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Ramblings of the week, Week of January 02, 2017 Edition

As part of my weekly ramblings, you get a picture. Isn’t he pretty?

Well here we are in 2017.

The year didn’t start out well for me. I got a nasty comment on my fanfiction, When It Began, which basically questioned my whole scene with the teens, implying I was going “too fast” with the story, that the teens shouldn’t be kissing (who knows why), and worst of all, that Spock was completely out of character in the story. In fact they said he was so out of character “it hurt”. I am admittedly “Jimcentric” but I still try hard to get everything right with Spock. That was the New Year’s Day comment I woke up to.

To say I almost threw in the towel on that story as well as my entire account on AO3 would be an understatement. I put so much effort into those stories, not just for me, but for everyone else, and I was discouraged and disappointed.

I know I have a pretty vigorous readership on there. Many of whom never comment. And others who only comment sporadically. But all I could see was the negative.

I’m still struggling to “get over it”.

Like my friend, Kris, I don’t make resolutions. Not anymore. But I do have a few things I’d like to do this year and that includes the dreaded losing weight. I am too old at this point to worry about being hot or anything, but I do want to be healthier and that is probably more my goal than necessarily a number on a scale. I’d also like to be better with money. Later this year I will be going to Yellowstone (June) and how I will afford it is still a mystery. I spent way too much at Christmas, though it made ME happy to do so, so that’s important too. Still I need to better control my spending. I need to be better to myself too.

That’s about the extent of my ramblings this week. I am still going to the hospital on a daily basis. I’ll be there again tonight. The latest is that they’ve determined she has A-Fib as well as all kinds of infections. She’s having swallowing and speech therapy though and is doing quite well with those. She has no paralysis and her movement is fine. It also seems like most of the sundowner’s syndrome has faded. But yeah, still in the hospital and likely for a few more days.

January 3, 2017

Happy New Year (a Little Early)

I wish each and every one of you a Happy New Year.

I am trying to be positive about 2017 but I don’t really know that I can be. You know how I feel about the man about to become our president and what will no doubt be the loss of rights of everything we’ve gained in the last eight years. I hope I am wrong. I fear I am right.

My company is likely going to do layoffs in the first quarter of the New Year, so I am not sure what that will mean for me. I can only hope for the best.

The last week for me has been nothing but turmoil. A close family member had a stroke on Tuesday the 27^th and so I have spent every day working and then my evenings are spent mostly at the hospital. She has her ups and downs. She now has an infection and the stroke wrecked her ability to swallow properly so it looks like we can expect her to be there a few more days. She’s 90 and just wants to go home. In the late afternoons, evening and nights she has developed what is called sundowners syndrome. You get more confused and irritable and sometimes downright aggressive. It’s been a challenging week for the family.

I’ve still managed to get my stories updated so go me. But I can’t say I’m in the best of moods right now.

In spite of that, I hope you all have a great weekend and New Year.

I’m still waiting for this package to arrive:

December 30, 2016

Rest in Peace, George

December 25, 2016

When to Keep Quiet, Do I Know?

‘Tis the season for weird offenses.

People who get offended by “Happy Holidays” instead of “Merry Christmas” are annoying. There are all kinds of holidays. What in the hell is wrong with wishing someone well, which is what “Happy Holidays” is. People seem to think “Happy Holidays” is something new that came about because of the “War on Christmas” (laughable) but Andy Williams sang a song called “Happy Holidays” in the early 60s. Truly people, get over it.It’s not offensive to be told Happy Holidays even if you are Christian.

Someone posted on AO3 complaining that all the Spirk Christmas fics ignore that Spock is Jewish. Well, I don’t. But here’s the thing. Roddenberry was an Atheist. As far as I know what “religion” anyone was on Star Trek was not discussed. I don’t recall it. I know Leonard Nimoy was Jewish and was allowed to incorporate much of the Jewish religion into things we now know as Vulcan today. No one is disputing that. I admit I haven’t read any Spirk fics that show Spock being Christian, but I guess it’s possible there are. Usually in my own fics I leave Jesus out of the whole thing because I treat Christmas as a secular thing as I am at best agnostic. Anyway this person complained that a lot of it came from the people writing about the 2009 movie and onward. First of all, if you ARE new to the fandom, welcome. I would never ever think you should be made to feel unwelcome. And second, I know for a fact Spock’s religion is never brought up then. Winona Ryder who plays Spock’s mother, too briefly in my opinion, is Jewish. Zachary Quinto is not. So if you came to the fandom for the more recent movies, of course you aren’t going to know. I don’t know, it just seems something entirely too silly to get bothered over.

