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100 Words Continuation, 03/25/2018

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“Better that than to lose Spock altogether, Bones. Look I appreciate you coming but I need to deal with this on my own and preferably alone, okay?”

Bones didn’t look at all happy about it, but he gave a sharp nod and headed for the exit. “If you need anything—”

Jim attempted a smile. “Yeah. I know. Thanks.”

After Bones left, Jim went to his terminal and decided to send his message through that instead of his PADD. He stared at it for a long time before finally typing a brief message.

I’m sorry. Never mind. Forget it.

100 Words Continuation 03/23/18

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“Still—” 

“I can’t face him. And maybe that makes me a coward, I guess it does. But right now I’m too emotionally invested in all this,” Jim admitted. “So I’m going to message him.”

“Message him what?”

Jim ran a hand through his hair in frustration. “I don’t know. That I’m sorry. Maybe that it was a bad joke that didn’t come off well. And that he should forget it and we can just go on as we have been.”

Bones blew out a breath. “And how is that, Jim? Barely even friends? Things are more distant than ever.”

Hmm…

I deleted the “Snow White” story on AO3. it just wasn’t getting the reaction I was hoping for and so I got rid of it. I don’t know if I will go back to it some day or not.

But…

I am discouraged. And depressed. Feeling unappreciated. Whether realistic or not.

I feel like I am writing in a dying fandom or something. I don’t know. But nothing has been getting interest lately and I am getting almost no comments, hits, etc.

Yes, everyone is busy and has lives. But so do I and I don’t write for myself. If I did, I wouldn’t be publishing on a public site.

So, what does this all mean? I don’t know. I really don’t.

I haven’t written the 100 words yet for Friday and I don’t know if I will, frankly. Maybe. We will see.

100 Words Continuation March 16

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“Salvage what? You didn’t do anything wrong. Having feelings for someone is not against Starfleet regulations no matter what that robot might say.”

 

“Bones, come on, that’s not fair. He was in a relationship with Uhura for years so he knows it’s not against regulations. He just doesn’t feel the same way I do. And well.” Jim sighed and leaned his head back against his sofa. “I have to accept that. And hope he doesn’t ask for a transfer or something.”

 

“Think he will?”

 

“I don’t know. He almost left to New Vulcan already. Maybe he will this time.”

Ramblings of the Week March 10, 2018

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I’ve found a solution to my financial situation so that’s good. It’s a hard lesson learned but done nevertheless and no one needs to worry you’ll see a Go Fund Me page. Nope. Never.

My first update this week promises to be the next chapter of When I Loved You. because that is where I felt I needed to go. After that, well, we will see. I’ve already written and scheduled my next 100 words to be up Friday.

I think this may be my last ramblings for a while. I might switch to rambling only once a month. I will still be updating my 100 words and posting videos, stories, etc as the whim hits me.

But for now, I’m taking a rambling break. Probably see you again to ramble in April.

100 Words Continuation March 09

“How?” Bones asked, not unsympathetically.

Jim turned from his friend’s gaze. “I told Spock.”

“Told him what?”

He sighed. “That I loved him.”

“Oh.” Bones’ voice was soft, tentative. Like he was waiting for the other shoe to drop. Jim supposed he was.

“And it went about as well as you could imagine.” Jim shrugged. “He looked at me as though I was some science experiment he couldn’t quite figure out. Like he did when I told him I’d miss him when I thought we were being separated.”

“Jim—”

“Now I have to find a way to salvage this.”

Recent Updating

I finally got the update done and posted to Didn’t We Almost Have it All. I was very happy with the response I got to it, too. You never quite know if people are still reading your work, especially if you haven’t updated it in a while and though it had been updated in January, you just don’t know how many readers you’ve lost. But people are still following it and that makes me happy.

Friday will be the continuation of the 100 word thing I am doing. I am having fun with that. It’s certainly making the story take longer just because I have to keep it to 100 words at a time.

I decided to post All I Ever Wanted on AO3 and so with that I took it down from here. I was torn about it honestly because I knew it wouldn’t be that popular on there (older characters, yet another wip from me, etc) but I wanted more to read it then the three or four that were reading it here.

I’m working on finishing Turning Page now and hope to have it updated today or tomorrow. Once that is up I will be turning to the next chapter of You are the Light That’s Leading Me, but I think it will probably not go up until next week. I think I am giving myself permission to take the weekends off from writing/posting for a bit.

Ramblings of the Week, March 05, 2018

I have today off because I needed to go to the DMV to get my driver’s license renewed. I made an appointment for 9 and I am glad I did. When I got there the line for those without appointments was way out the door. At first I thought, what are they not open yet? But nope these were non-appointments. I couldn’t find a place to park there either so I had to go to the courthouse parking lot behind the DMV. I was worried it was going to take me forever, but nope that’s the beauty of an appointment. I was out of there by 9:15.

I came home and got on the exercise bike for 15 minutes too. I have to start small. I am so out of shape.

This past weekend I discovered something that puts me in a very bad financial situation. I won’t go into the details but to suffice it to say it’s not good. It’s temporary but it’s bad and I spent some time crying over it this weekend. It is what it is though, so moving on.

I didn’t do any writing this weekend and I wasn’t really sorry about it either. I’ll see what I can get going soon.

Also the mother has had increasing bouts of dementia that is affecting our family. I mean she’s 91 so you can’t expect them to be happy and healthy forever and she’s had a good life but it’s been stressful.

I intended to do some closet cleaning this past weekend but honestly I am a little under the weather and tired and depressed so I didn’t bother. I don’t know about this coming weekend.

There’s a little humming bird outside my window right now sitting on a tiny tree we have on our patio. He looks quite a lot like this guy here. Super cute

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100 Words Continuation, March 02, 2018

Jim did not feel like seeing anyone.

“Computer, identify visitor.”

“Leonard McCoy, Chief Medical Officer.”

He groaned. Just what he needed. He wanted to ignore Bones, but an ignored Bones was an even crankier Bones.

“Open.”

“Jim—“Bones started as soon as the door swished open to allow his entry.

Jim held up his hands. “Don’t start. Not in the mood.”

“You do look like hell, Jim. What’s wrong?”

“I’m an idiot.”

Bones smirked. “Yes that I know.”

“Shut up.” Jim smiled in spite of the fact he really didn’t feel like smiling.

“Let me guess. Spock?”

“No. Me.”

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