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Ramblings of the Week of October 17

I spent this past weekend in Mammoth. If you don’t know what Mammoth is you should google it. Mammoth Lakes. It’s beautiful. It was a long drive there Friday night after work and we didn’t get there until about 1 AM. Anyway we had a great time though it was cold and as we were leaving Sunday morning snow was on all the mountains and hills around us.

While I was there I got an idea for a new fic. I intend to start it today but don’t know when I will begin posting it. No details as yet because I want it to be a surprise.

I have to wonder at celebs sometimes. Why would you adopt a dog right before going away on a week long road trip with your buddies?

I’m having a little get-together this coming Sunday. I intended to serve hot tea and coffee but since they are now predicting it is going to be about 85 I guess I will be serving iced tea. I am ready for it to be cool. I got spoiled in Mammoth where I was freezing. I really don’t know how you people who live on the East coast do the snow every damn day thing in the winter. Brrrrr

Edit: I took out my complaint. It was clear to me it didn’t work as I intended it to and probably made ME look bad.

October 17, 2016

In Limbo…

As the title says there, I am sort of in limbo about what’s coming next in the updates. I am working on the next chapter of My Devotion, You are the Light That’s Leading Me, the One-Shot and Young and Beautiful. None are finished. Not sure if I will have anything finished but my goal is to get something finished and updated on Friday.

I’m still working on my Old Married Spirk story but I have all of November to post that, though like I said before I intend to post it sooner rather than later.

I’ll be away all weekend so there won’t be any updates. In fact that’s sort of going to be a pattern going forward through the end of the year. This is my busy time with parties, plans, family, friends, and holidays.Through October I have plans every weekend and into November as well. I expect December to be likewise busy, so just expect me to take most weekends off posting wise.

Because my plate is super full (got one story finished thankfully) and Christmas stories will be coming up soon, I expect THE WINTER STORY not to get going before January. It’s going to have angsty sad elements for sure. I am hoping to get a story or two completed before I get working on that too much.

Because he’s beautiful, I must conclude with a Chris picture. Oh look, Zach got in there too.

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October 12, 2016

Ramblings of the Week October 10

I’ve been writing. Sort of. I wrote two little parts of Young and Beautiful. Which I posted. And I started the next chapter of My Devotion and the One-Shot Collection 5 but I didn’t get very far on either. I didn’t post anything this past weekend on AO3 and I am not sure I will have anything to post today. I’m sort of…I don’t know. Blah.

I want to delete my account sometimes as you know. Just make it go away and never post another word. Another story on there. I haven’t and I am not sure I will. Because that’s happened to me on there and I know it sucks. I’ve been that reader that goes…oh no…

Sometimes it’s not enough though.

I don’t kid myself that someone else won’t come around to fill the gap I would leave. New writers of the Star Trek reboot movies come along all the time. The whole Spock/Bones thing seems to be catching on way too much since Beyond but whatever. I lament the lack of Kirk/Spock fics on there but alas that’s the way it is.

And I refuse to ever return to the K/S Archive.

Anyway, if I ever did delete, the fandom would go on. Springing up new life all the time and new fans. And some of them are really good, so I don’t think I’d be missed for long, really. There are those I adored to read who don’t publish anymore, so it happens.

I do have people tell me I am their favorite and that’s lovely, really. I had a reader make such a comment today. And I guess that’s why I still haven’t deleted my account there. But I can’t say the thought doesn’t occur to me still, because it does.

What’s the gist of this? I don’t know. This is called rambling for a reason.

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October 10, 2016

Plans

Today during my writing time I feel I need to return to my Old Married Spirk story. I plan to upload it fairly soon in November, maybe even the first because as most of you know, that’s how I roll. I can hardly wait to post stuff once I write it. This story is so full of fluffiness it’s unreal! HA. There’s probably a reason I don’t regularly write TOS.

Also writing on OMS will prevent me from posting on AO3 today which I definitely need a break from.

I seriously need to conclude something though because Christmas is coming and so is THE WINTER STORY. I need less works in progress. Somebody stop me!

I was posting chapters of Where My Demons Hide on here but I think it might be a bit too graphic for wordpress, so if you are out there and were reading it on wordpress, here’s the link for it on AO3/WMDH so it can be read there.

I may at times post some sort of fluffiness here. Maybe even some Kirk/Spock Prime. Those tend to get porny though so we will see.

In other news, I saw yesterday that Chris adopted a dog. Made me love him even more though I admit to being somewhat surprised since he seemed to indicate before not a lot of time to take care of a pet since he is away so much. But maybe he has enough free time he thought he could do it right now. Anyway the dog and Chris are both cuties.

October 6, 2016

Ramblings of the Week Oct 03

Yep this is going to a weekly thing for however long I do this blog. I’ve been known to delete it before.

