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Flash Fic, July 07, 2023

This one is set during the regular holiday season and let me tell you, I could have completely made an entire holiday story out of this. I wanted to keep writing and writing on it. So, maybe you will see more come December! If you’d like to…maybe it was just me, intrigued by these two.

The holiday season was a bad time to be in the hospital. Not that there was ever a good time, of course, but for some reason this time of year seemed particularly sad when it happened.

Though Spock himself did not participate in any celebrations of that nature, his Earth born Mother had at times, and had on occasion mentioned to Spock over the years, “Aunt Ida is in the hospital! And during the holidays.”

Spock understood that Humans felt this way.

So when he had been advised that his friend, Nyota, had fallen down the stairs and suffered a broken leg and a concussion, he had made his way to the Starfleet Hospital where she was recuperating.

At the nurse’s desk he had been told she was in Room 22, so Spock made his way there.

The only occupant of the room was a young man in his early twenties with short-cropped sandy colored hair and bright blue eyes. He was vaguely familiar to Spock, but he couldn’t quite place him.

The young man looked up at him with a bright smile.

“Hey! Are you here to see me?”

“I believe I actually was given the wrong room number,” Spock explained.

The smile fell. “Oh.”

“Oh, Jim, you have a visitor! Your first one.” An older woman in a nurse uniform came bustling in. She greeted Spock warmly. “Who do we have here?”

“Spock,” he replied automatically.

“Spock. Well, what’s your relationship to Jim?” The nurse moved to the bed to tuck an already tucked blanket around the young men’s legs. “It’s all a mystery to us at this point.”

Spock stared at her blankly.

The young man, Jim, he assumed, made a distressed sound. “Mabel, he’s not here to see me.”

She straightened and turned. “You aren’t here to see Jim Kirk?”

Spock wasn’t entirely familiar with the name, though Kirk did sound a bit familiar, but Spock thought perhaps he’d seen him around the campus at Starfleet Academy.  

“He’s not,” Jim interrupted. “He got the wrong room.”

“Oh.” Her expression turned just as despondent as Jim’s did. “Oh. I’m sorry, Jim. I’m sure just as soon as others realize you’re here, you’ll have visitors.”

Spock couldn’t have said why but the entire situation distressed him. The young man looked ready to cry and his nurse was not helping at all. Spock saw no sign of any flowers, cards, or gifts.

There was something about Jim that Spock guessed he was missing.

Mabel gestured to the door. “Here, come over here and I’ll help you. Jim, I’ll be right back.”

Jim just nodded and looked away.

Spock reluctantly followed her to the door.

She sighed. “I’m sorry about that, sir. It’s just…we’ve been so hoping someone who knows Jim would come and see him. So far, no one. Part of a patient’s recovery is emotional stimulation and—”

“What happened to him?”

“An accident. He was thrown into the air and hit his head pretty badly. The only thing he could tell us was he went to the Academy. We found his name in some of his belongings. We’ve tried contacting the staff there and even family members we thought might have something to do with him, but no one has responded. We know it’s the holidays and maybe his family is away. The Academy’s on Winter Break, so they don’t have a lot of staff, but he hasn’t even had any friends to come by and help him remember. I was so hoping you…well, never mind. Who are you visiting, sir?”

“Nyota Uhura.”

“She’s in Room 42. She must be your girl.”

Spock opened his mouth to correct her, but decided not to bother as it really did not matter.

“Thank you.”

She went back into the room and he could hear the false cheer in her voice.

“Now, Jim, what special treat can I get for you?”

Spock exited and found Room 42 quickly enough. And as Mabel had said, Nyota was there sitting up and stabbing at her communicator like it made her mad.

“Spock! Thank God. Tell these people I’m perfectly fine to leave.”

He arched a brow. “Did you not break your leg?”

“Oh that. They’ve already mostly healed it. It just needs to rest for a week or so. I can do that at home.”

“Likely. How long do they wish for you to stay?”

