Search

Spirk (with a small dose of Pinto)

Fan Fiction and Personal Ramblings

Category

Uncategorized

Ramblings of the Week 09/26

I admit I saw this gif on tumblr and couldn’t resist adding it to my site. It’s pretty cool.

So I spent the last three days wining and dining in San Diego. It was beastly hot this weekend even though it is fall and I cannot wait for at least reasonable weather. I think it’s supposed to be reasonable beginning in October. I hope so!

I need to continue working on my old married Spirk story so I can have it ready for November. And I have told myself I will not begin writing THE WINTER STORY (notice all the caps there, which is what it’s known as until a title occurs) until the old married spirk story is finished.

I am also hoping to get some closure on a couple of other stories soon. I have too many WIPs going and soon I will want to write holiday stories. Anyway those are today’s and this week’s ramblings!

Where My Demons Hide, Chapter 5

It was hot here. Insufferably so, really. And Jim had another moment where he wondered if agreeing to a month long visit to New Vulcan had been wise. Because, certainly, it was not the first one.

He’d been there two weeks already and had two more to go until he could escape to somewhere cooler. He tugged at the collar of his shirt. He had never sweated so much.

From his research, Vulcan had actually been hotter than New Vulcan. Jim had never made it there before it got destroyed so he only had accounts from those like Sarek and Spock to tell him.

And that was unbearably sad anyway, wasn’t it? A whole planet gone. And six billion Vulcans with it. It was still something he would never get used to. Through Ambassador Spock he had felt the crushing grief of its loss. Sometimes it haunted him even still. Jim could only be grateful Spock had been on the Enterprise and had survived. He hated to think if that had not been the case. But he had Spock. So he didn’t have to add that to all that fucked him up inside.

He stepped to the edge of a rock formation and looked down into what looked like a crater likely caused by some ancient meteor crash or something. He wiped his arm across his forehead.

It was a big drop, no doubt about it. If he fell down there he wouldn’t get up again. He took another step forward. Heard the pebbles falling down the hill from where he stepped.

“Jim, you are too close to the edge of the cliff,” Spock spoke up from about three hundred feet away.

“Nah, I’m fine.”

A weird bird gave a cry from up above and Jim tilted his head back to gaze up at it. At least he guessed it was a bird. Birdlike anyway. It was no eagle or hawk but it certainly had a giant wingspan. Sort of looked like old drawings of dinosaur birds from really ancient Earth.

“You are too close,” Spock said again. “Please step back.”

Jim looked away from the bird and back down below the cliff. It was filled with red and brown rocks and boulders, like the rest of the planet. It had been chosen due to its similarities with Vulcan. Spock had explained all that. There were even a few native plants down below. Flowers. None of them were roses. Black roses.

Another step forward and suddenly the ground beneath him seemed to give way.

A hand encircled his upper arm and yanked him away from the edge with extreme force. He fell to the ground and looked up at Spock, who was glaring at him. And really glaring. Not just Vulcan glaring.

“I told you that you were too close to the edge.”

Jim laughed and shook his head, scrambling to his feet. “I was fine.”

“You were about to fall,” Spock pointed out in a clipped voice.

“I was not,” Jim insisted. He brushed at the dirt on his legs and shorts. “And anyway, if I fell, then whatever.”

Spock sucked in a breath and then stared wide-eyed at him.

Jim shrugged. “I wouldn’t have anyway. Don’t take everything so serious.”

“My mother fell from a cliff to her death when we tried to transport her aboard the Enterprise,” Spock said softly. “You will forgive me if I take the matter quite seriously.”

“Oh.” Shit. Jim, you’re such a moron sometimes. “I didn’t think about that. I’m sorry, Spock. I really am.” He grabbed Spock by his biceps and ran his hands up and down Spock’s arms. “You forgive me?”

“Of course. Just be careful around cliffs.”

“I will.” Jim said. “I promise.” He moved his hand up to cup Spock’s jaw. Kissed the corner of Spock’s mouth. He laughed when Spock pulled away. “There’s no one around here, Spock. No Vulcans to scandalize with my improper behavior.”

“You need another shot.”

“Talk about a non sequitur.”

“Your color is high and you are sweating profusely,” Spock pointed out. “Dr. McCoy will not be pleased if I allow you to collapse.”

Jim snorted and turned away to dig into his backpack. “You don’t allow me to do anything. No one is in charge of me but me.” He removed one of the hypos. “And I’m pretty sure that this isn’t going to make me any cooler. Jesus, Spock. It’s fucking hot here.”

Spock quirked a brow and took the hypo from Jim and injected it into his shoulder. “I find the temperature comfortable.”

