This continues the story, by popular demand, of the Kirk and Spock from Strip Poker and Tropical Drinks Fame
The Beach…
They
ended up going for a walk after finishing their drinks and fries. Jim couldn’t
stomach the idea, honestly, of having one more sweet, fruity, tropical drink.
Together with the fries, he felt as though he had gained ten pounds.
When Jim
had turned toward the sandy beach next to the bar, Spock had hesitated briefly,
before, seeming to collect himself with a short nod, and following after Jim.
There
was an unexpected breeze coming off the Risan Ocean, and though it wasn’t
exactly freezing, Jim found himself grateful he hadn’t worn only a bathing
suit. For one thing, the idea of wearing
only that in front of Spock had him feeling somewhat, unexpectedly, shy.
Jim felt
a little at a loss now. He hadn’t really
believed that Spock might have feelings for him, not like that anyway. When
he’d accidentally, really it was, called Spock “babe” after poker, he was
certain Spock had called him the same as a joke to lighten the mood. And…it had
worked.
Everything
had returned to normal. Or normal for them, anyway.
Then
shore leave on Risa had come and Jim had thought it was a great opportunity to
forget his troubles. Because, like it or not, his affection and lust for his
first officer, had been one of those troubles. He had planned on getting laid on shore leave. Then Bones had opened
his big trap.
Jim
became aware that Spock was now shooting him furtive glances.
“Pretty,
huh?” he asked, as he stopped next to the shore.
“I have
never seen an equal.”
He dared
a look at Spock and, definitely, the Vulcan had not been looking at the ocean.
At least until Jim looked at him and he switched his gaze.
“Ever
been to Risa before, Spock?”
“I have
not. It always seemed far too…”
“Hedonistic?”
Spock
shrugged slightly. “I was going to say frivolous. Early on in my courtship with
Nyota, she desired to come here, but I…was not amenable to the planning of it.”
“I was
honestly surprised when you appeared in the bar,” Jim said.
“In
truth, I was not seeking out Risa, but you specifically, Captain.”
He
smiled faintly at the ‘captain’, but decided not to correct Spock this time.
Spock called him Jim when he felt like it and Jim had gotten used to it.
But he
wasn’t exactly sure what to reply to that, so in true Jim fashion, he remained
quiet.
“Where
did Doctor McCoy go?”
He
nodded at that, figuring that seemed like a reasonably safe topic for them, and
he wondered briefly why they needed a safe topic.
“He had
a massage appointment.”
“And you
did not wish to accompany him for one?”
Jim
shrugged. “I don’t find them pleasant to be honest. The muscles in my back are
a knotted mess and have been since…”
He’d
been about to say Tarsus, but he’d never brought up that subject, not with
anyone, and now standing on the beach in Risa, well, it didn’t seem the time
for such a conversation. And maybe someday there would be a time, with Spock, but it wasn’t today.
“Anyway,
since I was a teenager, basically. Whenever I have had a massage it just makes
it worse and causes me a lot of pain.” He smiled in Spock’s general direction.
“So, yeah, I skip those. And sorry for the long explanation.”
“I am
sorry for the discomfort, but I am gratified that meant you were left to your,
as you might say, to your own devices.”
Jim let
out a steadying breath and turned to Spock. “What’s really going on here,
Spock?”
“Captain?”
“I
guess, I don’t know. One of us is giving the other mixed signals and maybe it’s
me, but I kind of think it’s you. Are you, how would you put this, romantically
interested in me or what?”
Spock
stared at him, eyes widening slightly, mouth open, gaping a bit like a fish.
Jim had clearly thrown him with the direction question, but Jim was glad. Spock
needed to be thrown sometimes. He was all too together most of the time.
His
mouth hung open for a minute or two, mirroring the way he’d done so, back
before Khan and Marcus had betrayed them, and changed everything, and just like
then, Jim felt a bit of frustration.
“Yes.”
And by
the time Spock answered, Jim had nearly forgotten what he’d asked, and so now he was the one standing there, staring
at Spock. He saw the light of hope in Spock’s dark eyes dim to be replaced by a
careful mask of non-emotion. But the dread of disappointment had shown first.
Spock
looked away. Not out to the sea, as Jim might have done, but toward shore, and
Jim would guess, the safety of the ship.
“I
apologize if my advances are unwelcome,” he said softly, his cheeks showing
just the slightest hint of green.
Jim
recognized even before it spilled out that laughter was the wrong reaction for
his stiff Vulcan first officer, but it bubbled forth anyway. Spock instantly
became stiffer, how that was possible, Jim didn’t know, and he turned as if to
walk away.
He
stopped him with a hand on Spock’s arm. “Spock, no. It’s not unwelcome. It’s
just, well, there haven’t been any advances. That’s why I laughed.”
Spock’s
brows furrowed and Jim could tell he was going over their interactions as
though to see why he viewed them as advances and Jim did not.
“This is
a terrible place to have this conversation.” He let go of Spock’s arm, turning
away to pinch the bridge of his nose. “This is just much harder than it should
be.”
“Jim?”
“You
should go back to the ship.”
“You are
sending me away? Because—”
“No. I
mean. We both should. There’s just…” He gestured to children playing not that
far from their position. “No privacy at all. I have a hotel, but it’s-it’s not
at all right for you.”
It was
cheesy and sleazy and meant to be used to have wild, crazed sex with anonymous
lovers and that was so absolutely not what Spock was, if he was going to be
something, and Jim wasn’t really even sure, because there were things he had to
say, had to make sure of, and so nothing between them was at all guaranteed.
“Let’s
just go back to the Enterprise and my quarters or yours. Whichever. What you-what
you feel comfortable with.”
Spock
opened and closed his mouth then and he nodded and made to turn once more to go
back to the shore, but then he stopped, turning back once more to Jim.
“Before
we proceed, I need to know, if you share any similar feelings for me?”
“Yes,
Spock. I do.”
And he
saw the relief in Spock’s eyes, and Jim, really, ought to feel better about
this, about them, as Spock seemed to, but Jim still felt like a ball of lead
sat in his stomach.
But he turned and followed Spock up to where the transporter would take them to the Enterprise.
And yes, there is a part four coming, on June…7th. Yes, I am afraid you must wait that long!