After the Events that dealt with the Melkotians (The OK Corral one where Chekov is killed but is revived at the end of the episode). Now served, AOS Style.
Despite what probably a lot of people thought, Jim actually second and third guessed himself quite a bit. And now as he stood in Spock’s quarters, this was definitely one of those times.
“Spock, come on. It wasn’t your fault.”
“Perhaps not directly, Captain. But I was convinced since it was all an illusion by the Melkotians that Mr. Chekov would be returned to us.”
Jim rubbed his chest, where the ache over the loss of the young ensign made it frankly hard to breathe. He’d thought so too. And he had begged the Melkotians even as they informed the party they’d be sent back to the Enterprise. To no avail. Chekov was gone.
If it was anyone’s fault, it was surely Jim’s.
“Hoping that they’d have the integrity and morality to return him to us is hardly worthy of any blame on your part, Spock,” he said, gently.
Spock studied him through furrowed brows. “Nor do you bear responsibility.”
“Well.” He shrugged.
“Jim.”
“As his captain, I bear some. But ultimately, I know it was the Melkotians, Spock. I accept that, because I must.” He paused taking a deep breath. “But if there is one thing that all of this has taught me is life really is…I mean…there’s so much time we waste on nothing and I…just don’t want to do that anymore.”
Spock frowned minutely. “Captain…”
“I don’t want to go another minute without telling you that you…” He paused to gather his nerve. “You mean the world to me.”
“You are quite important to me as well.”
Jim smiled. Nodded. “Yeah. I mean, that’s great, and I know. But you mean, well our friendship…and I’m really glad about that, Spock. I am. And in the past, maybe just yesterday, I would have just gone, cool, that’s great. I’m glad we’re on the same page, but you mean more to me than anyone I’ve ever known, Spock. You aren’t just my-my best friend, though you are, and my most trusted officer, you are that, too, there’s just no one I admire more than you. Your intelligence and integrity, your will power. You’re just amazing. And I get to know you and care about you and it’s just…it’s everything.” Jim bit his lip. “Are you getting this?”
“I believe that I am.”
“Yeah?”
“And it is the same for me.”
Jim laughed, shook his head. “No. I’m trying to say I’m in love with you.”
“I know.”
“And I’m not trying to make you uncomfortable or anything and I definitely don’t expect you to…what?” Jim stared dumbfounded at Spock.
Spock arched a brow. “As I said…it is the same for me.”
“Are you saying…”
“I believe I am speaking Starfleet standard.”
Jim took a step toward Spock who took a step toward him.
“Spock.”
“Jim.”
He rushed at Spock then, who seemed to rush at him. Then they were kissing, and yeah teeth clacked together, it wasn’t exactly smooth. His fault, of course, because this was Spock and oh my God.
He laughed and pulled back, touching his fingertips to Spock’s lips, which bled a little where Jim’s tooth pierced it.
“Sorry, got a little eager.”
Spock’s lips turned upward. “I am not really complaining. I have waited a long time for that. For this.”
Jim’s smile brightened. “Yeah? Me too.”
“How about I show you?”
And Spock pulled him close, lips gentle on his.
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10 responses to “Eveningstar’s Birthday Flash”
Happy birthday Eveningstar!
And what a great fic. I love when they declare their love for each other!
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Thank you ❤
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Happy Birthday, Eveningstar! Hope you have a lovely day!
This was really good. I always enjoy when they are on the same page but the other is sitll unsure and has to keep talking LOL (Jim)
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Yep Jim rarely shuts up
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Happy Birthday, Evening! I hope this is a day you get a break from the pressures of life and instead get a little spoiling! 🎂🎁🕯️
“because this was Spock and oh my God.” This may be my new favorite line. I hate they lost Chekov (as yeah, we all hate losing Anton), but Jim is so funny. Spock’s saying, yeah me too, and Jim’s brain just runs right past it because he can’t even see a way that Spock would love him.
And then he does. So perfect!
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Yep ” this was Spock and oh my God” is for real! 😀
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Happy belated birthday Eveningstar!
I find Jim rather adorable keeping on talking because of his need to explain himself to Spock without really hearing what Spock is saying. What a wonderful fic!
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He is adorable!
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Thank you so much Ivan! 💕 And thank you everyone for wishing me happy birthday! What a lovely gift that was. Sorry I didn’t reply on my birthday. I got out of work super late because staffing was so bad and then one nurse called out. Then I was just so exhausted. But it was a lovely sunny mild day after the snow! Yes a dusting of SNOW on MAY 9th!!! Unheard of! So my husband and I went for a walk on the nearby bike trail (built over a long ago ripped up train line), my 20 year old twins slept in till about 2 or 3 pm!!! Lol!
Then we had our favorite Italian restaurant deliver a feast to us. After birthday cake, I FaceTimed with my oldest daughter, who is still down in Brooklyn, for three hours till I was ready to fall asleep. A very odd but nice 60th birthday! Still can’t get over the 60 part. How did that happen? 🤷🏻♀️ My husband is also saying we are all going to celebrate half birthdays, in the hope that in 6 months things will be better!?!!
So that would be September 18 & October 18 for my three girls (March and April) and November 10 for my May birthday. My husband’s birthday is July12, so that would bring us into a half birthday of January 12th. I think my brain hurts! Lol! But more cake is always a great thing!
This story was perfect! I love these two knuckleheads discovering one another. So sad that Chekov is not returning to them, but that would be compliant and acknowledge how Anton was also gone in RL! Jim, of course, can’t fathom that Spock could reciprocate, so he keeps talking through Spock’s admission that he loves him too! Lol! A little slow on the uptake Jimmy boy! Lol! Then Jim gets overeager and nips Spock. Haha! But I do love how Spock then endeavors to show Jim! And gently kisses him. Love it! Thank you so much!!! Made me so happy to have this gift.
❤️💚🖖😘 🎈🎊🎉 🎂 🎁
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Sorry about the work situation but the rest does sound like you had a nice birthday, in the new normal way,
And yes, Jim is a little slow when attempting to understand Spock loves him too.
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