“I know. Your favorite place on Earth is Death Valley.” Jim leaned over and panted. “I think I’ve lost twenty-five pounds just from sweating.”

“We can return to the house if you wish. It is likely time to feed you anyway.”

Jim rubbed his stomach. “It’s past time. I’m really hungry.”

Spock nodded. “We will return to our explorations tomorrow.”

“Can we get an earlier start? Maybe it will be just a slight bit cooler.”

“As you wish, Jim.”

Jim followed Spock as they hiked back the way they came. He took a canteen out of his backpack and took a drink. It wasn’t cold at all anymore. And he was half tempted to pour it over his head.

He hadn’t realized how far they’d actually come until they kept walking and walking. They’d been walking back at least an hour before he spotted Sarek’s house in the distance.

“You are all right, Captain?” Spock asked.

“Well. If you can call being physically exhausted, dirty, sweaty, smelly and hungry as a bear all right, then yes.”

“It is only a little farther now.”

“I’m pretty sure you told me that half an hour ago.”

When they finally reached Sarek’s house, Spock stopped him before they entered.

“I apologize that you are having a miserable time.”

Jim smiled. “I’m not having a miserable time, Spock. I’m with you, okay? It’s-it’s not exactly where I’d choose to take a vacation, it’s true.”

“Where would you choose?”

“Right now? A fucking igloo. With a blizzard.” Jim grinned and touched his fingers to Spock’s. “Now can we go inside where it’s at least a little cooler? I need a shower.”

They entered the house and Jim heaved a sigh of relief.

“I’m going to get that shower. And whatever we have to eat, please tell me it’s not soup.”

Jim laughed at the look Spock gave him and then headed down the hall to the room they’d been given. He stripped out of his shirt and shorts and went into the bathroom. He turned the water to cool.

“Sonic Schmonic,” he muttered and got under the spray of deliciousness. He closed his eyes and slid his hand down to his cock.

****

“Better?” Spock asked when Jim emerged a while later dressed in a tank top and shorts. He left his feet bare. Both Spock and Sarek were dressed in Vulcan robes.

Weirdos.

“Much. Hello, sir,” Jim greeted Sarek with a smile.

“Sarek, Jim. Remember? There is no need for such formality,” Sarek reminded Jim.

“What are we having?”

“Plomeek soup,” Sarek said, his expression blank.

“What?” Jim sked.

Sarek’s lips twitched. “That is what Spock and I will have. We have a refreshing salad of greens, tomatoes, and cucumbers for you.”

Jim grinned. “Thank God. Wait. Vulcan cucumbers or Terran ones?”

“Terran. I am aware of your distaste for the ones from here,” Sarek assured him. “You have made it quite obvious.”

Jim felt himself sort of blush but it was probably true. He had something of a big mouth when it came to what he liked to eat and did not like to eat. He smiled when Spock handed him iced tea just as his PADD beeped that he had a message.

He went to where he’d left it by the sofa in the living room.

He picked it up and read.

Hello Darling. I’ll be seeing you…soon.

The Perfect Partner, Conclusion

Seems I managed to finish this after all. 

“Got all your supplies, Bones?” Jim asked, coming up behind his friend as he conducted inventory.

“Looks like they’re here.” Bones straightened from his squat. “You going back to the ship?”

Jim turned his head to view the beaches in the distance. He’d allowed some of the crew to have a few hours shore leave on Tambian 3. They couldn’t afford the time for a lengthy leave but twelve hours was better than nothing.

“I think I’m going to hit the beach for a bit.”

Bones studied him. “Want company?”

Jim hesitated. He didn’t want to hurt Bones’ feeling but he wanted to be alone to think. “Next time,” he told his friend. “I think I need some solitude.”

Bones nodded. “All right then.”

He was grateful Bones didn’t say he could get solitude on the Enterprise. Besides Jim wasn’t even sure that was true.

“Thanks, Bones.”

“And what do I do if Spock asks where you are? Tell him I don’t know?”

Jim shook his head. “No, you can tell Spock. No one else though.”

His friend smirked. “You want to be alone unless it involves Spock.”

“Bones—”

“Save it, Jim. You’ve been hung up on that Vulcan since he stood up, tugged down his uniform and walked up to the podium to accuse you of cheating.”

Jim laughed. “Well…maybe not that long.”

“Yes that long.”

Jim smiled. “See you soon?”

“Yeah, go on. Get out of here. Captain.”

It took about half an hour to make it down to the beach from his location. There wasn’t anyone around this particular section of the beach for which Jim was happy. The planet’s sun was already going down and there was a slight chill to the air but Jim didn’t mind.

