Something curled in Spock’s stomach, ugly and fluttery and painful. It rose from there and caused a dull pain in his side where his heartbeat.
“I…do not understand.” He was flustered and repeating himself but his logical brain could not compute.
“I know you don’t understand!”
And just like that the cheerful pretense Kirk had been displaying vanished as though it had never been there. Instead there was angry fire in his blue eyes.
“And that’s exactly the problem, Spock. You just never get it.”
“Jim, I—”
“You were with Uhura for years—”
“We are not together anymore,” Spock interrupts.
“Yeah you’ve been broken up for five minutes,” Jim said, sarcastically. “You were together for years, Spock. Years. And you never moved forward. Never bonded. Never married. You were satisfied with…I don’t even know what you were satisfied with. Your commitment to not commit.”
“Why are you so angry? You were explaining what happened in the alternate universe with my counterpart.”
Jim sighed heavily and turned away. “In that universe Spock loves his captain. When I returned from the mission, he thought I was his captain. As soon as I got to the captain’s quarters, Spock was all over me.”
“He forced himself on you?”
“No! I wanted it. He was full of passion and heat and was so hungry for me. It was intoxicating. I couldn’t get enough.”
Each word was like a lash against Spock’s heart.
“When he finally realized I was not his captain, it didn’t matter to either of us. We continued being together. Neither of us knew if I would come back here or his Kirk would return there, so we continued with each other, and he protected me from the reality of all that.”
Jim turned around to face him once more.
“It was the most amazing experience of my life.”
Spock blinked. He thought he might just vomit.
“It should have been with you,” Jim whispered hoarsely. “But I knew it never would be.”
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11 responses to “The Replacement, Part Three”
And bam. That last line was a knife to the heart. The emotions in this one. Yo.
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yes ,any emotions
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Oh wow. Why can I not stop thinking ‘wow’ over and over?
I LOVE how you’re wording this.
I LOVE that Spock felt like throwing up from the pain and shock of what he was hearing. From Jim’s utter, complete joy in THAT Spock who felt the same for him.
Well, selfishly I hope we get more, sooner rather than later!
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thank you, I hope to get something up
but I have to say I am MAJORLY stressed right now. The leak isn’t what we thought it was and might be coming from the wall and it’s just…I don’t even know
But I love these guys so I promise to try
And yes it’s hard for Spock to comprehend Jim’s happiness with another Spock!
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I’ve only known of you a few years, and I can’t stand all the incredible bad luck you’ve had with that condo and with neighbors and with thieves.
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yes, it’s very stressful
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OMG! This is an amazing update! Spock’s shock in the face of Jim’s revelation is perfect. Spock feels that Jim’s words…. “each word was like a lash against Spock’s heart”. That’s just brilliant! Mirror Spock loves his captain enough that he loves all Jim’s… what a brutal universe to have such a powerful feeling of devotion to another!!
Sigh!!! I hope this opens Spock’s eyes!!
This needs to go on ao3!!
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yes yes it will as it was always my intention to have it up on AO3
Yes, Mirror Spock is definitely displaying Spock goals that all Spocks should have !
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Wow Ivan, this story is lashing my heart too💔🥺😭🤯🤩🔥💯. I reallly hope you put this on Ao3 bc ALL your fans are going to adore this just like we do💯
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well to be honest my original plan was to ONLY put it up on AO3 but I had nothing to post here so I decided to post it here
so yep it will go up there eventually!
thank you
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Oh goodness. I just want to hug them both
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