Spirk (with a small dose of Pinto)

The Love of a Lifetime,September 03,2018

Spock put his hand on his sleeping husband’s face, waiting for the fog to lift and Jim to come to awareness once more. He could feel Jim’s mind springing back, the confusion fading away as Spock reminded him of who he was, where he was, and their life.

Eyelids lifted to expose the beloved blue. When Jim was gone, Spock would be gone too. There was no other outcome for either of them.

“Hello Spock,” Jim said softly. “Have I been asleep long?”

“No, T’hy’la. Just a couple of ours. I have had tea with our son and his mate.”

“He looks happy, yeah? I mean as happy as Vulcans can look.”

Spock smiled slightly. “Agreed. Would you like to get up now and have something to eat with us?”

“All right.” Jim’s tongue darted out as he sat up. “Spock, what’s really going on? What is Suvoc here for?”

Spock hesitated only a moment before taking Jim’s hand in his. “He wishes to convince us to go to New Vulcan with him to experiment with a treatment he hopes will help with your dementia.”

“Oh.” Jim nodded. “I-I suspected it was something like that. But—”

“I ask that you consider it and what he has to say, adun. If not for our sake, but for his. He has already lost his birth parents as well as his relationships with Ambassador Spock and Leonard. It has all taken its toll on his, Jim. He tries not to show it but I assure you it does.”

Jim raised his other hand to Spock’s cheek. “You would know, wouldn’t you? All right, sweetheart, I’ll listen and keep an open mind.”

Spock moved his face to kiss Jim’s palm. “You are everything. Come. Do you wish a shower first?”

He helped Jim up from the bed.

“Yeah, maybe. Still feel a little groggy and kind of sweaty.”

“Here, I will help you.” And he led his husband into the shower, thinking of their many intimacies there in their distant past.

If you would like to revisit one here it is: Shower Scene from Changes

September 3, 2018

Wouldn’t It Though

I really wish I knew how to make Spirk videos because this song would be perfect for a piney (ha) Kirk thinking about Spock and she who will not be named.

September 1, 2018

Ramblings to Send August Away

You may have noticed my lack of updates on my OMS story here better known as The Love of a Lifetime. I plan to get back to it soon but there is no denying my current mood is unmotivated.

Got off work early today at 1:00. Our department is very cool about this. We only have to work a six hour day before major holidays but sill get paid for 8. A small and appreciated perk.

The other day at the grocery store they had a display of my favorite cereal already!

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I didn’t get any though. I can’t eat the same things I usually eat these days but I may give in at some point. We will see.

I think next up to update is Nine Lives. Look for major developments in that one. After that update, I am not sure what I’m going to do.

I have an extra long weekend though I think I have plans on both Saturday and Sunday.

I’m glad to see September and will be even more so when Autumn officially starts later in the month. I love autumn. Decorations, foods, tea, holidays (Halloween and TG). I should have been born in Fall but I was not.

I’ve made no particular decisions about my internet presence.

August 31, 2018

Musings

A couple of days ago, friends of mine broke up after being together for 17 years. Though they never got married, when you are with someone that many years, you’re as good as married in my book.

He came up with the usual crap of “I think we should see other people”, meaning of course that he should see other people. Or rather, he already is. I think she was a bit gobsmacked, honestly, though I think she knew the signs were there.

He’s been acting like a douche for a while now, I think now maybe in an effort to get her to dump him or something, but that didn’t happen. I guess you tolerate a lot after that many years together. A year or so ago she found a condom wrapper in his bedroom and asked him about it. They had gotten to the point that they no longer used condoms. He came up with some BS story but now looking back at it, she guesses something was even going on then.

M and I have wondered for a while why they were still together as their relationship seemed pretty toxic to us. He seemed to go out of his way to be a dick. We discussed it many times. While neither of them are perfect and she had her fair share of culpability in their disagreements, he was much worse about it all.

Anyway, he gave her the ‘we can still be friends’ speech, which she rightly struck down. Especially since one of these ways was to watch his dog while he vacations with someone else. Yeah, right.