He took off his boots and socks, he hated socks, but the boots were uncomfortable without them, and rolled up his pants to the knee so he could go wade in the cold ocean water.

He stood there, staring down at the water rushing his feet and the sand between his toes for he didn’t even know how long.

After a while, he turned his head and couldn’t miss the Vulcan coming down the beach toward him. Jim smiled. He should have known Spock would show up. Bones knew it too.

“Captain?”

“Hi Spock.”

Jim was torn between making Spock come to him and not making Spock traipse through the water. He was pretty sure Spock wouldn’t want to get his boots wet and there was almost no chance he’d take them off to wade.

Finally Jim walked over to where Spock stood, safely away from the water.

“You are unwell?”

“Nah. I’m fine. Just thinking.”

Spock’s gaze went over his head for a moment out to the sea, then it returned to Jim’s face. “If I made you uncomfortable with our earlier activities, I apologize.”

“What…the daddy stuff?”

Spock’s cheeks were dusted slightly green.

“Spock, I don’t care if we fuck while dressed up as a ballerina. It’s all good as far as I’m concerned.”

Spock’s brows furrowed. “Would that be you dressed as a ballerina or me?”

Jim smiled. “Whichever. The point is, sex with you, whatever form it takes, is at the top of my list of really fantastic things.”

“You have a list?”

“Totally.”

Spock was silent for a moment and Jim could practically see the wheels turning in his head. “You are pensive. Is there something else I have done to cause you dismay?”

“No.”

Spock exhaled slowly. “There is something, Jim. I feel your distance when we touch.”

Jim blinked at him in surprise. “With what we just did, you think I’m distant?”

“Not there,” Spock said softly. His hand went to cover Jim’s heart. “Here.”

“Spock,” Jim whispered. “You know I love you, right?”

Spock actually trembled. “I suspected the possibility existed but it is nice to hear confirmation.”

“Can I tell you something?”

“Anything.”

“Here’s what I would want in a perfect partner. I’d want a telepath because it’s completely amazing to be so attuned to someone. I’d want him to be fully human, because then he’d completely understand me and my emotions. I’d want him to be completely gorgeous with soulful dark eyes. I’d want him to love me with all that he is. And I’d want him to agree with me 100% of the time. There’d never be disagreements or misunderstandings or confusion. Because he knew I was always right.”

Spock did not respond immediately and Jim could see that he was processing the things Jim had said.

“Jim.”

“Spock?”

“Of the five things you have mentioned, as I understand them, only three of those apply to me.”

Jim covered the hand that still rested on Jim’s chest with his own. “That’s right. You’re a telepath and you’re completely gorgeous with soulful dark eyes.”

“And I love you with all that I am,” Spock whispered.

Jim had to kiss him after that, leaning in to kiss those totally kissable lips.

“But then I am not the perfect partner for you.”

“Actually, yes, you are.”

“But I am not human nor do I agree with you all the time and in fact there are many times your emotions confuse me.”

“But see, Spock, I don’t really want perfect. I actually love the fact that I confuse you and you can’t figure me out sometimes and it frustrates you. Sure there are times when I wish you gave into your human side more often, but I think your Vulcan side is pretty fucking fantastic and I adore the fuck out of it and you. I can’t imagine anything more boring than someone who always agrees with me and thinks I’m right all the time. Hell, on the surface it sounds great, but the actual execution of it would be beyond freaky. You challenge me in ways no one else does or ever could.”

Spock’s other hand now came up to wrap around Jim’s waist and pull him very close.

“You aren’t perfect, Spock, except you are perfect for me. See?”

“This is because of what I said to you during my compromise under the effects of the pollen, is it not?’

Jim nodded. “It’s what got me thinking about it.”

“Ashayam, I do not wish you to be anything other than what you are.”

“I know,” Jim assured him with a smile. “It’s just…I’ve spent a lifetime trying to be what others want me to be.”

“I am fairly certain you cannot alter yourself to become pregnant or Vulcan.”

“Any more than you can become more human,” Jim agreed. “I love you. And I’m sorry I haven’t said it before. I’ve felt it for a long time.”

Spock’s hand moved from Jim’s chest up to cup Jim’s jaw. “You are my heart. My soul. I would do anything for you. All things. I would die for you. I would kill for you. All for you. And I regret that I ever gave you reason to doubt that you are utterly perfect in my eyes.”

Jim’s eyes got misty. “There go those illogical, confusing emotions on full display.”

“Indeed,” Spock murmured. “We still have some time before we have to leave orbit of Tambian 3.”