“They won’t release me for two more days!”

Spock pulled up a chair. He noted she had flowers and balloons and even a stuffed bear. All of it made him ache for the stranger in Room 22.

“They know best, I am sure. Nyota, do you know a cadet named Jim Kirk?”

“Should I?”

“He is a patient here and attends the Academy.”

She snorted. “I don’t know every cadet at the Academy, Spock. If you don’t know him, why would I? We run in the same circles mostly. What’s he in for?”

“An accident where he hit his head. The nurse advised he seems to have some memory loss and, though they have contacted authorities to inform his friends and family, no one has come by the hospital.”

“That’s too bad. Poor guy. Now back to my problem.”

Spock frowned. “Your problem?”

“Getting out of here!”

But after Spock was able to free himself from his demanding friend, he found himself going back in the direction of Room 22.

As he approached he couldn’t hear any voices, so it appeared that the young man there was once again alone. Spock peered around the doorway.

Sure enough Jim Kirk was the only occupant of the room. He was staring down at a small cup of red gelatin, his spoon raised above it as though he couldn’t quite decide whether to try it.

Spock made a decision and stepped inside the room. “Hello.”

Jim’s gaze flew over to him. “Oh. Spock, right?”

“Yes, that is correct. May I approach?”

“Sure,” Jim replied, though he looked confused.

Spock didn’t entirely blame him. He couldn’t have said what drew him so strongly to this room and this man, but he was drawn, nonetheless.

He found a chair and gestured to it. “May I sit?”

Jim nodded. He had set the gelatin aside now.

“I do not wish to prevent you eating your dinner.”

This actually caused Jim to smile. “It’s not that exciting anyway. Right now I’m on some kind of liquid diet. That stuff is about as solid as I am allowed. Tomorrow I guess I get to switch to semi-solid.”

“What do you remember?”

“About myself or the accident?”

“Either or both, I suppose.”

Jim sighed. “Not really much of either. I was wearing one of those cadet uniforms, you know, for Starfleet. Mabel says I walked out into the street and this hover car hit me and threw me in the air. When I landed, I guess I hit my head on the asphalt. I’m lucky it didn’t crack my skull or damage my brain.” He paused. “Well, anymore than it already is, I mean. With the memory loss.”

“It’s not thought you walked out on purpose?”

Jim’s eyes widened. “Like suicide? Uh, no. Is there something you know I don’t?”

Spock shook his head. “No, no. To be honest, I had a cousin that did that exact thing and it the only reason I even thought of it.”

“I’m sorry about your cousin, but I don’t think that’s what I did. No one has suggested it and it…it just doesn’t feel like that to me.”

“The nurse said they have had trouble reaching your family.”

Jim smiled. “She sure is a chatty thing. But yes, that’s what they tell me. According to what they learned from Starfleet, my name is James Tiberius Kirk, son of George and Winona Kirk—”

“George Kirk,” Spock interrupted. “That is where I likely am familiar with the name.”

“Yup. Apparently he was famous for saving hundreds while dying himself.”

“But you don’t remember?”

“I don’t. I read about him when they told me. And I guess I’m from Riverside, Iowa. None of that is familiar to me.” He shrugged. “I guess I don’t have any friends or whatever here. I’ve had no visitors except you and you were a mistake.” Jim smiled ruefully. “The doc thinks it’s temporary though.”

“I do not know of any permanent amnesia cases,” Spock replied. “But I am sorry you are suffering from it even briefly. And I do find it difficult to believe you have no friends in San Francisco concerned for your welfare. You are an attractive and amiable individual.”

Jim’s smile widened. “Did you just call me cute?”

“Not in those exact words, however, I acknowledge that the descriptor applies.”

Jim laughed at that, and it was a sound that warmed Spock everywhere.

“Why, thank you,” Jim said. “But it is the holiday break, so I guess, it’s possible, if I do have any friends, they went home to their families?”

