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A couple of days ago, friends of mine broke up after being together for 17 years. Though they never got married, when you are with someone that many years, you’re as good as married in my book.

He came up with the usual crap of “I think we should see other people”, meaning of course that he should see other people. Or rather, he already is. I think she was a bit gobsmacked, honestly, though I think she knew the signs were there.

He’s been acting like a douche for a while now, I think now maybe in an effort to get her to dump him or something, but that didn’t happen. I guess you tolerate a lot after that many years together. A year or so ago she found a condom wrapper in his bedroom and asked him about it. They had gotten to the point that they no longer used condoms. He came up with some BS story but now looking back at it, she guesses something was even going on then.

M and I have wondered for a while why they were still together as their relationship seemed pretty toxic to us. He seemed to go out of his way to be a dick. We discussed it many times. While neither of them are perfect and she had her fair share of culpability in their disagreements, he was much worse about it all.

Anyway, he gave her the ‘we can still be friends’ speech, which she rightly struck down. Especially since one of these ways was to watch his dog while he vacations with someone else. Yeah, right.

It also means the end of our friendship with him, because she is our friend, and he became our friend through her. So yeah, dude, you do lose out. He had the nerve to tell her he wanted to keep in touch with her niece and great niece (who are like her daughter and granddaughter). She told him that was up to her niece, but I’m going to be pissed off myself if she has anything to do with the asshole.

M obviously was pretty affected by the whole thing because he said to me last night, thank you for not breaking up with me. AS IF.

Life really sucks sometimes.

Reminds me of this lyric from Her Town Too by James Taylor.

Well, people got used to seeing them both together
But now he’s gone and life goes on
Nothing lasts forever, oh no
She gets the house and the garden
He gets the boys in the band
Some of them his friends
Some of them her friends
Some of them understand

In other news, I am thinking of leaving the internet again. I find the whole thing incredibly discouraging to be honest. Not just the news and our president, which is definitely bad enough, but just everything, really. Star Trek news, Tumblr crap (I’ll never be part of the clique obviously), even this blog which gets almost no attention but just a few of you, which thank you, by the way. Those who get to know me are aware I am a very very sensitive person. Too sensitive, it’s true. But I am not going to toughen up at this point in my life. I’ve been through several internet friendships that ended due to my sensitive nature and my apparent ability to attract those who are equally sensitive. I don’t know, at some point, when all you’re getting out of something is discouragement, it’s time to end things.

When I first started this journey of fanfiction, I stuck to that site only, and didn’t do the rest, so I don’t know, maybe it’s time to go back to that. I’ve gotten some great pictures and art and memes on places like tumblr but are they really worth the aggravation and bad feelings I often come away with? Probably not.

Anyway, it has me thinking I need to return to anonymity and stick with it. After all, who really needs to know the person behind the writer of Spirk on AO3? Those are my present thoughts anyway.

Rambles, August 15, 2018 Edition

I’ve been thinking about the past for the last day or so. It’s been twenty-three years since I went to Ireland now. One of my most fondest memories of my lifetime and it was so long ago. Kind of sad in a way.

Twenty-one years ago I had my gallbladder surgery, right after I came back from Disney World. Ha. Well, almost. We went in July (and don’t even talk about being in Florida in July, ugh) and my surgery was in September. It’s also hard to believe it was so long ago for Disney World.

For that matter, it’s been seventeen years since I went to Austria and Germany.

Where does the time go? I really don’t know. There’s a song by Five for Fighting that is called 100 Years and it talks about having 100 years to live (which of course we don’t, most of us) but what really strikes me is the line I’m fifteen for a moment. Because, really, that’s how it is for us. Life goes so fast.

Anyway, in a couple of days I am off for San Diego for three days. Before I know it that will be done as well. And then August will fall right behind it and it will be September again.

I’ll be working on All I Ever Wanted, next, I think. Not sure when I will have it up, or if I will, before I leave. I am also working on the Professor Spock sequel and at the moment I am actually leaning toward concentrating on that for a bit. I also worked on my Christmas story a bit, yesterday, creating a new beginning for it which will need to be tied together with what I have already written.

I did get the next part of The Love of a Lifetime up for publication here on Friday.

I am going to leave it here, that if another ST movie is made without CP (which I don’t think it will be but you never really know), I will be finishing the stories I have going and then quit writing for the fandom. I’m not interested in a new Kirk and I’m not interested in a movie without the AOS cast. I suspect either a deal will be made or they won’t make the movie, which if Paramount is against putting in any real effort to it, is frankly for the best.

