Still Struggling With Content Here

Yep, I’m still mostly absent here.

Earlier this week I considered deleting my AO3 account entirely. I talked myself down.

There are still some issues I am dealing with in my private life and I’ve learned that they way things “used to be done” just isn’t reality anymore. I’m hoping for some help this weekend from some relatives that said they would come help and so, well, I hope to have something positive to say next week about my situation. I don’t mean to be mysterious but I just don’t want to fully go into it right now. I will say I had a health scare on Tuesday that very nearly sent me to the hospital.

In other news, I’ve got loads of things coming up. We’re going to Temecula in a couple of weeks for an overnight to see Johnny Mathis. He’s 88. Not sure how great he can sing these days but we got free tickets and obviously this will be the last opportunity.

At the end of the month, the last weekend, I am off to my happy place, Morro Bay. I greatly look forward to that.

Before you know it, July will be here and I am going to try to get some Christmas in July offerings up here. Cross your fingers I can make it happen. I might use the idea I had for a flash and make it Christmas in July. I think I can.

So much going on this summer I can barely wrap my head around it. More trips, M’s sister coming for an August visit. Just lots and lots. I’ll try to keep my head on straight, LOL.

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12 responses to “Still Struggling With Content Here”

  1. crayonsurpapier Avatar
    crayonsurpapier

    I hope things improve for you, and please enjoy your time traveling! Your work is such a comfort read to me, and while it’s absolutely your choice what you would like to do with you Ao3 account I hope that if you deleted you would be open to orphaning your fics and not removing them entirely?

    (I say this as I contemplate panic downloading your entire back catalogue 😅)

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    1. ivansfanfiction Avatar
      ivansfanfiction

      Oh I probably won’t delete it. Even if I never wrote another story on there, in all honesty I wouldn’t just delete the account, even though I did very shortly think about it. It was short though, I promise. And if that EVER really was going to happen, yes, I would orphan the works and likely post a warning here first that I was going to do it. But I say today, that it is likely not going to happen, so breathe easier, my friend 🙂

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  2. feenani Avatar
    feenani

    Please, PLEASE don’t delete your account. I’m sure there are many fans who reread your stories over & over again. I do so when I need to levitate my mood. Let your account go fallow, if you need to. We will understand. MY prayers are with you. Sending you positive thoughts. 💕

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    1. ivansfanfiction Avatar
      ivansfanfiction

      Hugs no worries I won’t, It was just a momentary, quick thought, and it quickly passed.
      Thank you so much Feen

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  3. catcrazy5 Avatar
    catcrazy5

    Sorry to hear that you are struggling. I hope you don’t delete your account, as I greatly enjoy reading your stories and would miss them. I hope things improve!

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    1. ivansfanfiction Avatar
      ivansfanfiction

      thank you, I hope so too! 🙂

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  4. eveningstar10 Avatar

    My heart goes out to you. A health scare is terrifying. It shakes your very foundation. I sincerely hope that you are better and have help with whatever is troubling you. Hope your family can help with other life issues too. 😘👍I don’t really pray, but I pray you don’t delete your account, even if you never wrote another word. I love rereading your stories… Rereading them is like coming home.

    Hope you enjoy your summer trips! Sounds like fun!

    Sending hugs and love your way. ❤️💚

    I still haven’t made Summer plans. My husband is finally able to walk after his right foot/ankle surgery in January. It’s a bit awkward though. But he is still not able to drive and his foot is swollen all the time. He just started PT. I hope that helps! 🤞He’s been back to work this past month or do.

    once again, sending hugs to you!

    ❤️💚❤️💚🖖

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    1. ivansfanfiction Avatar
      ivansfanfiction

      In the early days of my account at AO3, I almost deleted my account and work every other day. You have to develop a somewhat thick skin to deal with strangers reading and judging your work something I frankly don’t have. I didn’t then and I really haven’t improved totally. I think I am a bit better. But even in those days I fought against it and never did delete it. I did delete some works over the years.

      This time it was just a moment of…depression getting to me. I’ve learned it’s not good to make big decisions during those times. Can you imagine how much I would have regretted that? I’ve seen some pretty damn good writers on there delete their accounts when times got rough and I was very sad for them and the fandom, so I try not to be that person.

      I’ve heard that back, ankles and knees are some of the worst surgeries to have to have.. I can see from your husband’s situation, it’s a long recovery. You and he both have my sympathy. I can’t imagine!

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  5. Kristbethke Avatar

    Yay for MB!!

    Lots going on for you lovey and a lot of it is good and fun. Some of it…not so much. Hope you’re doing better still. I know it was scary.

    You do you boo. And I’ll be waiting to gobble up anything you should write 😉

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    1. ivansfanfiction Avatar
      ivansfanfiction

      Yeah and I haven’t felt 100% right since then and I can’t decide if I am just being a baby about it! 👶

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      1. Kristbethke Avatar

        Squints. Listen to your body friend!

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  6. Jay Avatar
    Jay

    big hugs!!

    ❤️

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