“Quite possible.” Spock stood and tried not to notice the disappointment in Jim’s eyes when he did. “I should be going. Jim, do you play chess?”

“Maybe?”

“If you would like, I will return tomorrow with a chess set and we can play.”

“Yeah? I’d love that.”

And Spock realized, he would too.

****

When Spock continued to come to the hospital to visit Jim long after Nyota had been discharged, he knew he was falling for the amnesiac cadet.

Every moment Spock spent with Jim he realized how charming, gorgeous, brave, funny, and intelligent he was. Spock still didn’t understand why Jim had no other visitors but him, but Spock decided he was very lucky to have the young man’s full attention.

“What did you bring me?” Jim asked when Spock came one afternoon carrying a drink container.

He had started to bring Jim little treats a few days earlier. A gingerbread cookie, caramel corn, a pumpkin scone. Jim’s blue eyes lit up every time and Spock found he wanted to please Jim like this all the time.

“An eggnog shake.”

“With real ice cream?”  

Spock arched a brow. “Is there any other kind?”

“No!” Jim eagerly reached for it, immediately taking a large sip from the fat straw. “Oh, gosh, I love you.”

And each time, Jim made that declaration, though it was over trivial things like this, it warmed Spock like nothing else. He feared becoming a sap. If his father and other Vulcans could see him now.

“So, they want to release me,” Jim said, after a few more sips of his shake.

“That is good, isn’t it?”

“Well, yeah. I just…”

“What is it you fear, ashaya?” The word was out of his mouth before Spock could stop it and he found himself hoping Jim wouldn’t catch the Vulcan endearment.

“What’s that word?”

He should have known.

“A Vulcan word.”

“I figured that much.”

“Let us focus on what bothers you about being released,” Spock said, trying to sidestep Jim’s query.

“I’d be going back to some strange dormitory I don’t even remember and staying there by myself because the winter break isn’t over yet.” Jim shrugged. “I guess they tell me I have a roommate named Leonard McCoy. A doctor, I guess. But I don’t really remember and he’s not there anyway I hear.”

“I see.”

“But I guess the memory thing takes time and all my physical injuries are healed, so there’s no reason for me to take up a bed. Only…”

“What, Jim?”

“I’ve loved being here every day that you’ve come to see me.” Jim was now picking at his blanket.

“I feel the same.”

Jim’s gaze rose. “Yeah?”

“Very much so. And,” Spock paused to take a long breath, “of you do not wish to stay alone in an unfamiliar place during the remainder of your recovery, you can stay with me, in my apartment.”

“You’d let me stay with you?”

“It is the only thing that makes sense and is acceptable,” Spock told him. “I can assist you until you get all your memories back. And Humans don’t like to be alone this time of year. Right?”

Jim smiled. “That is right.”

“And I can continue to spoil you…that is provide you with eggnog shakes and the like.”

“That sounds like heaven, Spock,” Jim whispered.

Spock cleared his throat. “Then it is settled. You will stay with me.”

He found himself moving closer and then, bravely touching his index and middle finger to Jim’s.

Jim’s bright blue eyes gazed at him. “Then maybe you can tell me what ashaya means.”

“Yes, perhaps I will.”

Flash Fic, July 05, 2023

There was sort of a request for a “melancholy” one and this one starts out a bit that way but soon the tides change!

Jim had been getting melancholy this time of year for a while now.

Well, in all honesty, ever since the Enterprise’s last mission. Which was, what, six years ago now.

They’d had a good run, all of them, and he kept in touch with a lot of his crew.

But every time July came around it reminded him of their absolutely ridiculous, silly Christmas in July celebrations. Which he’d initiated the first year. It had been so popular on the ship long after Jim probably would have ended it.

And the last one they’d had, before the end, had been when he’d shared his first and only kiss with his first officer. Under the mistletoe.

It had gone on far longer than it should have. Jim hadn’t been able to let go of Spock’s collar to let him end the kiss. It had taken Bones’ clearing his throat rather pointedly for Jim to finally let go, step back, and laugh with everyone else.