“We sure do.” Jim pulled away but then grabbed Spock’s hand. “Come on.”

“Jim? Where are we going?”

“To the water.”

“The water? It is cold and wet.”

“Why, yes, Spock. Yes it is.” He grinned. “You could take off your boots.”

“Then my feet would get colder and wetter.”

“Indeed.” Jim arched a brow like he had seen Spock do so many times. “Come on, Babe. Live a little.”

Spock replied with a long suffering sigh, but he bent down to remove his boots and then his socks. “Very well.”

“Very well…Captain.”

Spock yanked him forward for a kiss. “Very well, Captain.”

 

The Perfect Partner, Chapter 2

Warning: This chapter contains explicit same-sex “Daddy Kink” Dom/sub sex

“You look quite pleasing like this.”

“Do you think so?”

Spock’s grasped his shoulders and moved him to stand in front of the mirror.

Jim stared at himself. At the dark brown hair cut in the traditional bowl cut they seemed so fond of. His ears were pointed, even more so than Spock’s were, but then of course they would be. As he was fully Vulcan. And the eyes. Instead of blue eyes, brown eyes stared back at him under slanty brows.

“I must admit,” Jim said softly, “I look fascinating.”

“Indeed,” Spock murmured. “Purging all that was human in you was definitely the right thing to do.”

Purging the human.

“When the child is born,” Spock continued, his hands moving to Jim’s swollen stomach, “he will be three quarters Vulcan and we cannot allow that.”

“We cannot?”

“No. We must purge the quarter of him that is human.”

“Yes,” Jim agreed with a nod. “It is only logical.”

He turned toward Spock.

“What of you? When will you purge your human half?”

“I am to undergo the purging today. My appointment in the chamber is in ten minutes.”

“Ten minutes, Spock? You must endeavor to be more accurate. It is ten minutes, fourteen seconds.”

Spock bowed his head. “You are correct. This is proof that I must purge my inferior side the sooner the better.”

 

Jim woke up shouting, “Don’t! No! Don’t go into the chamber!”

“Jim.”

His eyes wide, Jim stared at Spock, who was sitting on the edge of his bed and had his hands on Jim’s chest.

“Spock?”

“Yes. You were dreaming. You must calm down.”

“You-you didn’t go into the chamber?”

Spock’s brows furrowed. “I do not know of what you speak.”

“My eyes. What do they look like? Spock, what do they look like?”

“Your heart rate is very fast. If you do not calm yourself I will be forced to call the doctor.”

Jim exhaled. His breath came out choppy. Spock’s hands were still on his chest. Not holding him down exactly but definitely holding him in place.

Spock said nothing, just watched Jim as he tried to get his breathing back to normal. He put his hand up to his ear and felt roundness.

“Are my eyes blue?”

“Remarkably so.”

Jim laughed a little. “O-Okay.”

Then he placed his hand on his flat stomach and felt further relieved. Now that was one hell of a bad dream.

“How long have you been here?” he asked Spock when he could form a coherent thought.

“I have been working at your desk for several hours,” Spock replied. “You were sleeping and I did not wish to disturb you, but there were additional tasks I had to see to.”

Jim nodded and licked his dry lips. He was further surprised when Spock reached over to the table next to his bed and retrieved a glass of water, which he handed to Jim.

“Thanks.”

“Drink all of it,” Spock told him. “You have a tendency toward dehydration.”

Jim frowned but took a large swallow of the water. “Taking that a bit far, aren’t you?”

“To what do you refer?”

“You know. The, uh, the daddy thing.”

Spock arched an impervious brow. “I do not.”

“Do not what?”

“Think I am taking it too far. I was correct when I said you need a daddy.”

Jim felt his face heat. “That’s way hotter than it should be. Does that make me twisted? It totally does, doesn’t it?”

“You are babbling, Drink.”

Jim took another drink but was sort of irritated that he did. “I thought you might be embarrassed.”

“By?”

“Saying you were my daddy.”

“Why would I be?” Spock gestured for him to take another drink. “What we choose to participate in the privacy of our quarters is no one’s business but our own.”

“So you weren’t avoiding me?”

“I had work to do, Jim. The duties of your science officer and first officer are quite extensive.”

“Are you overworked?”

“Hardly.”

Jim finished the water and handed over the empty glass when Spock reached for it. “I didn’t know Vulcans had kinks.”

“Kinks?”

“Yeah. The daddy thing. It’s a kink.”

Spock tilted his head. “Is it?”

“Oh yeah. So if you continue to insist you are, um, –”

“Your daddy.”

