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And the next part, Love of a Lifetime

I am hoping to end this in the very near future. By tomorrow, I hope. But here is the next part. I think there will be only one more part, probably a little longer than these last two have been.

This, too, when it is finished, will conclude the whole series at last, which began in 2013. You get to read the end here first, before I post it on A03, as my special friends. Thank you.

Though Suvoc wanted to take Jim to the healers immediately, Spock knew that Jim would need some food and rest before facing another ordeal. And Spock knew with the disease that ravaged Jim’s mind, any deviation, any change, anything really, could prove too much for his fragile mate.

So they first settled in where they would be staying, Sarek’s old house, for Sarek had been gone for years now, himself, and where Suvoc and Ronan now lived when they were on New Vulcan.

It occurred to Spock to wonder at what point it could be simply called Vulcan, as there was only the one Vulcan now, though it would never be the true Vulcan, his true homeland, of his youth, of his people, his ancestors.

When Spock presented Jim with a bowl of freshly made Plomeek soup, Jim stared down at it. “Do I like it?”

“Yes, Jim. Over the years you have expressed a fondness for it.”

Jim nodded and scooped up a spoonful.

Spock moved over to where Suvoc hovered. Ronan had left them alone to spend time together.

“How did you manage to get him back so quickly to himself?” Spock asked.

“When I touched him, I made contact with his skin, under his shirt, and connected our minds,” Suvoc replied.

Spock exhaled. “That is my method. But there is a time, when it will likely not be enough.”

“I believe such a time will not come, Sa-Mekh.”

“Hope is a dangerous and most illogical desire.”

“And yet, at times, it is all we have,” Suvoc replied. “As you, yourself, have experienced.”

“If this does not work—”

“It will.”

“If it does not.” Spock stopped, shook his head. “Jim and I made a lot of promises to each other in our youth, Suvoc. To not honor them, is to dishonor both of us.”

“Sa-Mekh.”

“In a way, I am pleased you are newly bonded and are building a life with Ronan. It will make things easier.”

Suvoc shook his head. “You speak darkness.”

“The darkness would be the rest of my days without him.”

“I know of your great affection for Father, but—”

“It goes well beyond mere affection. We are T’hy’la. I have no desire to live without him.”

“You will not have to,” Suvoc maintained stubbornly. “For this will work.”

Spock returned to Jim, who was looking more and more exhausted. He sat beside him, peering in to see that he had finished the Plomeek.

Jim smiled at him. “You were right, I liked it.”

“Jim.” He covered Jim’s hand with his. “For now, it is good for you to rest, but in the morning we are going to see the Vulcan healers Suvoc has arranged for you to meet with. Do you remember?”

“Yes,” Jim said. “I remember all of that.”

“Good.”

Jim looked wistful for a moment.

“What is it, T’hy’la?”

“Do you remember, long ago, when we first got together?”

Spock nodded. “I do. Do you?”

The smile returned. “After I was abducted by the Klingons. And you rescued me.” He paused to stare intently at Spock. “You always rescue me.”

“And I always will.”

“I was talking to you about…about being afraid. And you told me even starship captain’s feel fear.”

“Yes,” Spock said, softly. He wondered what Jim was getting at.

Jim turned his hand over so there palms were touching. “You said there was nothing to fear for either of us.”

His chest constricted and Spock nodded. “Yes.”

“It was true then, T’hy’la,” Jim said. “And it’s true now.”

Spock pulled Jim close. “Yes, Ashayam. Yes.”

Next Part of Love of a Lifetime

Perhaps have tissues

Jim fell asleep on the shuttle to New Vulcan almost immediately after they boarded. This concerned Spock, because Jim often woke up a little confused, and in an unfamiliar setting, it would be particularly upsetting for both of them.   

It wasn’t that Spock didn’t want Jim to have all the care in the universe. If he could be helped, Spock would be first in line for it. Once, Spock had been accused of neglecting to pursue alternative care for Jim because he wanted to keep Jim completely reliant on him. Spock would sell his very Katra to see Jim well and safe and anyone who truly knew Spock, and what Jim meant to him, would know.

Across from them on the shuttle sat Suvoc and Ronan. They were speaking softly to each other, so softly that Spock would have to strain to hear, his hearing was not what it had been once, and he was too disinterested to bother. If Suvoc had found a bondmate even one-tenth as important to him as Spock had with his, then Spock was glad for them, whatever the circumstances that got them together. Spock could no more blame Ronan for the rogue Romulan, Nero, then his old counterpart could be blamed for the destruction of Romulus.  Probably even less so. Every species of every planet had their problematic citizens.

The truth was, Spock did not relish the idea of giving in to that most inconvenient emotion of hope. For if he did, if he allowed himself to be filled with hope that Jim would be well again and a true partner to him once more, and then the healers on New Vulcan advised that there was nothing to be done for Jim, then Spock would feel twice as devastated. It mattered not about how illogical that was. He would be no worse off than before he’d learned Jim could not be helped, and therefore, it made no sense to mourn what he’d never even had the hope of having.

And there was that word again…hope.

But he had it. It had come in. It had crept into his heart, into his mind, his dreams, uninvited, and most unwelcome.

