My Rambles

Random Observations from My Currently Tortured Mind

Above is where I wish I was today. In Germany. I’ve been there. At that castle. It’s gorgeous. Wish I was there this very second.

I’m tired. My emotional/mental state is seriously dragging right now.

I posted Who’s the Daddy and the response has been pretty good but now I have people telling me I don’t punish Spock enough and others arguing basically that Jim deserves to be treated badly because he slept with three people in 48 hours. It’s exhausted me and drained me and made me regret even posting it or anything right now, to be honest. Clearly I am not in the mood.

My family member is out of the hospital and recovering reasonably well. I will be seeing her this evening.

Is it just me or when you see the pictures from that interview Chris did with W Magazine the only reaction I could give was “Gee, I wish you’d wash your damn hair”. Sorry, greasy hair does nothing for me, even on Chris Pine.

So the other day we are watching the Karl Urban/Rock movie, Doom, for like the 10^th time and there’s this strip of something lying on the tile floor on the way to our downstairs bathroom. Milo is going to the bathroom with the door open like always and goes, “What’s that on the floor?” I think it’s just like a strip of material or ribbon or something because the cats play with that stuff all the time. So I reached down to pick it up…and it’s a worm! Ugh. I screamed. Yes, I did. Which impressed the cats because they went running like Godzilla was coming through the front door or something. But it was slimy and wriggling like worms do. So I dropped it, picked up a tissue and killed it. Afterward, I was told I should have saved it and tossed it back outside. Keep in mind Milo has a bug jar he uses to traps spiders and the like to save their lives by returning them to the wild. I said next time he can pick up the worm.

What has this got to do with Doom? Not much. Other than that movie has some pretty gruesome things going on in it, like the tongue by itself just lashing around the lab. Yeah, Karl doesn’t always pick stellar movies to star in, let’s just say. But during a creepy movie to see a creepy worm, well, just gross.

My stomach has been bugging me for about three days now and I can honestly say I am sick of it.

January 11, 2017

Ramblings of the Week, 01/09/2017

Can’t say I’m digging the pants, but the rest I totally dig

So here I am at another week. Full work week, too. It’s nice having at least one day off a week. The good news is my job gives us MLK off so I have a three day weekend coming up.

In other news, perhaps unwisely, I began writing and posting my “Who’s the Daddy” story. I didn’t really need another work in progress, but it’s hard to control my urges sometimes. I know it causes me to neglect some other stories, but for the most part I do always finish my stories.

No real words of wisdom this week. Just plugging along in this thing called life.

January 9, 2017

My Coloring Attempt, Part One

For Christmas, I bought myself a coloring book. It’s supposed to be therapeutic or something. Anyway, this was my attempt today.

Yeah, I suck…

January 7, 2017

30 Things You Didn’t Know About Me (Maybe)

I’d never read Tolkien in school though many of my peers had. My first experience with it was when I saw Lord of the Rings. I fell in love with Hobbits, Elves, Humans, and Dwarves and ended up going to see the trilogy more than once. I own all three films. I actually read the books after I saw the movies and slogged through them. It was difficult but I found it a rewarding experience. I never did read The Hobbit nor have I seen the Hobbit films. I tried to watch part of the first one on Television and grew quickly disinterested.
I had never read the Harry Potter books prior to seeing the first movie. I loved the movies though. I preferred Richard Harris as Dumbledore, but alas he had to go and die. I thought he was a fabulous actor in everything he did and to me he was a more sympathetic and whimsical Dumbledore. I own all of the movies from this series too. I bought the books but in all honesty I found them nearly impossible to read.
I’ve always loved Star Trek. I can’t say I initially shipped Kirk and Spock but I certainly did later and well before the reboot movies. I’ve loved and watched all versions of Star Trek except I still haven’t seen Voyager or Enterprise. My plan is to someday. Like most, I hated the movie Generations for what it did to Kirk (And Spock, really, because of the whole Antonia nonsense).
I was ecstatic when the first Star Trek reboot movie came out and I loved it. Seeing it multiple times. When I first saw it, though I agreed Jim was cute, I didn’t go crazy for him. It wasn’t until I owned the movie on DVD that my obsession with Chris began. I also began taking note of Zach. Once I did that, my fanfiction “career” began. I never ever liked the Spock/Uhura pairing because I already shipped Kirk and Spock from TOS.
I’ve probably seen every episode of Ironside, Colombo, McMillan & Wife, and Murder She Wrote
I had a gigantic crush on Rutger Hauer in Ladyhawke. He was so badass with his armor and giant sword and turning into a wolf. Such a romantic, tragic tale. But it annoyed the crap out of me that she only ever called his hero, Etienne Navarre by his last name.
I liked the first three Star Wars movies well enough but I still wonder what the fuss is about
I own Halloween and Halloween 2
I didn’t learn to drive until I was in my 30s
I loved the show The Wonder Years
I loved the mystery and weirdness of Twin Peaks until they made it about demon possession
I drink cream with a little coffee (this is referred to by me as the Coffee of Love)
I like beer and wine but I am not much of a mixed drink drinker
I love every kind of seafood but tilapia. I even eat it hardcore raw like sashimi
I’ve tried frogs legs (sorry Kermit), snails, and rabbit (didn’t like any of them)
I do not like ham but I love bacon and pork chops
I’ve needed glasses since the 9^th grade
I’ve considered the FBI, acting, journalism, and historian as careers in the past
I prefer Stephen King over Dean Koontz but have widely read both
My favorite move used to be The Godfather. I still like it a lot but it’s been taken over a long time ago.
I took German in high school
Eeyore once pinched my butt
I used to voraciously read books on the mob (Lucky Luciano, Myer Lansky, Bugsy Segal)
I freaking love the first 6 seasons of Midsomer Murders
I loved the first two seasons of American Horror Story (Zach was in both, coincidence? I think not), but haven’t been able to stomach the gore and horror of any other seasons
I actually liked the movie Agent 47: Hitman with Zach and own it. He looked hot in it
I think the first two Spiderman’s with Toby Maguire were the best superhero movies ever made. Next comes the first Avengers.
I love the main theme from Cider House Rules (it’s also the theme for the commercials for Michigan’s “Pure Michigan” tourist commercials narrated by Tim Allen)
I sometimes just sit and play Spirk videos for hours
I love role playing video games and was a huge fan of Final Fantasy