“That.” Jim’s cock rose painfully hard in his sleep shorts. Apparently Spock wasn’t the only one with the daddy kink. “It makes you kinky.”

Spock’s gaze went to the bulge in Jim’s pants. “You like it when I am your daddy.”

“Oh, shit. Why is it so fucking hot when you say that word?”

Spock’s lips quirked in a tiny show of amusement. He moved his hand to between Jim’s legs and squeezed Jim’s crotch. “Shall I tell you what to do as your daddy?”

Jim was pretty sure his brain just completely shorted out in favor of all things being concentrated in his aching cock.

“Yes,” he whispered.

“Yes, what?”

His eyes widened and his lungs seized. “Yes, daddy.”

“Remove your shirt and then lie on your back,” Spock ordered.

Jim scrambled to obey and then paused briefly to wonder what that said about him. Spock’s eyes narrowed at him and considering he had his hand on Jim’s leg, Jim suspected the telepath was getting some of his thoughts.

Jim licked his lips and waited for what Spock would do or say next.

Spock’s fingers went into the waistband of Jim’s shorts. Jim was now shaking with need, his stupid dream now long forgotten, and his need to be dominated by his Vulcan overcoming all else.

“Spock, please.”

The shorts were ripped in half and tossed aside, exposing Jim’s leaking cock to Spock’s dark gaze. Jim swore his eyes rolled back into his head.

Spock undid the fasteners of his pants and pulled out his own hard cock, which was slick with the Vulcan’s lubricant.

“Stroke me,” Spock ordered, his voice sounding harsh in the quiet room.

Jim closed his fingers around the double-ridged masterpiece and began sliding his fist along the length. During the week and a half he and Spock had been “experimenting” sexually—Jim’s words, not Spock’s—Spock had always closed his eyes whenever Jim touched him so intimately. But not this time. Those molten chocolate eyes were fixated on Jim in such a show of commanding dominance, the submissive in Jim lowered his gaze.

“Look at me.”

Unable to resist the command, Jim looked at Spock, though still kept his own gaze pure submission.

“You are so beautiful,” Spock said.

He flushed at the compliment. He curled his fist tighter around Spock’s dick which earned him a growl.

“Cease!”

“But—”

“Do not speak.”

Jim closed his mouth. His pulse raced, his heart hammered in his chest. He desperately wanted to stroke his own cock, but he didn’t dare.

“Spread your cheeks for me.”

Jim made a mewling sound before he could stop himself but Spock just arched a brow, obviously waiting for Jim to obey.

Jim slid his hands down to his own ass and grasped each cheek. He spread them apart, exposing his hole to Spock’s gaze.

And that gaze zeroed in. Dark and intense. Jim was shaking.

“Wet your finger and stick in in yourself,” came the next order.

Sucking in a breath, Jim moved a hand to his mouth and thoroughly soaked his fingers with his own saliva. Then he moved it back to his ass and slowly stuck his index finger into his puckered hole. He let out a low moan,

“Deeper.”

Jim bit his lip against the sting but pushed it in further up his ass.

“Add another.”

Jim swallowed heavily but stuck in a second finger. “Can-Can we please?”

“Can we please what?”

“I want you to-to fuck me.”

For a moment, Spock just stared at him. Then he reached over and pulled Jim’s fingers out. He hadn’t bothered to remove his clothes, so it was just Spock’s dick sticking out from his pants and somehow that was dirtier still

“Who am I?” Spock asked, as he took his excruciatingly slow time pushing into Jim.

“Spock.”

“Wrong answer.” He slapped Jim’s thigh. “Who am I?”

His mouth so dry, he felt like he couldn’t get any saliva at all, Jim groaned out, “My-my daddy.”

“Yes, your daddy.”

Spock thrust in fully, deeply, his fingers digging into Jim as he yanked Jim’s ass off the bed to be flush against him.

“Can I-Can I—?”

“Yes,” Spock ground out.

Jim’s hand grasped his leaking cock, desperately pumping himself, as he felt Spock pound his ass. If the bed survived intact, Jim would be surprised.

“Jim!” Spock shouted, pouring into him as Jim’s ass muscles clenched around him.

“God, oh, God,” Jim gasped over and over as he splurted out all over himself and the bed, Spock still moving within him. His vision went out for a few seconds and then Spock was withdrawing and petting his head. He collapsed in a heap.

A little while later, he felt a cool damp cloth being run over his body.

“Spock?”

“Who else?”

He heard the amusement in Spock’s voice. It was a subtle thing. Most didn’t know when Spock was amused. Jim always did though.

“You don’t have to do that,” Jim said softly. “I can get in the shower.”