On to other things. Don’t know if I mentioned it or not but my job is moving locations in 2019. There was all kinds of speculation as to where we would be moved (basically our building was sold, our lease is up next year, so we are being booted out), but they have made the decision and it’s literally down the street from where we are now. But ack, moving sucks, and I am not looking forward to it. Yeah it’s not for a year, but, gah. I’ve been in this building for years.

Anyway, that’s the rambles for now.  I leave you with a picture of where we are staying in San Diego.

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Musings and Stuff

Tomorrow’s update for The Love of a Lifetime has been written and scheduled. It’s going to take a slight turn for a bit, but no worries, the end game is still happiness for my boys. Suvoc makes his appearance at last.

I’m taking a couple of days break before posting on AO3 again so you won’t see an update on there from me today or tomorrow. If I finish the next part of My Heart’s a Virgin, you’ll see that posted Saturday morning.

I am writing, not only the next part of My Heart’s a Virgin, but also working on the Christmas story and possibly starting the Old Married Spock story. Neither have to be ready until November and December but I am not keen to wait until the last minute on either of these.

As I think I mentioned previously, my plan is to only post one Christmas Spirk story this year and it will be entirely focused on Jim and Spock. It should even be angst free. I want to do a warm-hearted, sexy little holiday short for them this year. They deserve it. Given my commitment to other stories going on, I don’t think I can fit more than the one story in this year.

Not really sure what can be expected from the OMS story except that I intend for it to be SHORT. A friend on tumblr mentioned she is doing one too but she expects hers to be over 25,000 words. You aren’t going to get that from me on an OMS TOS story. Sorry folks!

Technically after I get My Heart’s a Virgin finished my next update, spreadsheet-wise should be Young and Beautiful. I’ll cross that bridge when I get to it, because I’m not ready to work on anything else at this point yet anyway.

As you all know, the Hollywood Bowl is this Saturday night. The following weekend, the 18-19-20 is San Diego. After that I should be good for a while, though M’s birthday is the next weekend after that. I also asked for September 04 off so that I can have a 4 day weekend for Labor Day. I’m going to need it by then, I think.

I saw recently that someone who had been pretty prolific in posting on AO3 (and tumblr too I think) recently orphaned her account and left some stories abandoned. I have no idea what happened as I didn’t follow her on tumblr or read most of her stories (they were generally TOS, I believe) but I am sad for her and those who enjoyed her work, which seemed to be quite a few. Internet bullying can be really really hard on the more sensitive of us.  I also saw recently someone who I had written, “I Bleed When I Fall Down” for also left AOS and spoke of suicide.

These are sad days, my friends, so please, I ask that you take care of yourselves physically, mentally, emotionally. Do what you need to do to care for you. Step away, disappear, see the doctor, call a helpline, whatever it is, please do it. You are the important one and no one can be replaced.

Ramblings June 26, 2018

I’m very pleased to have finished You’re in My Veins. Like most stories involving my boys, I probably could have gone on forever, or at least a few years. But I felt I had come to a place where I at least could end it.

That leaves only The Experiment left for my current WIPS for the Professor-Cadet series which is now up to like 21 stories. I am sure I will think of more because honestly those stories, set in the Academy, are my wheelhouse. I love the idea of getting them together at this point.

Not sure if I will get the next part of OMS ready for Friday but I will try.

Next up on updates is Where My Demons Hide. I left it at a very dark place and that’s going to continue but next chapter is going to be very much Spock/Kirk centered. I’ve started it, in fact started it not long after finishing the last chapter, but it’s not ready by any means, nor will it be until next week.

I have an idea for a one-shot too that I hope to start in the not too distant future but I am determined that it will be a one-shot and not go on forever and ever. LOL

Hard to believe next week is the 4th of July already. As I think I mentioned, on the evening of the 3rd we go to M’s cousin who lives in a city that does their fireworks on the 3rd. Weird, but true, and they have done that for years and years. Back in the old days it was free to get into the park near where they let them off and so we often attended with a group of friends. We’d bring blankets and KFC. It was fun. So many years ago now, really, that one of my friends who we used to go with passed away over ten years ago now, so yeah, long time we used to do that. They never put on the best show ever, but it was good. And free at a time where my own city was not (they are now). Then they began to charge and oddly enough it got busier than when it was free. It became such a hassle to get in there and get out that we all sort of mutually decided not to go.