And if they were both doomed to disappointment, Spock had a decision to make. He was well aware that Jim would not want to live years as he was now. And Spock was equally aware he would not live years without Jim. He had made that decision long ago.

So if all hope was indeed loss for Jim, for them, then Spock would have to, at last, end it for both of them.

As they approached New Vulcan, Jim began to stir, and Spock prepared himself for what he would face as Jim awoke, for his own mind was already filled with the dreaded horror of Jim’s desolate confusion.

Jim straightened from leaning against Spock and looked around the shuttle in panic. “What? What is this? Where am I?”

“Jim.”

He looked at Spock, but there was only blankness. “Who are you?”

“I am Spock.”

Jim shrugged. “So?”

“Your husband.”

Jim shook his head. “No. No. I don’t know you. Where am I? Where’s security? Someone help me!”

He scrambled up from his seat.

Suvoc put a hand on his shoulder. “Here. I will help you.”

Jim looked at him, frowning. “Who are you?”

“It is all right, Father…Dad. It is me. It is Suvoc. We are on the shuttle about to land on New Vulcan.”

“New Vulcan.”

“Yes. And Spock is your bondmate and husband.” Suvoc turned him back toward Spock. “You remember. You have been together many years.”

Jim’s face crumbled. “Spock,” he whispered.

“Yes, Dad. Go to him.”

Spock opened his arms and Jim went into them, burying his face in Spock’s neck, tears already flowing. “I am here, ashayam. I am here.”

He gazed across, over Jim, at Suvoc. They shared a look. They both knew that if this didn’t work, the option left open to them.

Spock hoped it worked.

And there, he was back to hope. All that he had. They had.

New Plan for the Week

Since I have but one chapter left of When I Loved you, I am going to finish it next, before I head off to update anything else. Then I will have finished two stories in the span of a week(ish). I am pleased with this idea.

Monday Rambles

Upcoming this week in updates will be the next chapter of Best Friends (as I have promised this will be completed by March 31st and I absolutely mean that), Transfer Request, The Ties That Bind, a Flash, and perhaps a new chapter of Kirk’s Children. Those are my plans for the week, writing wise.

I have so many stories in my head, I am trying not to bombard you with new ones too much but know they are out there and coming.

The best part of the time change is the more day light. I absolutely hate November and December when I come home at 5 and it’s dark.

My moving my sister’s rug has been changed until Saturday the 16th due to the possibility of rain this past weekend. I think that will finally be the end of the rain. Spring will be here soon and I can’t wait. I am tired of winter!

On the nearing conclusion list is When I Loved You, so look for that in the next couple of weeks too. Bitter Frost will only have a few more to go too. I am sad about that because I want that Jim to be happy with a boy but it’s just not going to happen for him. I might be ending My Heart’s a Virgin within the next month to two months too. So there are endings coming, to be replaced by new, of course. But I think you should all be pleased at how often I update something!

Otherwise, nothing supery dupery new to report. M leaves on the 29th for a week. During that time I also have an eye doctor appointment. Yes, we live such exciting lives!

FLASH FICTION March 8 2019

Mirror Flash!!!

“Are you still angry?”

Jim sighed. “I’m not angry.”

“Your jaw is clenched. Your fists too.”

“That’s because I want to rip those bangs off—”

Up went the eyebrow. “But you are not angry.”

He sighed again. “Okay. A little angry.”

“I apologize.”

Jim eyed him. “For what?”

“Whatever I have done to displease you.”

He snorted. “It won’t be that easy, pointy.”

“James—”

“Don’t make me have you sent to the booth.”

“You would not.” A pause. “Would you?”

“It’s tempting.”

A kiss on the back of his neck. He closed his eyes.

“I told you it would not be that easy.”

“I worship you.”

“Spock—”

“You are everything and more.”

“Spock—”

“I would die for you.”

“Uh-huh.”

“I would kill for you.”

“And have.”

“T’hy’la.”

“Do not start with that shit.”

“Angel—”

“Hardly.” A hand dipped into his pants and wrapped around his— “Unnhh.”

“Am I forgiven?”

“Yes, yes, anything. Just fuck me already.”

Writing Updates

My Mood

Oh my God, that chapter of When I Loved You I just posted was painful. Ugh. I have decided to end that story with the next chapter. Honestly, I don’t even remember what I intended for that story anymore. It started out a Valentine Story last year and went nuts. Or I did. And now it just needs to end with the guys together.

I am mentally exhausted. Not going to lie.

I still need to get the next chapter of Maybe, Probably done as well as Didn’t We Almost Have it All. I’d also like to get another chapter of The Experiment done as it’s almost over but I don’t want to kill myself. I will be happy to get the other chapters up. I have a family thing on Sunday so my time is limited.

I did write a very brief flash which will premiere on Friday of course.

Rambling for the first of March

A lovely artist has been doing some illustrations for some of my stories and her latest one is for Didn’t We Almost Have it All, please, go and check it out, Artwork.

Coming up this first week in March is another chapter of Maybe, Probably. Also the next chapters for When I Loved You, Didn’t We Almost Have It All, and The Experiment (as you know I am looking to wrap this one up soon). Also a new Flash. Don’t know what yet, but I am sure I will surprise both myself and you.