“Negative.”

“No?”

“You will stay in bed and rest. When I have deemed your rest sufficient, then you can rise, eat something, and shower. We will make orbit for Tambian 3 in three hours.”

Jim grimaced but he didn’t move. “I’m still the captain.” He paused. “Daddy.”

That earned him a stinging slap to his bare buttocks.

Jim refrained from saying ‘ouch’ only because that would satisfy Spock.

“Spock?”

“Yes, Captain?”

“Would you-Would you rather I was a-a woman?” He buried his flaming hot face in the pillow.

Spock paused in his wipe down of Jim’s back. “No.”

Jim relaxed a little.

“Now be silent.”

All right. Perhaps he could give up command in his quarters. Sometimes anyway.

The Perfect Partner, Chapter 1

Okay I got a little more written on this so I figure I will finish it.

The Perfect Partner

“Jim.”

“Jim.”

“Jim.”

“What?!” Jim scowled at Bones who had just shaken him so hard his teeth were still rattling. “What the fuck?”

“What the fuck indeed. I’ve been talking to you for five damn minutes about my needed medical supplies. Are you in there?”

Jim looked away from Bones and down into his coffee cup. After a few seconds he looked back up. “We’ll make Tambian 3 in fourteen hours. They’re waiting with your supplies.”

Bones nudged him. “What’s got you rattled?”

“Do you think I’d make a good Vulcan?” Jim blurted out.

“What? No. Why would you even ask that?”

“No?” Jim lowered his gaze again. “Why not?”

“Because you actually have feelings and a heart. A great big one. What the hell anyway?”

Jim shrugged. “You know how Spock was sprayed by that pollen and became more human for like, I don’t know, ten hours?”

“Uh-huh.”

“He got pretty emotional during that time. Affectionate too.”

Bones snorted. “If this is one of your sex with Spock stories spare me.”

“No, it’s not.” Jim’s gaze rose. “He said some stuff.”

“Like what?”

Jim licked his lips and then took a sip of his coffee. “Nah, it’s nothing.”

“It’s not nothing. What he say? Do I need to challenge him to a duel over your honor or something?”

“Just that he wished I was Vulcan.”

Bones stared at him for a good thirty seconds saying nothing. “Did he say why?”

“Yeah. But there’s more.”

“What more?”

“I think he wants me to be a woman, too.”

Bones actually choked. “Come again?”

“He said he wished I could have babies.” Jim sighed and looked away. “If I was Vulcan and could have babies then I’d be his perfect partner.”

“He said that?”

“Yeah. Something about already being his perfect lover. But if I was Vulcan and could have babies he could contribute to the building of the Vulcan species and still get to keep me and all the elders would approve.”

Bones didn’t speak for probably two minutes. “What did you say?”

“’Oh, yeah, ha ha, wouldn’t that be great?’ And that was the end of it.”

“So why isn’t it the end of it now?”

“Because he wants me to be a Vulcan woman!”

Bones stirred sugar into his coffee. “Far be it from me to defend Spock, but I don’t think he meant anything bad by it. Probably in his screwed by pollen mind what he said seemed perfectly logical.”

“Hmm.”

“This thing between you and Spock is pretty darn new. What, was it like only two weeks since you declared undying love for each other? You’re both still navigating it.”

“One and a half. And we didn’t.”

“Didn’t what?”

“Jesus, Bones. We didn’t declare undying love for each other. Or any other kind.”

“But you do, right? Love Spock. Come on, Jim. It’s so obvious.”

Jim made a face. “Maybe I do and maybe I don’t. But well what am I supposed to do with this information?”

“What?”

Jim sighed. “That I’m not the partner Spock really wants.”

“He didn’t say that, Jim.”

“Practically. I won’t be perfect unless I’m Vulcan and can pop out babies.” Jim deflated. “And I can’t do either of those.”

“On that we are agreed.”

“Should I just let him go?”

“Let him go?”

“Yeah. You know. Just tell him to go to Vulcan and get with a Vulcan woman and do what he needs to do. Or what he wants to do.” Jim bit his lip. “That’s why they broke up.”

“I know. He told me.”

“I don’t want to be selfish. Or much anyway.”

“I’m telling you he was compromised by that pollen.”

“Or because it caused him to be more human, he voiced his true feelings.”

Bones shook his head and closed his eyes. “Why don’t you ask him?”

“He’s been sort of avoiding me.”

“Avoiding you?”

Jim nodded. “Ever since he went back to his logical self. Um. He got a little wild and I think maybe he’s embarrassed.”

“I told you no sex with Spock stories.”