It didn’t get repeated or even talked about before the end. Before they all ended the mission and the last of the crew departed.

Spock for New Vulcan. With his wife, Nyota.

And Jim here to San Francisco, where he’d accepted a promotion to admiral.

And his own, rather ill-fated marriage to Helena. That was over now. Had been for a good two years. It did have one benefit, though, Jim could not regret, his beautiful three-year-old daughter, Jessica.

Jim also knew that Spock’s marriage to Uhura had ended too. Only two years in. He didn’t know all the details, but he’d heard that she had cheated on him.  In their long distant conversations, his here, and Spock’s from New Vulcan, his friend had never disclosed the particulars. Jim hadn’t pressed.

And though Jim kept in touch with Spock, he hadn’t seen him in person in six years.

Which was about to change.

He rose from behind his desk and went to the window looking down on the city. They were in the middle of a heat wave and it made it difficult to think of Christmas in any way. Even the July fake version.

Still, Jim was getting a gift.

“Admiral?”

He turned to hit the intercom on his desk. “Yes?”

“Ambassador Spock is here.”

For a moment, Jim thought of that other Ambassador Spock, long gone now, but still very much missed. But no, his Spock was an ambassador now.

“Send him in.”

Only a moment later, Spock stepped into Jim’s office, the door closing behind him. Spock’s gaze went to the strand of Christmas lights Jim had strung across his desk. His brow arched.

Jim laughed. “Yeah, I know what you’re going to say. Old habits is all.”

“You are looking very fit, Admiral.”

“Thank you. You too, Ambassador.” And here Jim’s smile softened. He stepped away from the window and approached Spock. “God, it’s good to see you. Is it okay if I hug you?”

“Indeed.”

And so, Jim did, throwing his arms around Spock and holding on for dear life. That familiar scent drifted over him, and he squeezed tighter.

Finally, he pulled back but not out of Spock’s arms.

“Not that I’m not absolutely thrilled to see you, but what brings you here, Spock?”

“You,” Spock replied. “More specifically I wanted to see you. I have spent the last few years on New Vulcan figuring out what I wanted for the remainder of my life.”

Jim gave him a quizzical look.   “And that involves me?”

“That is my hope.” Spock paused. “Admiral…Jim, do you think we could go somewhere far less official and more private?”

Jim’s heart rate increased but he tried to tamp down his excitement and hope. He’d been disappointed before and that kind of disappointment was soul killing. So he made himself say calmly, “Sure my apartment is only a block away. Let’s go.”

Jim couldn’t help but notice that Spock watched him carefully as they made the short trip from HQ to his apartment.

“What?” Jim finally asked as they entered the apartment building.

“It is simply remarkable that you haven’t seemed to age a day since I last saw you.”

He laughed. “Yeah, what two days ago? I haven’t.”

“I meant in person, of course.”

Jim nodded. “I know, I’m teasing. It’s the super blood, I guess. Bones threatens that I’m going to live forever.”

He hit the button to the lift that would take him to the seventh floor where his apartment was located.

Neither of them said anything else until Jim let them into his apartment.

“The place is a bit of a mess. I wasn’t…I haven’t been home in a couple of days so when I got word you were coming I didn’t think to hurry home to clean.”

Jim was embarrassed that he had clothes strewn about and dirty dishes in the sink. He was no housekeeper.

Spock was eyeing him. “You have not been home?”

“It’s not what you think. Well, what you probably think. I have a small room at HQ I make use of sometimes.” He shrugged.

“You work too much.”

“Likely. But Helena took Jessica with her to visit her family in Colorado so there wasn’t any particular reason to go home.” Jim smiled self-consciously. “I’m not seeing anyone and most of my friends don’t really live around here.”

“Then perhaps my reason for coming to see you will be more welcome than I had even anticipated and hoped for.”

