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Random Observations from My Currently Tortured Mind

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Above is where I wish I was today. In Germany. I’ve been there. At that castle. It’s gorgeous. Wish I was there this very second.

I’m tired. My emotional/mental state is seriously dragging right now.

I posted Who’s the Daddy and the response has been pretty good but now I have people telling me I don’t punish Spock enough and others arguing basically that Jim deserves to be treated badly because he slept with three people in 48 hours. It’s exhausted me and drained me and made me regret even posting it or anything right now, to be honest. Clearly I am not in the mood.

My family member is out of the hospital and recovering reasonably well. I will be seeing her this evening.

Is it just me or when you see the pictures from that interview Chris did with W Magazine the only reaction I could give was “Gee, I wish you’d wash your damn hair”. Sorry, greasy hair does nothing for me, even on Chris Pine.

So the other day we are watching the Karl Urban/Rock movie, Doom, for like the 10th time and there’s this strip of something lying on the tile floor on the way to our downstairs bathroom. Milo is going to the bathroom with the door open like always and goes, “What’s that on the floor?” I think it’s just like a strip of material or ribbon or something because the cats play with that stuff all the time. So I reached down to pick it up…and it’s a worm! Ugh. I screamed. Yes, I did. Which impressed the cats because they went running like Godzilla was coming through the front door or something. But it was slimy and wriggling like worms do. So I dropped it, picked up a tissue and killed it. Afterward, I was told I should have saved it and tossed it back outside. Keep in mind Milo has a bug jar he uses to traps spiders and the like to save their lives by returning them to the wild. I said next time he can pick up the worm.

What has this got to do with Doom? Not much. Other than that movie has some pretty gruesome things going on in it, like the tongue by itself just lashing around the lab. Yeah, Karl doesn’t always pick stellar movies to star in, let’s just say. But during a creepy movie to see a creepy worm, well, just gross.

My stomach has been bugging me for about three days now and I can honestly say I am sick of it.

Ramblings of the week, Week of January 02, 2017 Edition

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As part of my weekly ramblings, you get a picture. Isn’t he pretty?

Well here we are in 2017.

The year didn’t start out well for me. I got a nasty comment on my fanfiction, When It Began, which basically questioned my whole scene with the teens, implying I was going “too fast” with the story, that the teens shouldn’t be kissing (who knows why), and worst of all, that Spock was completely out of character in the story. In fact they said he was so out of character “it hurt”. I am admittedly “Jimcentric” but I still try hard to get everything right with Spock. That was the New Year’s Day comment I woke up to.

To say I almost threw in the towel on that story as well as my entire account on AO3 would be an understatement.  I put so much effort into those stories, not just for me, but for everyone else, and I was discouraged and disappointed.

I know I have a pretty vigorous readership on there. Many of whom never comment. And others who only comment sporadically. But all I could see was the negative.

I’m still struggling to “get over it”.

Like my friend, Kris, I don’t make resolutions. Not anymore. But I do have a few things I’d like to do this year and that includes the dreaded losing weight. I am too old at this point to worry about being hot or anything, but I do want to be healthier and that is probably more my goal than necessarily a number on a scale. I’d also like to be better with money. Later this year I will be going to Yellowstone (June) and how I will afford it is still a mystery. I spent way too much at Christmas, though it made ME happy to do so, so that’s important too. Still I need to better control my spending. I need to be better to myself too.

That’s about the extent of my ramblings this week. I am still going to the hospital on a daily basis. I’ll be there again tonight. The latest is that they’ve determined she has A-Fib as well as all kinds of infections. She’s having swallowing and speech therapy though and is doing quite well with those. She has no paralysis and her movement is fine. It also seems like most of the sundowner’s syndrome has faded. But yeah, still in the hospital and likely for a few more days.

Happy New Year (a Little Early)

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I wish each and every one of you a Happy New Year.

I am trying to be positive about 2017 but I don’t really know that I can be. You know how I feel about the man about to become our president and what will no doubt be the loss of rights of everything we’ve gained in the last eight years. I hope I am wrong. I fear I am right.

My company is likely going to do layoffs in the first quarter of the New Year, so I am not sure what that will mean for me. I can only hope for the best.

The last week for me has been nothing but turmoil. A close family member had a stroke on Tuesday the 27th and so I have spent every day working and then my evenings are spent mostly at the hospital. She has her ups and downs. She now has an infection and the stroke wrecked her ability to swallow properly so it looks like we can expect her to be there a few more days. She’s 90 and just wants to go home. In the late afternoons, evening and nights she has developed what is called sundowners syndrome. You get more confused and irritable and sometimes downright aggressive. It’s been a challenging week for the family.

I’ve still managed to get my stories updated so go me. But I can’t say I’m in the best of moods right now.

In spite of that, I hope you all have a great weekend and New Year.

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I’m still waiting for this package to arrive:

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