“This is just a teensy one. He told me I needed a daddy and he was my daddy.”

“Oh shut the fuck up, will you? How am I supposed to unhear that?”

Jim laughed. “You asked.”

“I did like hell.” Bones stood up and pushed away from the table. “And go to sleep. You look terrible.”

The smile slipped from Jim’s face and he stared into his coffee cup once more.

Since No One is Reading This Anyway

So in my quest to see just about everything CP is in, last night I finally got around to watching Smokin’ Aces. This is something he did somewhere around 2006 before anyone really knew who he was. I actually still know people who don’t know who he is. But I digress.

He doesn’t have a large part really. He plays one of three brothers who along with several other groups of people are out to assassinate a guy connected to the mob who the FBI want to protect.

There were tons of celebs in this movie. Ben Affleck, Ray Liotta, Ryan Reynalds, Andy Garcia, Alicia Keyes, Common, and several others.

Anyway, the long and the short of it was that I would call in a good movie even though it was really violent, as mob movies often are. It’s not one I have to have for my CP collection (and yes I have a CP collection) but it was a decent if violent movie.

On the plus side even though they dressed him up to look like a psycho, his beauty shined through! HA

The Exchange Student

The Exchange Student is finished!

My teenaged Spirk story.

Read it here: The Exchange Student

 

 

Where My Demons Hide, Chapter 4

star-trek-beyond-trailer-2-captain-kirk-chris-pine-and-bones-karl-urban-drink

“Are you sure about this, Jim?”

“Well.” Jim shrugged as he bent down to check his luggage. “Spock wants to.”

“That’s it? Spock wants you to.”

“Good of reason as any.” Jim tried a smile.

“Jim—”

“Bones, it’s fine.”

“Your mental state—”

“Is fine.” Jim squeezed Bones’ arm. “I swear, Bones. It’s all good.”

Spock suddenly appeared at his side in the shuttle bay. “Is there a problem, Captain?”

He had to smile at the softly spoken ‘captain’. A genuine smile. He figured he would never break Spock of the habit of calling him by his title and for some reason it was more endearing than it should be.

“No problem. Bones was just saying goodbye.”

Spock turned to Bones. “Doctor, I trust you will have a restful time while we are on New Vulcan.”

“Yeah, restful,” Bones muttered. “You got all the hypos I’m sending with you?”

“Yep.”

“Sunscreen?”

“Yep.”

He eyed Spock. “And you have all the hypos I’m sending with you in case he loses the ones I’m sending with him?”

“Hey,” Jim protested. “I totally won’t.”

“Yes, doctor. I have everything. He will not come to harm.”

Bones seemed unconvinced judging by his grimace, but he pulled Jim into a quick embrace. Jim patted his back gently and then pulled away.

“I’ll let you know when I’m there.”

“You’d better.”

Jim turned to go up the ramp for the shuttle.

“Spock, you have a minute?” Bones asked.

Jim stopped. He frowned as he turned around.

Bones waved at him. “It’s nothing, Jim. Just need a moment with Spock.”

Jim didn’t like it but there wasn’t much he could do about it. So he sighed and turned to go into the shuttle.

 

Spock noticed the grim lines around Jim’s mouth as they made their way to his father’s house which would be their home for the next month. He had been talking animatedly the entire way from Earth to New Vulcan, but he’d grown quiet ever since they landed and went through a bit of New Vulcan on their way to Sarek’s.

“My father could not be here for our arrival but will come later to have dinner with us,” Spock explained. He used the code his father had given him to access the house.

Once inside the home, Spock said, “My father is aware of our change in status and had assumed we would share a room, however, if you would prefer separate accommodations, I am certain that can be arranged.

Jim smiled faintly. “Sharing with you is fine, Spock. In fact, it’s preferable.”

Spock nodded and led Jim toward the room his father had advised would be theirs for the duration of their stay. It was a simple room with a bed big enough for both of them, a closet to hang their clothes and a dresser for anything they might want to place in drawers. There was a single window, facing away from the sun.

“This is nice.”

“It was…”

Jim cocked his head. “What?”

“This was the room Ambassador Spock occupied while staying on New Vulcan,” Spock said quietly.

Jim came to where Spock stood in the middle of the room. He placed his hands on Spock’s biceps. “I’m sorry. We can request another place to stay, maybe?”

Spock shook his head. “My father would think that illogical. It is only a room and does not contain his presence.”

Jim moved one of his hands to Spock’s jaw. “I guess I really didn’t think how much this affected you. I’ve been in my own little world.”

Spock leaned into Jim’s touch. “My concern has been with you.”

