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End of the Weekish Ramblings

I can happily report that When I Fall in Love has been concluded. Yay!

Also today I reserved my first overnight in Morro Bay. Anyone who knows me, knows I can never wait long to get back to my favorite place. So, with that in mind I have booked Saturday, February 24th. As long as it doesn’t rain, the plan is on.

I think next up for me is to work on a second chapter for A Surprise.  Then I will move on to two more stories desperately in need of updating.

For now, tomorrow, look for a Pinto flash fic.

See ya around the block.

Ramblings of the Week, January 01, 2018

MB

Well my friends, 2017 is behind us. Will we  all survive 2018? That remains to be seen or experienced.

I can’t say 2017 was all bad for me. But I started 2017 sick and ended it sick. That pretty much sucked.

But I did get to go to Morro Bay twice. I saw Yellowstone. And I had my mother around for another year. I kept my job. N. Korea hasn’t blown us up yet. All good things.

I wrote and started many stories. And some I even finished! LOL.

In just a few weeks, I will be on my Caribbean Cruise 2018. The last one we went on was in 2014 or 2015. I forget which. I thought it was 2015 but M thinks it was 2014. Anyway, a while ago and I anticipate not going on another one for the foreseeable future.

I anticipate having a nice time, anyway.

This year I resolve to get healthier. Actually use that exercise bike we bought. And try to be financially healthier too.

I also resolve to finish all the stories I have already started. When? Well, 2018 just began so we will see!

Next up for me is I want to conclude my Cinderella Spirk story before I go any further with anything else. So look for the conclusion of When I Fall in Love.

I want to be able to begin posting the Winter Story soon. I think I may call it “Frostbite” but we shall see.

My friend, AO, has requested my flash fic for Friday, January 05 to be Pinto related. We shall see if I can do it.

This coming Saturday, January 06, I will be undecorating my family’s house. Hopefully we will have the energy.

Happy New Year Spock

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Enjoy a re-post

“Well?”

Bones lowered his tricorder. “You’re physically exhausted. Mentally too for that matter.”

Jim sighed. “Tell me something I don’t know.”

“That zap you got down on the planet didn’t do any permanent damage, but I’d say it has contributed to the exhaustion.” Bones grimaced. “I’m confining you to quarters, Jim.”

Jim got up from the edge of the bed and pulled his black undershirt back on over his head. “The New Year’s Eve party is tonight.”

“I don’t care. Right now, I want you to lie down and take a nap. When you wake up, I want you to order baked chicken and steamed vegetables. You can do reports, but no parties, no bridge. Stay here.”

“The crew will be disappointed.”

“I’ll tell them it was my orders. You spent Christmas with them. They’ll get over it.”

Jim yawned and then smiled. “I think I’m too tired to argue with you.”

“For once. That tells me how bad off you are if you aren’t bitching at me.” Bones pushed him down on the bed. “Sleep. I’ll check on you in the morning.”

“Thanks, Bones.”

“Yeah, yeah.”

****

Spock had learned from Dr. McCoy that his captain would not be at the New Year’s Eve gathering. As first officer it should have fallen on him to take his captain’s place but Spock had no desire to spend the evening in mindless revelry celebrating the beginning of a new year that seemed little changed from the year before. Especially without his captain there.

So, he had left the duty of attending the party to Nyota, Mr. Scott, Dr. McCoy and the others. No doubt they would have a more enjoyable time without Spock’s watchful eye anyway. Nyota had mentioned more than once he tended to show his disapproval to the crew without realizing it. He intended to check on the welfare of the captain instead of attending the party.

Spock had not been on the landing party earlier that day when the captain had, but Spock had learned he had been given a shock when he had touched an obelisk and been thrown to the ground. He had requested to be in the landing party as he had noticed the last six missions Jim had returned with some sort of injury. Fortunately only one of them had been serious. Spock could still picture the blood that had been smeared all over his captain as they had beamed back aboard the Enterprise. Due to the captain’s ability to find trouble wherever he went, Spock had wished to be there in the hopes of preventing it. Jim had just stared at him with those blue eyes of his, cool and commanding, and denied Spock’s request.

Spock had been given a report by Dr. McCoy who had declared that other than exhaustion, the captain was fine. He intended to find out for himself.

“Enter,” Jim said, when Spock announced his presence.

Jim sat behind his desk, working on his terminal. Next to him was an empty plate and cup. His captain smiled. “Hey, Spock.”

