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Spirk (with a small dose of Pinto)

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Some Announcements

In case you missed it, I have officially announced on AO3 that I am also the author “Jesse4Love” on there. At the time I created the account, I will confess here, I used it to kudo my own fics, because I didn’t think I was getting enough love at the time. Subsequently, I decided to use the account to write stories I might not write on there as IvanW, but since then, I have decided to continue a story I had abandoned some months back.

Here are the links

Finished story: Life as We Know It.

In progress story, Our So Called Life. Jim and Spock meet as children. Eveningstar, as she will no doubt discover, read it when it was listed as my incognito name.

The other is, that despite my wishiwashness, I am going to continue the blog, at least for now, beyond September 1. So you can expect flashes for 09/06, 09/13, 09/20. and 09/27 for that month. I am going to attempt to write fics for songs. Meaning the flash will somehow fit with a song. I already have one in mind, but if you want to suggest something, I am open to hearing.

And I think that’s everything. Expect a flash tomorrow, of course.

Tuesday Rambles, July 16, 2019

There’s my princess. And do I mean it. Since Crazy died in November of last year, we were briefly worried we might have to get another cat to be Luna’s companion. Nope. You’ve never seen a cat more happy to be the only cat. She loves it. And has become so spoiled, you wouldn’t believe it.

I’m behind a bit because I oozed laziness over the weekend when I should have been writing the next chapter of I Will Follow You into the Dark. I will have it up tomorrow morning come hell or high water (reference to Chris).

Off to see Spider-Man tonight.

Yesterday it was a million degrees. No really. 108 here where I work. About 10 degrees less where I live. I baked. Summer is here, alas. Hope yours is mild where you are.

After some conversation with a friend, I may keep the blog going after all. Not decided completely yet, but it’s a possibility. So stay tuned.

July Walk With Me (final one probably?) July 14, 2019

I braved heatstroke for this but here you go.

At least the hot sky is blue
Back in June I posted a picture of these trees in all their purply bloom. Loot at them now!!
Some months back I posted a picture of the cloth hanging off the freeway that kind of looked like a ghost. You can see that the ghost is still there. M jokes with people that we live under the freeway. Makes us sound like trolls, actually. Maybe we are!!
The shady park
Ugly Hedges
Not a sign of water in the wash now!
Love these big big trees. Wonder how long they’ve been alive. Longer than us surely.
I just love how this house is elevated about the house below it.
You’ve seen these guys before but thought you might like to see how they are still going strong
Italian Cypresses

I hate those trees. Ugly. Not to be confused with a Monterey Cypress (see below). They are all over here and I hate them. They are hideous and filled with vermin. Years ago my friend’s dad, alive back then, looked at the ones in his backyard (he was the original owner of the house) and he said, what asshole planted those? He was the asshole of course. Quite the character he was. He sort of looked like a cross between Tom Bosley and Paul Sorvino. Anyway, he’s long gone now but he’s one of those characters in life that you never ever forget. It’s amazing how people come and go in our lives, either because they pass on or because our circumstances in life change. Anyway, M hates olives and our friend’s dad, as a good Italian, loved them and he would chase M around with jars of olives, going but you have to try these. M would try them, of course, and go, nope, still gross. HA HA

Be careful of Sharks, they pop up where you least expect them
Love this house. Loved it more before they put in that astro turf that’s in their front yard.

Last night one of the houses in the neighborhood was having a party and they hired a Mariachi Band. It sounded like a blast. Alas they didn’t invite me.

My Heart’s a Virgin Finished

In my continuing efforts to complete a few stories, I have finished My Heart’s a Virgin . Next up for completing is All I Ever Wanted, which will be next week. Thank you.

Flash Fic, July 12, 2019

The minute Jim stepped into the medbay, Bones seemed to be ready for him. He came forward immediately, took one look at Jim’s exposed shoulder, his shirt had ripped during the battle on the planet, and jammed a hypospray into it. The relief from the burning pain in his shoulder was enough that Jim didn’t even bother protesting Bones’ manhandling.

“Bones?”

“He’s stable. Bed four. You can go see him.”

He started to turn in that direction.

“Jim.”

He looked over his shoulder.

“Uhura’s with him.”

Jim stopped in his tracks. Turned back toward Bones. Nodded. “I’ll see him later then. Don’t want to interrupt anything.”

Bones smiled, and Jim detected the sympathy behind it. “Sure. Anyway, he’ll make a full recovery, so no need to be concerned.”

