Spirk (with a small dose of Pinto)

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Bitter Frost Update

I am still plugging away on the last chapter of Bitter Frost. The above pictures will be posted on the last chapter as they were my inspiration for this story.

It’s taking me a while for this chapter because it needs to be absolutely perfect. As you know, if you’ve been around a while, I’d been planning this story for a long time. It took me a while to get it started, I posted it, got slammed by a troll, deleted it, cried myself to sleep over it, posted it again, and here we are. I’ve had this plan all along, what happened to 1950s Jim, that Spock would leave him, and make him forget, but it isn’t at all easy, and if it wasn’t for the final chapter I am writing, this story might go into the Sad Endings with The Strange Vulcan. But it won’t.

So, in the meantime, I can’t work on anything else. Stay tuned for it and the Friday Flash coming on the 12th.

Some Hope

Yesterday was Giving Tuesday. I’ve spent so much money lately, I felt like I had to do something. My employer had a giving campaign where they would match your donation, but it had to be one of the “approved charities”. I wanted to give to the LA Mission in Skidrow who feed the homeless and the Ventura County Rescue Mission in my county who do the same. So I donated a dollar each pay period for the next year to each one of them. It’s not a lot but it’s something.

Then I got an email from Amazon saying you could use Alexa (Echo) to donate to Toys for Tots and Amazon would match that donation. So I donated a toy and a recording of Dax Shepard told me I basically donated two toys since Amazon matched. Thank you, Dax.

Anyway, I tell you this not to brag or anything but to bring up a news article I saw this morning that made yours truly cry like a blubbering fool.

So Cal Businessman Donates

Check it out. It’s short.

I have no clue what political party this man belongs to and I don’t care. He’s a fucking fantastic human being. He didn’t have to do this, but he wanted to do something. And God, those people need it.

There is still good out there. And that gives me hope. If only a little

Ramblings of the Week, October 22, 2018


So, anyway, as you no doubt know by now, I considered deleting The Sight as I have lost my inspiration for it. I was going to just delete it without word but at the last minute decided to ask about it. I was kind of surprised I had a more positive reaction to the story and more people wanting me to keep it to get to again some day then I had anticipated. So, for now, it stays.

I was able to get the update for Nine Lives done. Next I need to write the last chapter for my Professor Spock conclusion so that I can have it done in plenty of time to post it on Halloween. That’s what I intend to do next.

I think after that I will be updating My Devotion but not sure when I will get to it. This is a pretty busy week. Tomorrow we are seeing the new Halloween (got my tickets already). Thursday is our WW and Saturday we are helping a friend with her festival appearance in Ventura. That’s pretty much an all day thing as it goes until 5. Our friend is going to a Halloween party after that but we are going to dinner after ourselves.

I also need to finish my OMS story for November. I have quite a bit done on it now and I can post it any time in November. I also need to finish the Christmas story. And as I indicated in comments, I have signed up for the T’hy’la Bang which posts in January. I think I have an idea but it would involve a lot of sex so we shall see.

I think that’s it for this week.


Yeah Another Idea

So I was watching some videos and I came across a song that is inspirational to me for Spirk. This one would be for Spock, as in Jim would be the one saying all this about Spock.

Below are they lyrics and I would call it Beneath Your Beautiful. Will I write it? We shall see!


You tell all the boys no
Makes you feel good yeah
I know you’re out of my league
But that won’t scare me away oh no
You’ve carried on so long
You couldn’t stop if you tried it
You’ve built your wall so high
That no one could climb it
But I’m gonna try

Would you let me see beneath your beautiful
Would you let me see beneath your perfect



Ramblings of the Week, January 15, 2018

Martin Luther King, Jr Day

Long but worth it.

In writing, I updated last week, Anything, Where My Demons Hide, My Devotion, and began Bitter Frost.

This week you can expect another chapter of Bitter Frost, Didn’t We Have it All, and Turning Page.

Ramblings of the Week, October 09, 2017


So I had a mini-meltdown on Saturday, not going to lie. I had a headache since the day before that and it would not go away. I didn’t sleep well. I woke up groggy and unrested and depressed.

Circumstances conspired against me to bring me to an ever lower place and I wrote a post saying I was going to change the blog, which I later deleted. I actually considered deleting the blog as well as my tumblr account. I hit delete on that probably five times and the only thing that stopped it from happening was it wanted my password and I couldn’t remember what it was.

Then I got that out of left field comment on For the First Time and I lost it. I somehow managed to update You are the Light but damn it dragged me further down. I was glad I got it done, honestly, but it managed to just make me so much sadder.

I’m a creator of my own stress at times as definitely certain people will tell you and promises I make to strangers definitely comes under that category. I promised I’d get an update done and I did.

I had to lighten things for myself as best I could and believe me the news I see everyday makes that difficult indeed. And even though I told myself I have no time for challenges (OMS for instance. I did it last year, I just can’t do it this year) and special holiday stories (the now world famous Professor Spock story was a Halloween story, HA), I decided I had to write one for my own sanity. I needed something fun and lighthearted. I wanted a heroic Jim, a hurt Spock. I wanted a love story that would make ME melt. And so October Romance has arrived. Halloween is in three weeks. And this story will be done by then. I have no idea how long it will be or any of that and it’s even likely it will be done before that day. Because this is what I must work on for now.

Otherwise, my weekend was okay. I did some necessary shopping on Sunday. Got some new coffee to try. Bought some wine. Watched the Halloween Baking Championship on Food Network. Saturday watched some movies that are just so over the top and I’ve seen so many times they couldn’t possibly scare me. They are like old friends.

Anyway, so I am taking it easy this week and doing fluffy. For those waiting for angst I hope you will be patient. Who knows where I will be next week. It may be an angst fest!

I know I owe readings to some others who have updated, and I WILL get to them.

Until next time, Live Long and Prosper.

What Am I Listening To

As I have surely said before, music inspires me. Whether I am just trying to get through the dreary day at work or thinking of my latest Spirk story.

Here’s where my music love is going right now:

Keep Forgetting by Michael McDonald

Turning Page by Sleeping at Last

Drop Dead Beautiful by Britney Spears

Everything by Lifehouse

Somebody to Die for by Hurts

Believer by Imagine Dragons

Cry for You by September

I Don’t Deserve You by Paul Van Dyk (featuring Plumb)

Stay by Hurts

In My Veins by Andrew Belle

Comfort by Phil Campbell


These are always changing, of course, but this is my current crop.

A Break

Tomorrow I will have a flash fic up.

So…I have some news.

I’m stuck. I stare at every one of my works in progress and I have nothing. I should be updating My Devotion next but I can’t even make myself open the file. I did open Dating a Vulcan. Managed to force out like two paragraphs and went…no.

I don’t feel like working on anything.

You’d think these two would inspire anyone.

But I presently have nothing.

And so…I’m taking some time off, hoping I return to being inspired to continue my stories. Right now, I am seriously burned out.


If You Get the Chance

Check out my buddy’s new fic. Her first one for AOS, which I betaed for her. Give her some love, if you can. It’s a lovely fantasy!

On Our Ship, Fantasize


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