotions and love.
August 2, 2021 at 7:58 am
August 2, 2021 at 6:23 am
I again have tears, not at your story, though I’m sure I would even for it alone, but at your constantly amazing genius. To come up with hundreds of different, fresh ways for the guys to discover each other, and especially how it STILL seems such a surprise to me when Spock discovers Jim is his T’hy’la. Again.
I’ll never understand how you do that. Ever. I’m blown away over and over.
Now – I’ve always thought any of the Amandas would be totally thrilled and grateful, reverently so, at Jim not only being Spock’s boyfriend and T’hy’la, but being the most incredible friend anyone could have. Especially a half Vulcan who had been tormented for being so. Not Vulcan enough, nor Human enough. Mocked and even suspected by both.
And Sarek? Sarek would be snooty and superior and in general an ass, and would itch to tell Spock and Jim his disappointment, except that would even more pointedly …uh…point out his own hypocrisy at choosing a Human after the death of his appointed full-blood Vulcan wife (Sybok’s mother). Even with his brilliance, he’d never be able to find a way around that!
So much as I would normally miss CIJ, I don’t think you’re going to give me a chance to miss it much, with quality content like this!!
August 2, 2021 at 7:59 am
thank you my friend. You might miss CIJ a little bit (I know I will because we now have to wait several more months for Christmas) but I do hope not too much
We’ll see what else I can do for August, as so far I haven’t written anything else 😀
August 2, 2021 at 7:24 am
What can I say? I was pleasantly surprised when this popped up. 🥳🎉🎊 Jim’s concern that Spock was somehow upset with him was troubling. At first, I thought that Spock was overwhelmed and had second thoughts about being romantically involved. Poor Jim waking up thinking that he’d done something wrong. 💔😢
Spock’s assurance to Jim is lovely. Declaring him as the very rare bond of T’hy’la!! 👍👍
Then Jim declaring “And I always will be on your side, no matter what.”… just floats my boat! Boat 🛶 🚤
Lol! I’ve gone emoji crazy, it seems!!
Your stories and flashes always make me happy!
August 2, 2021 at 8:00 am
thank you I am glad