Today I had off for a bunch of errands I had to do and to cuddle with Luna, who has become so spoiled and needy, you wouldn’t believe it. I returned some shoes I had ordered online that didn’t work for me, went to the grocery store, another grocery store and the PetSmart for food for Luna. While I was there I went to the cat adoptions. They were behind glass but there were two teenager cats in there with an employee and when I peeked in at them their eyes got super big. HA HA. Poor kitties.

I have had too much coffee I think because I am jittery and emotional. It’s weird. I think I had something of a meltdown on social media. Oh well. I think it will be best for me to stay away a couple of days, for the most part. I did unfollow someone today on there because I couldn’t even remember why I was still following her in the first place, HA.

Supposed to rain all weekend. I am ready for SUNNY SPRING.

Kris’s birthday is this month so I need to write her a flash. Please note, I will take requests for Birthday Flashes but you MUST remind me well in advance when your birthday is. I should remember. I absolutely agree. But I don’t. So if you want something tell me ahead of time and what you’d like in it. For Kris, I know she likes hurt/comfort so that is what she will get.

Flash Fic Friday, March 01, 2019

Bridge Crew Members, Cremley and Higgins, Speculate:

“Oh, my God. Not again.”

Cremley looked up from his station at Higgins. “Not again what?”

Higgins sighed. “The captain.”

Cremley glanced over at the captain’s chair. At the moment Rand was standing next to him, holding out a PADD for him. “What about him?”

“Now look at the commander.”

Cremley knew he must be referring to the first officer, so he glanced at the science station. Commander Spock was not there. In fact, Cremley now noticed he had moved over to stand beside the captain. He rolled his eyes. “Oh.”

“How can the commander be so blind anyway? Kirk isn’t interested in Rand, he’s interested in the commander,” Higgins said, with a shake of his head. “Both of them are so damn obvious about it.”

Rand moved off and onto the turbolift and Cremley noticed Commander Spock made sure she had left before he went back to her station. He’d never even said anything. He had just stood sentinel over the captain.

“I’ve heard rumors they’re together.”

Higgins snorted. “Nope. Well, not according to Uhura anyway. And I’d think she would know.”

“Hmm. I thought for sure when she dumped the commander, he’d run right off to Kirk. Those sad, pathetic gazes he aims Kirk’s way.” Cremley shook his head.

“Eh. Kirk’s just as bad.” Higgins grinned. “In fact. Watch this.”

Higgins got up from his station and swaggered, there was no other word for it as far as Cremley was concerned, over to Commander Spock’s station. Higgins leaned against the panel directly next to Spock and waited until the Vulcan straightened and turned to look at him.

“Hey, Commander, I was wondering how that experiment in Lab 12 went. I heard so much about all your work and—”

Cremley watched Kirk’s chair turn in that direction so fast he was surprised Kirk hadn’t toppled over.  Then Higgins leaned in closer to Spock and lowered his voice so that no one could hear him.

Kirk got out of the captain’s chair and sauntered, there was no other word for it as far as Cremley was concerned, over to Commander Spock’s station.

“Higgins, aren’t you away from your post?” Kirk demanded.

Higgins stopped abruptly and stood up straight. “Well, yeah, Captain, but I was taking a bit of a break.”

“You just came back from lunch. You need another break already, Mister Higgins?”

Higgins reddened. “No, sir. Sorry, sir.”

He rushed back to be next to Cremley but he was grinning. “See? The two of them. Ridiculous.”

Cremley watched as their two commanding officers leaned in close and shared a look. He shook his head. “You’re wrong.”

“About what?”

“Those two are definitely sleeping together. There’s no way anyone could act that way and be platonic. They’re doing it.”

Kirk’s hand rested on Spock’s arm as he smiled at the first officer. He said something in a low voice that caused Spock’s eyebrow to raise. Kirk threw his head back in laughter. He squeezed Spock’s arm.

“See you later for chess, Mister Spock. My quarters 1900 hours.”

Higgins pursed his lips. “Okay. Okay. I think, maybe, you’re right.”

As Kirk walked back toward his chair, they both saw Spock’s gaze go straight to Kirk’s ass.

“Chess, my ass,” Cremley muttered.

Updating Stories and Stuff

I added Maybe, Probably to AO3 this afternoon. I don’t anticipate it being very very long, but it’s first chapter is up.

I have other stories in the works that I will not be posting until I have The Experiment finished.

Coming up for updating this week is The Mysterious One, Kirk’s Children and My Devotion. And a Friday flash. I had another suggestion for a flash given to me so I might do that. We shall see. And as usual, if I can do more, I will. But I think what I have listed here is probably plenty.

Tonight is Drag Queen Bingo at the Elk’s with my sister. Have no clue what it is, but that’s what we’re doing. Tomorrow is laundry and cleaning. I’ve been trying to give myself the weekends free from writing mostly to recuperate and so far I think it’s been working nicely.

Off to make myself tea and play my game that has a Carnival Event going on right now!

Thank you all so much for your support.

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