January 6, 2017

Ramblings of the week, Week of January 02, 2017 Edition

As part of my weekly ramblings, you get a picture. Isn’t he pretty?

Well here we are in 2017.

The year didn’t start out well for me. I got a nasty comment on my fanfiction, When It Began, which basically questioned my whole scene with the teens, implying I was going “too fast” with the story, that the teens shouldn’t be kissing (who knows why), and worst of all, that Spock was completely out of character in the story. In fact they said he was so out of character “it hurt”. I am admittedly “Jimcentric” but I still try hard to get everything right with Spock. That was the New Year’s Day comment I woke up to.

To say I almost threw in the towel on that story as well as my entire account on AO3 would be an understatement. I put so much effort into those stories, not just for me, but for everyone else, and I was discouraged and disappointed.

I know I have a pretty vigorous readership on there. Many of whom never comment. And others who only comment sporadically. But all I could see was the negative.

I’m still struggling to “get over it”.

Like my friend, Kris, I don’t make resolutions. Not anymore. But I do have a few things I’d like to do this year and that includes the dreaded losing weight. I am too old at this point to worry about being hot or anything, but I do want to be healthier and that is probably more my goal than necessarily a number on a scale. I’d also like to be better with money. Later this year I will be going to Yellowstone (June) and how I will afford it is still a mystery. I spent way too much at Christmas, though it made ME happy to do so, so that’s important too. Still I need to better control my spending. I need to be better to myself too.

That’s about the extent of my ramblings this week. I am still going to the hospital on a daily basis. I’ll be there again tonight. The latest is that they’ve determined she has A-Fib as well as all kinds of infections. She’s having swallowing and speech therapy though and is doing quite well with those. She has no paralysis and her movement is fine. It also seems like most of the sundowner’s syndrome has faded. But yeah, still in the hospital and likely for a few more days.

January 3, 2017

Happy New Year (a Little Early)

I wish each and every one of you a Happy New Year.

I am trying to be positive about 2017 but I don’t really know that I can be. You know how I feel about the man about to become our president and what will no doubt be the loss of rights of everything we’ve gained in the last eight years. I hope I am wrong. I fear I am right.

My company is likely going to do layoffs in the first quarter of the New Year, so I am not sure what that will mean for me. I can only hope for the best.

The last week for me has been nothing but turmoil. A close family member had a stroke on Tuesday the 27^th and so I have spent every day working and then my evenings are spent mostly at the hospital. She has her ups and downs. She now has an infection and the stroke wrecked her ability to swallow properly so it looks like we can expect her to be there a few more days. She’s 90 and just wants to go home. In the late afternoons, evening and nights she has developed what is called sundowners syndrome. You get more confused and irritable and sometimes downright aggressive. It’s been a challenging week for the family.

I’ve still managed to get my stories updated so go me. But I can’t say I’m in the best of moods right now.

In spite of that, I hope you all have a great weekend and New Year.

I’m still waiting for this package to arrive:

December 30, 2016

When to Keep Quiet, Do I Know?

‘Tis the season for weird offenses.

People who get offended by “Happy Holidays” instead of “Merry Christmas” are annoying. There are all kinds of holidays. What in the hell is wrong with wishing someone well, which is what “Happy Holidays” is. People seem to think “Happy Holidays” is something new that came about because of the “War on Christmas” (laughable) but Andy Williams sang a song called “Happy Holidays” in the early 60s. Truly people, get over it.It’s not offensive to be told Happy Holidays even if you are Christian.

Someone posted on AO3 complaining that all the Spirk Christmas fics ignore that Spock is Jewish. Well, I don’t. But here’s the thing. Roddenberry was an Atheist. As far as I know what “religion” anyone was on Star Trek was not discussed. I don’t recall it. I know Leonard Nimoy was Jewish and was allowed to incorporate much of the Jewish religion into things we now know as Vulcan today. No one is disputing that. I admit I haven’t read any Spirk fics that show Spock being Christian, but I guess it’s possible there are. Usually in my own fics I leave Jesus out of the whole thing because I treat Christmas as a secular thing as I am at best agnostic. Anyway this person complained that a lot of it came from the people writing about the 2009 movie and onward. First of all, if you ARE new to the fandom, welcome. I would never ever think you should be made to feel unwelcome. And second, I know for a fact Spock’s religion is never brought up then. Winona Ryder who plays Spock’s mother, too briefly in my opinion, is Jewish. Zachary Quinto is not. So if you came to the fandom for the more recent movies, of course you aren’t going to know. I don’t know, it just seems something entirely too silly to get bothered over.

Right after that, I saw someone’s comment on a fic where the author did mention Spock being Jewish, and she made a comment that no other fics do that. Since I have and have seen others, I couldn’t help shaking my head and wondering when I became invisible.

Anyway, I have always been taught when you are different religions (or not at all religious as applies to me) you compromise on celebrations and the like. But what do I know?)

I guess I should keep my mouth shut as usual.

Happy Holidays!