Right after that, I saw someone’s comment on a fic where the author did mention Spock being Jewish, and she made a comment that no other fics do that. Since I have and have seen others, I couldn’t help shaking my head and wondering when I became invisible.

Anyway, I have always been taught when you are different religions (or not at all religious as applies to me) you compromise on celebrations and the like. But what do I know?)

I guess I should keep my mouth shut as usual.

Happy Holidays!

December 23, 2016

Using Music for Inspiration

Just as the title indicates I have a whole playlist that inspires my stories. No surprise many of them are angsty.

Here are some of them:

Keep the Streets Empty for Me – Fever Ray

You Will Pull Through – Barcelona

I Found -Amber Run

Nitesky – Benjamin Francis Leftwich

Cry For You – September

Say Something – A Great Big World

I Would Die For You -Jann Arden

My Skin – Natalie Merchant

Fight Song – Rachel Platten

There I Said It – Adam Lambert

This is a small list of them. I may do a part 2 at some point

December 20, 2016

Weekly Ramblings, Week of December 19

So, this is the last week before Christmas. My plans have altered somewhat. I thought I was going to get to have Christmas Eve with just the two of us. There was hope for a half a second. Ever since we met a certain friend, many years ago, we have spent Christmas Eve with her and her family. It’s kind of a drag always doing it.

This year she made plans to be in Vegas with her boyfriend for the whole weekend. And we were going to do our Christmas get-together on Thursday the 22nd. But well then her boyfriend remembered suddenly that his family would throw a fit that he didn’t come for Christmas and those plans changed. And so did mine. So much for the Christmas Eve with just the two of us plans.

He doesn’t understand of course. He sees me every day and so he thinks the holidays are about spending time with family and friends not with each other. So I have to grin and bear it, as usual.

I have to work all week. We will get off early on Friday. I’m going to try like hell to get all my holiday stories done by Christmas, but I am only one person. Worse, was I thought of an idea for another but I am seriously resisting. Seriously.

That’s it. Merry Christmas and see you on A03

December 19, 2016

Our Shopping Day

So we went Christmas shopping. I’d already done a bunch but this was to finish it all off, including for a few friends I have at work. And the Significant had stuff to do too.

First we hit Walmart and it was sort of earlyish so it wasn’t so bad. There were lots of people there and I admit some of them made me want me to go…

shoot

Next we went to Bevmo, which was nearby and a bit better of an experience. I had Jack Daniels to buy for my friend at work and some little miniature bottles for a friend’s basket I am making. I don’t know if you’ve heard of Moscow Mules but SO is giving this friend a set of copper Moscow Mules cups so that’s why I was getting little vodkas. We coordinate nicely, after all.

Then we moved on to the mall.

face Now in spite of Jim’s face here, it’s not that bad. It’s an outdoor mall. I am sure they don’t have those where most of you live. Whenever the SO parks, he chooses the farthest away spot you can imagine.

Which admittedly makes me go a little Sylar.

sylar

Anyway, we found a spot and headed into a place called Marshall’s. I don’t know that they have these everywhere, but they are sort of a little of everything. I didn’t get anything here but the SO did.

We then headed for lunch at Red Robin. After that we hit a Hallmark store, where the SO bought stuff again, but not me, and then Bath and Body Works. I was buying stuff here for females in my family. Place was a nightmare.

I was tempted to do this.

cry

But it gets worse! LOL.

we leave to finally go to somewhere other than the mall and we can’t find the car. I thought we were further down then we were, because as I said, he parks far. We wandered around this parking lot for like 20 minutes and I was starting to panic thinking someone had stolen it with all the crap we’d just bought in it. Fortunately, that was not the case.

smiling-spock Then we hit Bed, Bath and Beyond which wasn’t so bad at all.