“Great. Thanks, Bones. That’s good news.” Jim smiled faintly and shook his head. “This was not the way I expected the day to go when I woke up.”

“None of us did.”

He turned to leave the medbay.

“Jim. Maybe you should tell him.”

“Nah.” He shrugged. “They’ll probably get back together.”

“Don’t think so.”

“Injuries do that. Look what happened after Altamid. See you later.”

The doors swooshed open and Jim headed down the corridor to the turbolift.

“Captain! Captain, wait.”

He stopped the turbolift door from closing as Uhura ran up to him. Her pony tail was still swinging.

“I couldn’t help but overhear what was being said between you and Leonard. He’s right. You should tell Spock.”

“What?” He started to shake his head.

“Trust me. He wants to know.” She pushed him out of the turbolift and let it close in his face.

Jim headed back to the medbay and to bed 4.

Spock’s eyes opened at his approach. He looked even paler than normal.

“Captain,” he said softly. “The doctor said you had left.”

Jim smiled and reached for Spock’s hand, which closed around his. “I’m not going anywhere.”     

Story Updates 07/10/2019

With the last two chapters of The Swap posted this week, it’s finished.

I am now working on the next chapter of My Heart’s a Virgin. I hope to have it up by Friday at the latest. Friday will have another flash.

Thank you for reading.

Extra Flash Conclusion 07/07/2019

He entered his dark, empty quarters without any enthusiasm.

“Lights fifty percent.”

They came on instantly and even at fifty it seemed far too bright for his tired eyes.

“Dim lights to twenty-five percent.”

He stood in the middle of his quarters for a while, probably no more than minutes though, before finally deciding he could stand with a shower. His clothes were soiled with…with…

The door chimed and before he even thought about answering it, the door opened, and Spock stepped inside. He still wore his own soiled and messy uniform, and his eyes looked wider in his paler face than usual.

Jim stared at him, recognizing that his eyes were pooled with tears, but unable to do much about them.

“I promised his mother.”

“Captain?”

He blinked, dislodging a few tears with his lashes, feeling them wet his cheeks. “Ensign Styles. We…she was there, you know, when we picked him up when the Enterprise was ready to go out again. She told me to take care of him, make sure he returned safe.” Jim lowered his gaze to the floor. “I didn’t do that.”

“Jim.”

Spock was there in a second, less than, maybe, and he had his hands on Jim’s arms, on his forearms, holding him in place, but not tight, with complete and utter gentleness. He raised his gaze to Spock’s and what he saw there mirrored his own thoughts and feelings, somehow.

“Styles was not your fault and both he and his mother understood Starfleet service. There was nothing you could have done to save him from what occurred except perhaps leave him off the landing party and he desperately wanted to be on it.”

“I know, but I—”

Spock simply shook his head. His thumb came up to brush a tear off Jim’s cheek. “What did you dream of?”

“About us?”

“Yes.”

“It was stupid, really. And the only reason it really stands out was because it wasn’t a bad dream. A nightmare, you know? Which is what I have all the time. Not all the time, but—”

“Jim.” Spock shook him, but again, with extreme gentleness.

“It was you and me, just dancing, at a cotillion. Do you know what those are?”

Spock nodded.

“All dressed in old-fashioned clothes like you’d wear to one, I guess, and you were leading. I think I tried to, but you took over, whatever.” Jim smiled a little. “Then you moved us off the dance floor to the balcony outside and then we—”

“We?” Spock prompted.

Jim briefly closed his eyes, squeezing out a few more teardrops. He smiled again and opened his eyes. He put his hand up to Spock’s face. “We kissed. And kissed. It was…the best kisses of my life and it was all a damn dream, Spock. Then we started to remove our clothes, right there on the balcony, and then-then I woke up. And we went on the mission.”

“I see.”

Jim pushed away then, out of his hold, putting distance between them. “And now? I’m just dog-tired. Wiped out emotionally.” He shook his head, then frowned. “Was there something you wanted?”

Spock nodded. “Yes.”

“What?”

“You. To tell you that…I’m here for you. That I made a mistake walking away out in the corridor. But I won’t walk away like that. Not again.”

Jim swallowed and took a step closer. “I really need a hug.”

And he was even a little surprised when Spock stepped closer, wrapping an arm around his waist and pulling Jim against him. It was kind of too snug and even kind of awkward. But it was the best damn hug he had ever felt. He closed his eyes and leaned into Spock.

“Thanks.”

“You are welcome, Jim.”

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