Then M’s cousin started renting a place in the hills of the city and she had the perfect view of the fireworks the city lets off without all the hassle of the crowds. We could cook our own food, drink, play with the doggy she has. All in all a way better experience. We’ve been doing it there ever since.

On the 4th, we will have a bbq at the sister’s house in our own city. Sometimes we walk down to the park that they have the fireworks at and sometimes we watch from her house. Not sure what we will do this year. But the show is one of the best you’ve ever seen. A few years back they had a disaster involving exploding fireworks (no one was killed or maimed or anything) but they had to cancel as we were all sitting there waiting. It was something because as we were walking back to her house the news helicopters were everywhere.

Anyway, I’m blathering. It’s probably my favorite part of summer. Once that passes I am always eager for my favorite time to arrive, Autumn and the holidays! Alas, summer continues merrily burning on! HA

Last week I was talked into seeing Solo. It was okay. Better than I expected and pretty decent if I pretended he had nothing to do with Harrison Ford’s character, ha ha. I liked it better than Rogue One which I hated. This week we will be seeing Ocean’s 8.

Finally finished reading Needful Things. One of Stephen King’s long novels. It’s really sad how the people turn on each other and murder each other in a mob frenzy. I was glad to see some of my favorites in the story actually survived but some of the deaths and some of what went on, just terrible. You’d like to think people are better than that, but in today’s modern times, I can’t think that anymore.

That will be all until next week (unless OMS is updated Friday). Take care everyone and please be careful out there.

Ramblings, May 14, 2018

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I’ve updated What Happened to Spock today but AO3 has been a major pain for the last couple of days so who knows if you will ever get to read it!

I’ve also got a good jump on the next chapter of Nine Lives.

Once that has been finished, I’ll tackle When I Loved You. When last I left it, Jim and young Jim were being threatened by a tiger-like creature on a strange planet.

There will be an update of 100 words tomorrow and Friday.

Not sure what comes after When I Loved You because I can’t get into AO3 to see, but I think it “may” be Anything. In any event, I may update something that or something else if the opportunity comes.

In August 2012, I visited this area of Hawaii where Kilauea is currently erupting. It is an area that is always active but not to the extent it has been lately. We stood at the Park overlooking Kilauea that year, amazed at nature at work. It was pointed out to me yesterday that it was 2012, whereas, it seems to me like it could have been yesterday. What a tragedy to befall the residents there. Like anywhere where natural disaster can hit (earthquakes, hurricanes, tornadoes, blizzards, etc) you always know it “CAN” happen but you never quite think it will until it does. Hawaii is such a beautiful place but much of its beauty has been shaped by volcanoes and the like, just like many other places.

Anyway, I thought it was sort of interesting to have been to that place in the past. Probably only to me! HA.

Mid-Week Rambles May 02, 2018

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So I started a new story, Nine Lives, which will no doubt fill those who think I shouldn’t write anything new with the proper outrage. But I wanted to have something a little fun to write for myself, though there will be elements of angst. It’s still me. Honestly it’s another idea that sort of became more than I intended when I first thought about it while lying awake at night.

I still intend to update All I Ever Wanted this week. Not sure if I will get to Unbonded until next week. I also hope to finish my ongoing 100 words story PDQ.

On the personal front I bought a new coffeemaker. There was nothing wrong with my Keuring, honestly, but this one is a Hamilton Beach coffeemaker that can brew a carafe of coffee or a k-cup, both. I loved that idea. I’ve been eyeing it for a bit and finally broke down and got it from QVC because I could spread the payments out between 3 months. I just received it last night. Now I can make pots of coffees for us or for guests or whatever or just a single couple if it’s only me. Plus I’ll probably use less k-cups, which are bad for the environment.

Went and saw A Quiet Place last night. Pretty damn disturbing to be honest. I don’t know which of you has heard about this movie but it is intense and not good for the faint of heart. I heard there is going to be a sequel and I think I may have to skip that.

The last few days have been cool here and yesterday, on May 01, we had some rain. It was shocking. Funny thing is it’s supposed to be 85 Friday. Thus is the enigma of California.

Speaking of Friday I have a follow-up Doctor’s appointment I do not want to go to. Sigh. And he wants me to have some tests. Ordinary tests for those my age but still. I hate tests and doctors. I haven’t made any of those appointments yet so I will have to lie a bit Friday and say I did and then I will make them later.