It also means the end of our friendship with him, because she is our friend, and he became our friend through her. So yeah, dude, you do lose out. He had the nerve to tell her he wanted to keep in touch with her niece and great niece (who are like her daughter and granddaughter). She told him that was up to her niece, but I’m going to be pissed off myself if she has anything to do with the asshole.

M obviously was pretty affected by the whole thing because he said to me last night, thank you for not breaking up with me. AS IF.

Life really sucks sometimes.

Reminds me of this lyric from Her Town Too by James Taylor.

Well, people got used to seeing them both together
But now he’s gone and life goes on
Nothing lasts forever, oh no
She gets the house and the garden
He gets the boys in the band
Some of them his friends
Some of them her friends
Some of them understand

In other news, I am thinking of leaving the internet again. I find the whole thing incredibly discouraging to be honest. Not just the news and our president, which is definitely bad enough, but just everything, really. Star Trek news, Tumblr crap (I’ll never be part of the clique obviously), even this blog which gets almost no attention but just a few of you, which thank you, by the way. Those who get to know me are aware I am a very very sensitive person. Too sensitive, it’s true. But I am not going to toughen up at this point in my life. I’ve been through several internet friendships that ended due to my sensitive nature and my apparent ability to attract those who are equally sensitive. I don’t know, at some point, when all you’re getting out of something is discouragement, it’s time to end things.

When I first started this journey of fanfiction, I stuck to that site only, and didn’t do the rest, so I don’t know, maybe it’s time to go back to that. I’ve gotten some great pictures and art and memes on places like tumblr but are they really worth the aggravation and bad feelings I often come away with? Probably not.

Anyway, it has me thinking I need to return to anonymity and stick with it. After all, who really needs to know the person behind the writer of Spirk on AO3? Those are my present thoughts anyway.

August 29, 2018

Ramblings of the Week, August 27, 2018

This past week has been quite nice weather wise. Been in the 80s during the day and 60s at night. Considering it’s August, this is fantastic weather for us. Last year during this same time period we were in the middle of one of those most horrendous heatwaves I have ever experienced and our AC was broken. What a difference a year makes! I think it’s supposed to steam up a bit come the first week of September but for now I am absolutely loving this weather. I’ll keep you posted on my chances for September lol.

This coming weekend is Labor Day of course and I decided to take an extra day off so I have a four day weekend as I took the Tuesday after as well. I am greatly looking forward to it.

We are on the stalled season for movies so I haven’t seen any in a few weeks. Last one I saw was Mission Impossible. Most of what’s out there now we will probably wait for netflix or something. I thought we might see The Meg this week but then M volunteered to work at an event for his community garden so that’s happening instead. Next week? Who knows. You know M just turned 54 and his dad died at 55 so he says to me, I have only one year left. Yes, I wanted to choke him for that. Sigh.

Funny how his birthday is around the same time as CP. CP’s being the 26th and M’s the 27th.

Last night after we returned from a celebratory dinner, I bought two more Christmas decorations! HA.

I posted the first chapter of Hello Darkness, My Old Friend on Sunday. As you know if you’ve read it, it took a very dark turn at the end, and I am afraid that will stay that way for now. My goal is to get it done by the end of the year and take them into the fall and holiday season in the story too.

I’m in the mood for my Starfleet Academy stuff so it’s likely I will work on Idiots in Love and The Experiment this week instead of The Sight or any of the rest. I intend to finish everything eventually that I have going. I guess as long as one or two of you stick with me, that’s all that matters.

I was at Target Saturday and saw that they had these television series figures from the 60s on an end cap of the toy section. I stopped when I noticed these guys from Mirror Mirror, The Original Series (suck that Discovery and Enterprise etc, TOS still comes first despite your BS, but I digress, lol).

My excitement at seeing them included in the figures soon subsided as I picked up the package to look at the dolls/figures. I don’t know who they were supposed to be because they certainly weren’t Shatner and Nimoy. Sorry, guys, but I think my 2 and half year old great niece could have done a better job getting them to actually look like Kirk and Spock. Ugh. Needless to say it went right back on the shelf. What a shame!

August 27, 2018

The Love of a Lifetime, August 24, 2018

It was only Sa-Mekh who came out a few minutes later.

“He’s resting. I put him down for a nap,” Sa-Mekh said. “He should be better when he awakens.”