We are on a heightened Earthquake alert here. Through Tuesday there is a higher chance we will be felled with a major giant earthquake. I guess we get these “alerts” once or twice a year though I confess this is the first time I remember getting one.

Went to the Science Center Sunday and saw the space shuttle Endeavor as well as an IMAX movie on the 100th anniversary of the National Parks. Next year I am going to Yellowstone so it was kind of interesting.

I’ve discovered that I have a major letdown issue. As most of you know who read my work on AO3, I put a lot of heart and soul into that work.that goes on there and so when people decide just not to comment on it anymore it’s a huge disappointment for me. I get those that never leave comments. Comments are awesome and it makes a writer feel super good when they get them and eager to write more. But if you don’t ever comment, you don’t comment. But it’s those who only comment sometimes that I find the hardest to take. Because you end up thinking you did something wrong because they liked other chapters but all of a sudden they don’t like your latest chapters. It’s disheartening.

I also have a jealousy issue. I see people gushing and commenting and kudoing on other fics while ignoring mine or whatever. And I feel bad. I admit it. It’s probably wrong but there you have it. I have never ever been popular. Ever. And I think it comes from that.

Oh, well. It is what it is. And it bothers me sometimes more than other times.

So I guess those are my rambling for this week. Hope everyone has a good one.

October 3, 2016

PAIRS

So I saw this on tumblr and decided to put a post on here with my thoughts on it.

OTP – Obvious isn’t it? Kirk/Spock

Favorite canon pairing: I think this is supposed to be an “actual’ pairing in fandom, not a created one, so if that’s the case I’d go with Arwen/Aragorn from The Lord of the Rings trilogy. But if that isn’t what it means, I say Kirk/Spock again.

Worst Pairing Ever: Spock/Uhura, duh, just so wrong, although for me a close second is Spock/Bones

Guilty Pleasure Pairing: Kirk/Spock Prime

A Pairing I want to see more of: Always Kirk/Spock, to me there aren’t enough

That pair that everyone likes but you’re like “no, lol”: Kirk/McCoy

Favorite Non-Romantic Pair: Kirk/McCoy

October 2, 2016

My Own Favorites

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We all have our favorites of work we’ve written. Or maybe that’s just me, but I don’t think so.

I was talking to my dear bff Kris about this and she shared with me her favorites of mine. I started talking about it because I was mentioning a particular story of mine that is popular and the reason why always eludes me. I don’t hate the story but it’s not in my top 5 of what I’ve written. Maybe not even top 10. Yet it has the most Kudos of any story I have out there.

So here is my list of my own favorites in no particular order and I am keeping it at 5

Not in Love

Not an Ordinary Life

Somewhere Else

In Another Life

A Spirky Christmas Carol

It was hard for me to choose A Spirky Christmas Carol over Going Boldly because I adore my longest fic, but A Christmas Carol is my all time favorite story and the tale told from Spock’s angle/POV is particularly poignant for me.

So there you have it, my top 5 COMPLETED works. I have a few favorites in the new stuff.

October 1, 2016

It’s Me, Again

This is my contemplative face

Okay really it’s his, but it works for me.

I’m feeling much the same way he probably is in this shot.

Due to the success of Professor Spock I had decided to write a sequel, Runaway Groom. I thought given the themes of the first story where Jim was uncertain about bonding with Spock, who made his initial disdain for Human Jim very clear, that the sequel would be well received. I didn’t expect it to be be as popular. It’s rare that sequels ever are. But I didn’t expect the crash and burn I got either. I guess the so-called “sequel fatigue” isn’t just for movies.

The truth is, I should have kept it short and sweet. Maybe a one-shot where Spock found Jim quickly and ta-da the end. But I got it in my head that it had to be complicated and I ended up introducing Leonard McCoy Prime and really it just went down from there. I’m not surprised no one cares about it because I don’t even care about it. At this point all I want to do is delete it and call it a failed experiment.

I had plans that they would go to the Nexus and Jim would meet his father there and want to stay and for Spock Jim would be fully bonded with him and not have any doubts and so he’d want to stay. And they’d have to fight to get back to their real lives.

Only I just don’t give a rat’s ass anymore. I really don’t.

And so I want to just make it go away and pretend it never happened.

My contemplative face is do I really just delete it without comment? That’s what I want to do. It’s just not working for me or for readers. I am sure there will be some readers who will be “Oh I liked that story” but for the most part I don’t really believe it will be missed.

So there you have it.

September 29, 2016

Winter is On My Mind

My mind is on THE WINTER STORY. Pretty Ironic considering I am currently about a mile from the sun.

It involves a bit of time travel for Spock who will have to meet an ancestor of Jim. I don’t want to get into too many details of the plot at this point but I think I can say that much.

Anyway, since my mind is on that story I have some pictures to share that inspire me.

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