Don’t even ask me when I last went to the dentist. You don’t want to know! LOL.

More Ramblings, April 25, 2018

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Went and saw Rampage last night with a group of friends. This is the one with Dwayne “the Rock” Johnson. I have to say I found it quite entertaining. But I really like him. He’s really nice to look at and very funny and charming. He had some great lines in this too. Like, “of course the wolf flies”. LOL.

This weekend is my great niece’s second birthday party which will be held at a Shakey’s Pizza. It’s two hours away, which is too far, really, but you do what you gotta do.

On the very upside I think during weigh in tomorrow at WW I will have lost 18 pounds. Go me.

As I indicated earlier, I updated Didn’t We Almost Have it All on Monday. Check it out if you didn’t get a chance because it’s pretty intense. On Tuesday, I updated You are the Light That’s Leading Me.  My goal now for the rest of this week is to maybe get this one finally done. It would be nice to have one of the ones I started in 2016 concluded.

I’ll be honest. Once I finish my WIPs I am considering not writing anymore. I haven’t made up my mind 100% but that’s where I am leaning. No need to worry, I have plenty still going for now but recent events have been discouraging and I just don’t know that I have it in me to keep at this for any length of time. We will see how it goes.

Ramblings of the Week, March 05, 2018

I have today off because I needed to go to the DMV to get my driver’s license renewed. I made an appointment for 9 and I am glad I did. When I got there the line for those without appointments was way out the door. At first I thought, what are they not open yet? But nope these were non-appointments. I couldn’t find a place to park there either so I had to go to the courthouse parking lot behind the DMV. I was worried it was going to take me forever, but nope that’s the beauty of an appointment. I was out of there by 9:15.

I came home and got on the exercise bike for 15 minutes too. I have to start small. I am so out of shape.

This past weekend I discovered something that puts me in a very bad financial situation. I won’t go into the details but to suffice it to say it’s not good. It’s temporary but it’s bad and I spent some time crying over it this weekend. It is what it is though, so moving on.

I didn’t do any writing this weekend and I wasn’t really sorry about it either. I’ll see what I can get going soon.

Also the mother has had increasing bouts of dementia that is affecting our family. I mean she’s 91 so you can’t expect them to be happy and healthy forever and she’s had a good life but it’s been stressful.

I intended to do some closet cleaning this past weekend but honestly I am a little under the weather and tired and depressed so I didn’t bother. I don’t know about this coming weekend.

There’s a little humming bird outside my window right now sitting on a tiny tree we have on our patio. He looks quite a lot like this guy here. Super cute

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Ramblings of the Week, 01/22/2018

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And yes, I am going to that place you see above, that is Trunk Bay, St. John US Virgin Islands

Okay I have pre-scheduled 100 words or less flashes for this Friday, the 26th, and next Friday, February 02.

I can hardly believe it is almost time for my cruise. We take the “flyaway” to the airport Friday night. I don’t know if other areas have this but it’s an airport bus service so that you don’t have to drive yourself all the way to LAX. Or beg someone else to do it for you. LAX is a major pain to drive to because it’s on one of the world’s busiest freeways. Anyway, it’s much easier to convince a friend or family member to take you to the Flyaway. Our flight leaves at 11:50 PM Friday night and we land at 7:30 AM or so in Orlando. At about 10 we take a shuttle we paid for through Carnival to the port where our ship leaves. We can get on about Noon and the ship departs at 4:00 PM Saturday afternoon.

I will be back somewhere around 8:30 to LAX on Saturday February 03. Then we collect our luggage and catch a Flyaway bus back where someone picks us up from there. Probably be in my house ready for bed by 11ish. I hope. LOL. Then I will have all day Sunday the 4th to recuperate and do laundry.

When I made the plans for this trip it seemed so far away so that it is actually here is pretty strange to me. There are nine of us going so it should be fun.

This week I’d like to finish Who’s the Daddy, get a new chapter done on Bitter Frost, and a new one on You’re in My Veins. I am pretty sure I can do it.

No movie this week. Last week we saw Jumanji. It was amusing. We’ve seen everything we were going to see I think anyway. I think in February we will see the Pacific Rim movie. And of course in March is Wrinkle in Time.

Ramblings will be back February 05, 2018

 

 

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