“Want to sit?” Jim gestured to the sofa, after picking up a few things left there. “You want tea or  something?”

“Negative.” Spock moved to the sofa and sat. “Please join me.”

Jim was only mildly surprised when Spock held his hand toward Jim to come and take it to sit directly next to Spock. It wasn’t completely normal but on the other hand during the last years they’d seen each other they often spent time together in close proximity.

No doubt why Jim had always hoped…but no. Right after that kiss under the mistletoe, Spock had, once again, reconciled with Uhura after yet another break from their relationship. And Jim’s hopes had been dashed, he thought, for good.

But now he took Spock’s warm hand and allowed himself to be drawn down beside Spock.   

Spock let out a very long breath. “I have made a number of mistakes over the years, but the most impactful and regretful one was not coming to terms with my romantic feelings toward you.”

Jim blinked. “Did you just say romantic feelings?”

“Yes. I have been in love with you since…it is difficult to pinpoint the exact moment but I have loved you for the entirety of our service together and beyond.”

Eyes wide, Jim stated. “What?”

“There simply is no excuse for my inability to declare my deeper emotions and to maintain what I believed was the ‘safe’ relationship with Nyota. It did a disservice to both of you and ultimately my inability to commit to her emotionally led to the end of our marriage.”

“Spock—”

“No matter the outcome of my current declaration, whether you can ever forgive my cowardice and return my feelings, I can no longer pretend that my own behavior and thought process was quite abhorrent. I am most certainly responsible for your decision to enter into marriage with Helena, therefore further delaying my confession.”

Spock,” Jim said, far more firmly. He put his hand on Spock’s leg and squeezed. “Stop.”

“You do not wish to hear—”

“No. I don’t want to waste one more second of us.” Jim moved his lips next to Spock’s and kissed him thoroughly.

Jim.” Spock’s hand came up to cradle Jim’s head as he deepened their kiss.

When it broke, Jim grinned. “Guess what?”

Spock shook his head. “I am unable to guess or form any thought right now other than I love you.” Jim held up a twig of mistletoe. “Merry Christmas in July. Greatest present ever.”

July 03, 2023 Flash Fic

Here we go, folks, the first Christmas in July Flash. Enjoy!

Shore leave was not something Spock had ever cared about before he entered into a relationship with Jim.

Nyota had never pushed him into taking it with her and generally he hadn’t opted to take it, preferring to stay on the ship.

And even now he wouldn’t say Jim ‘pushed’ him into it.

He had just given Spock what Spock thought of as his “gentle” smile and said, “If you want to stay on the ship, it’s okay.”

Spock did not. He found that he wanted to experience everything Jim did and so he accompanied him.

They were currently on a rather tropical planet with an area designed to mimic Earth’s tropical islands like Hawaii and Tahiti.

By the beach was a bar and restaurant Jim wanted to try, so they were headed down there. But suddenly Jim stopped by the window of a souvenir shop.

He stared at something behind a glass enclosure. He’d gone just a bit paler than his normal shade and his lips pulled down in an almost frown. His breathing had become shallower too.

“Jim?”

Spock moved closer, both because he needed to be near Jim when Jim became anxious, whether for Jim or himself, he did not know, and because he wanted to see what had caught Jim’s gaze.

Spock found himself surprised by what Jim stared at. It was a statue of a pink flamingo wearing a Santa Claus hat. The body of the flamingo was covered in pink glitter and the hat was made of fabric. He had no idea what intrigued or bothered Jim about it.

Without looking at Spock, Jim exhaled. “I need to go inside there.”

He turned and opened the door to the shop and Spock quickly followed him inside.

Jim was already at the counter speaking to an older man. “I’d like to see the flamingo, please.”

Spock moved to stand beside Jim, as close as he possibly could without overcrowding him. Jim’s gaze moved up to Spock’s face, but he said nothing.

A minute later the man returned with the statue which he put in front of Jim.