Suvoc had no doubt that when Sa-Mekh said he put Father down, much like a parent does for a child, he helped Father ease into sleep. Fear and uncertainty curled in his stomach.

Sa-Mekh looked to Ronan, who remained as cool and calm as he ever was. “Which of your parent was human?”

“My mother, actually,” Ronan replied, taking the tea Suvoc handed him, with an easy smile that served to melt some of Suvoc’s unease. “My father was Romulan and Vulcan. His father was Vulcan and his mother Romulan. It was she who raised me.”

“You were raised by your Romulan grandmother,” Sa-Mekh said with a stiff nod.

“Yes. She was a former commander in the Romulan forces.”

Suvoc decided it was time to direct Sa-Mekh away from the inquisition. He opened his mouth to speak.

“How did you two meet?”

“Sa-Mekh—”

Ronan held up his hand. “All is well, e’lev. Were my grandmother alive, you would be subjected to similar inquiry. My people are gone, all of them, and I went to the colony to help with rebuilding all that I could with New Vulcan. I am only a quarter so I was rejected as a sperm donor, but I am involved with implementing native plants and species onto the colony. This is how I met Suvoc.” Ronan smiled in Suvoc’s direction. Being only a quarter Vulcan, Ronan smiled easily, showed his affection easily, and yes, his wisdom. “After our initial acquaintance, your son found that it was his time. We decided I would assist him with that.”

Suvoc felt himself color but did not add anything to Ronan’s words. Indeed, what else was there to say? Sa-Mekh could fill in the blanks.

“And you are well…suited?”

It was the closest Sa-Mekh would come to asking if there was affection between them. Suvoc nodded. “Yes. I wish to speak of Father. When can I talk to him of the healers on New Vulcan?”

“I made him aware of your intention to speak, but whether he recalls that, at this point, I cannot say.”

August 24, 2018

Ramblings, August 21, 2018

I’m back from San Diego. Didn’t have a chance to get anything written, which is why you don’t see the next part of The Love of a Lifetime here.

It was hot and muggy. Ugh. The good news is there were too many of us to take one car so we drove ourselves (meaning M did LOL). We left Saturday morning at 6:45ish and got to the Safari Park in Escondido around 9:30. We got in free thanks to the fact that two of our friends have memberships and they get a few perks as part of their membership. Considering it’s $54 each to get in, this was a good deal.

Since the area here is set up like a safari in Africa, it decided to be as hot there. Seriously. Ugh. We did a ton of walking and we also rode the tram that takes you to see a lot of the animals. They had a baby giraffe. We had a three year old with us, Aria, and they now have a hot air balloon that goes up for about 10-15 minutes and she just had to go on this. It cost $14 extra per person so “Uncle Ryan” paid for them all to go except for me and Aria’s mommy, because we were like…nope. They all enjoyed it but after that they closed it because it got to be too breezy.

They have a new part there that’s supposed to be Australia but there was no shade at all while there and though it was nice to see the kangaroos I hightailed it out of there to go find a table and chairs out of the sun while they all looked.

Later, we all continued on to San Diego, proper, and checked in to our hotel. That night we went to Old Town San Diego and had Mexican food at Cafe Coyote.

Sunday, we had our free included breakfast and then headed out to the zoo. Fine time was had by all and in the afternoon, after Aria absolutely loved the penguins in Africa Rocks (think Madagascar Penguins), we went back to the hotel, went into the pool for a bit to cool down, and then out to dinner before heading back to the night time zoo. They had a little show with bubbles which Aria loved, and then a parade, which she also loved. And she rode the skyfari at night (I do not like the skyfari, it’s very high up in little buckets).

Yesterday morning we had more free breakfast and then M and I headed home, making it back about 1ish. I guess technically I could have done some writing but I didn’t feel up to it.

Anyway, happy to be back. This weekend should be chill (not temperature wise) except we will got out for dinner for M’s birthday. This was the last trip away we have planned for a while. As a home body, that suits me just fine.

As for what’s coming up storywise, besides the one appearing here, I have to finish The Hike and get the next chapter of The Sight done. I’ll play it by ear as to when any of those appear.

August 21, 2018