“Me?” Jim gave him a quizzical look. “Why?”

“You are melancholy.”

“Despite what everyone thinks I’m really not some sort of laughing doofus.”

“I never imagined such a thing.”

Jim sighed. “I know. The point is, I would like to think I’ve matured a bit and I can be serious.”

“Not too serious, I hope.” Spock gazed into his eyes. “The loss of Mr. Chekov weighs heavily on you.”

“On everyone.” Jim shook his head. “What did Bones want?”

“To charge me with your care.”

“My care? Jesus. I actually can take care of myself you know. I don’t need a nursemaid.”

“No. However, is it so terrible to have those around you wish to ensure your safety and welfare?”

Jim’s mouth thinned. “When put like that you make me sound like an asshole.”

“Never that. Dr. McCoy’s concern for you is admirable and appreciated.”

Jim pushed closer into Spock’s personal space. Spock found he did not mind. “Did you want to ask your dad about moving rooms?”

“Negative. It is only for our stay and I am certain my father thought it was the best choice for us.” Spock slid his arms around Jim’s waist. “You are tense. What is bothering you?”

Jim shook his head and was already opening his mouth in denial.

“Jim.”

“It’s just…they really do need so much help here. I’m—it’s selfish of me to want you to stay with me and I know it.”

“Perhaps,” Spock acknowledged quietly. “But I find that I want you to be selfish.”

“Spock—”

“I will do what I can from the Enterprise. My place is by your side.” Spock turned Jim around so that his back was to Spock. He put his hands on Jim’s shoulders and began to massage the muscles there.

“Mm. That feels great.”

“I am glad you approve.”

“I do.” Jim sighed softly. And before Spock could stop him, Jim stepped away and gently pushed Spock to sit on the edge of the bed. “Let me show you.”

“Jim—”

“Shh. It’ll feel good, I promise.” Jim knelt on the bed behind Spock and he began to attack Spock’s own tense muscles with rigor. “Feels good, huh?”

“Yes,” Spock agreed. “But it was my intention to massage you.”

“You can do that another time,” Jim said easily. “Right now I want you to feel good.”

It was on the very edge of Spock’s mind that there was something not quite right about all of this, but Jim’s hands on his neck, shoulders, and back felt so good, Spock closed his eyes and let the relaxed feeling push away any negative thoughts.

Spock did not know how long Jim continued to massage him but eventually he became aware he was laying on his back on the mattress and Jim was undoing his trousers.

“Jim?”

“It’s all right. I’m just here to give you pleasure,” Jim assured him as Spock felt Jim’s callused fingers pull his cock and balls out from his pants.

Spock jolted in shock when Jim’s hot mouth encircled the tip of his penis. The sensation was unlike anything he had ever felt before. His sexual life with Nyota had been satisfactory but not altogether inspiring. As Jim deep-throated him, Spock could not stop a keening cry from escaping his lips. Then he yelped, there was no other logical word for it, when he felt Jim’s slicked finger push inside Spock’s hole as he continued to expertly suck Spock’s erection.

“Jim,” he gasped, clutching at Jim’s head desperately as his whole body seemed alight with tiny shocks of electricity. His fingers threaded into Jim’s beautiful hair as his hips seemed to rise up of their own free will, pushing himself further within Jim’s talented mouth.

The finger pushed further and Jim swallowed around Spock and he was lost. He knew he shouted, Vulcan words of ancient origin, as he came, filling his captain’s mouth. He had a moment of gratitude that his father was not home for Spock knew he could not have been quiet.

Jim released him with a sort of slippery sounding pop and his finger eased out of Spock’s entrance with an astounding gentleness. Spock could only look upon Jim with wonder.

Jim smiled. “I’d better clean up.”

“Wait.”

“For what?”

Spock blinked, taking a moment to catch his breath. “I-I wish to reciprocate.”

“Oh.” Jim shook his head but he was grinning. “No worries. Your dad will be home soon, right?”

“Yes,” Spock replied reluctantly.

“I don’t want to be in the middle of anything.”

“I am certain there is time.”

“No way. I don’t want to come out of the room and greet him just after having sex. What an impression.” Jim smirked. “It’s fine.” He slipped into the bathroom off the bedroom.

Spock sat up and adjusted his own clothing. He would have to clean up as well.

But the alarm he felt over Jim’s behavior had increased tenfold. Clearly Spock was inadequate to fulfill Jim’s need

Snowy Pictures Again

Found some more snowy pictures

25kirk_on_delta_vegaimages-2tumblr_n348m30jf01rjpiiso1_250

 

Blog at WordPress.com.

Up ↑