Spock noticed Jim’s hand shaking as he reached out to touch the flamingo and look at the price tag. He drew his hand back and placed it on the counter and Spock put his hand over Jim’s. The tremor stopped and Jim’s lips curved upward slightly.

“I don’t have that many credit chips with me,” Jim said, regretfully.

Spock leaned in to check out the price for himself. “Box it up, please. I have the credits.”

The man moved away with the statue and Jim turned to him.

“You didn’t have to do that.”

“Yes, I did.”

Jim said nothing further as the man came back with the boxed flamingo in a shopping bag. Spock handed over the credits and they left the shop.

“Thank you,” Jim said so softly it was like a whisper on the wind.

They continued on to the restaurant without a word between them but when they were seated under an umbrella, tropical drinks ordered, and the shop’s bag on the table, Jim finally spoke.

“When I was just a kid, my grandmother, my mom’s mother, would visit us every summer. She’d get there in late June, stay with us through August, and then leave for her own home every year. She lived in Montana during the months not with us, with one of Mom’s brothers.”

“I did not know that,” Spock said carefully. He was uncertain where Jim was going with this, but he listened intently. Getting this much insight to Jim’s prior life was a rare gift he intended to treasure.

“This was all well before Mom brought Frank into our lives. She was seeing someone but he didn’t stay with us and it never seemed like it was going anywhere. Back then Mom seemed to stay home with us more. Anyway, every July, my grandmother would do this thing with the three of us, Mom, Sam, and me. Christmas in July.”

Jim smiled faintly as they were briefly interrupted by the arrival of their drinks. The waiter went away as they said they’d order food later.

“When I was four she bought me a stuffed flamingo with a Santa hat on it.” Jim laughed. “I loved it. I carried that thing everywhere with me for like two years. It ended up getting kind of dirty I carried it around so much. I stopped one day when Sam pointed out it was lame and I was too old for it. I didn’t get rid of it or anything. Just threw it in the closet.”

“Your brother—”

“I know.” Jim sighed and took a sip through the paper straw of his drink. “A few years later, when I was ten, my grandmother didn’t arrive when she was supposed to. Come to find out that she had stopped in downtown Riverside first before coming to our farmhouse where there was a bakery that sold cookies shaped like Santa wearing a bathing suit and carrying a surfboard. For Christmas in July. We all loved those cookies. As she was crossing the street, she was hit by a car.”

Spock blinked. He reached over and put his hand on Jim’s. He could feel Jim’s sorrow like a punch to the gut. Like it had happened only yesterday.

Jim blew out a very long breath, looked out to the planet’s ocean. “She didn’t make it. The guy was drunk and never saw her. He crashed the car after he hit her. I think that was one more death Mom couldn’t handle and that’s when she decided to marry Frank and change all our lives. I don’t know. It was awful. I put that stuffed flamingo with the Santa hat in her casket when she was buried.”

“I am sorry, ashaya.”

Jim looked at him. There was a bit of a sheen to his blue eyes but Spock didn’t think he was actually crying.

“So, when I saw that,” he stopped to gesture to the shop bag, “it brought it all back to me. And I wanted it, I guess, to remember her. Not that I could really forget.”

“I understand,” Spock told him. “When my mother was destroyed with Vulcan by Nero, there was nothing left of her except for the necklace I had already given to Nyota. And while she offered to return it to me on several occasions, I had always been taught one did not take back a gift freely given.” Spock paused, turned Jim’s hand so that their palms touched. He would never get tired of touching Jim, even in such small ways. “I have no other mementos of her, and logic dictates that as a Vulcan I should not want any, yet I wish sometimes I had even something as small as a teacup.”

Jim smiled that same gentle smile. “We’re a pair, aren’t we?”

“Indeed.”

“We have our memories in our hearts and those can’t be taken away. And I think the best way to honor both of them is to make many happy memories together for years to come.” Jim leaned forward and kissed Spock softly.

For a long time, they stayed that way, palm to palm, face to face. Building those memories.   

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