Noting the dark circles under his captain’s eyes, Spock said, “Perhaps you should still be resting, Captain.”

“I am resting. Or sort of. I did manage to get an hour or so of sleep.”

Spock shook his head. “That is not enough. You look fatigued.”

The captain grinned. “Is that your not so subtle way of saying I look like shit?”

“You are as aesthetically pleasing as always, but there are clear signs of fatigue.”

“Wait, did you just say I’m attractive?”

“No.”

The captain frowned. “But you said—”

“What is it you are doing now, Captain?”

“Huh? Oh. Reports.”

“If they cannot wait, I will do them for you.”

“Spock, I’m fine.”

“You were injured less than five hours ago. An injury you would not have sustained had I accompanied you.”

The captain raised both brows. “You can’t know that.”

“It is more certain than when I do not accompany you.”

“It wasn’t much of an injury anyway. Just a little shock. I have had worse.”

“That does not comfort me. You should try to sleep for additional hours.”

“Spock.”

He arched a brow. “Captain.”

Jim sighed. “Well, just for a few hours, I guess. I do feel tired.”

The captain rose from behind his desk and padded bare foot to the bunk. He sat down on the edge and then grinned up at Spock. He slapped the spot next to him. “Sit.”

“Captain—”

“Sit. Just for a moment. It’s an order.”

Spock reluctantly sat on the bed next to Jim. Whenever he was this close to Jim he felt unsettled, alive in ways he had not felt before. It was not an unpleasant feeling but it was something he was not used to with anyone else. And whenever he moved away, Spock yearned for more.

“You didn’t want to go to the New Year’s party with the others?”

“No, I did not.”

Jim tilted his head. “Why not?”

He hesitated, unsure of how much to say, to admit, then said, “I would rather spend the evening with you.”

“Oh.” Jim smiled. “Oh.” And then, his smile grew brighter. His gaze flicked to the digital clock on the wall. “You know what time it is?”

“Of course.”

The captain laughed. “Of course. Well, you know it is Earth tradition, when it’s midnight of the New Year to share a kiss with the person next to you.”

“Indeed.”

And then Jim leaned toward him, very close to Spock’s face. For a moment Spock thought Jim might just kiss his cheek, but then his lips—lips that had always seemed so illogically appealing—hovered less than an inch from Spock’s. Jim’s hot breath fanned over Spock’s lips with just a touch of the scent of spiced Vulcan tea.

Blue eyes stared intently into his eyes and then lashes lowered, hiding those cerulean eyes, and Jim’s lips covered his in perhaps the warmest, sweetest, hungriest kiss Spock had ever had. All too soon, Jim pulled away.

“Happy New Year, Mr. Spock.”

“Happy New Year, Captain.”

And before he could tell himself this was all completely illogical and far too emotionally charged, Spock grabbed a fist full of Jim’s shirt and pulled him closer, smashing his lips hard over Jim’s. There was a slight surprised gasp from Jim’s mouth but then he was kissing Spock back with a  desperation Spock very much appreciated.

When they broke apart, Jim’s eyes were dilated, as he breathed, “Spock?”

“Captain?”

“Don’t you think you should call me Jim if you’re going to fuck me?”

Spock kissed him again, nibbling his lips until they were plump and swollen. “Do you think sexual congress is wise under the circumstances?”

“Hell, yeah. What circumstances?”

“Your exhaustion.”

“It’ll help me sleep.”

“Jim—”

“Come on, Spock. Seriously? You can’t come in here declare your love for me and kiss me and then not fuck me.”

Spock frowned. “I did not declare my regard for you.” That was something he would recall if he had done so.

Jim sighed against Spock’s lips. “Pretty much. You said you wanted to spend the evening with me. Spock, we both know that’s as good as a declaration from a Vulcan.”

He opened his mouth to argue the point, but then realized Jim was right. Why should he fight it? What he should do was get them both out of their clothes.

“Mm. What did you say?” Jim asked.

“Clothes. Off.”

“Oh. Yeah. Fuck. God.”

Spock arched a brow. “You seem unable to form complete sentences.”

“You started it.” Jim pulled back from him just enough to yank his black undershirt over his head. He tossed it across the room toward the desk. Then he slid his fingers under Spock’s tunic and undershirt, brushing his fingers over Spock’s bare skin.

Spock growled, there was no other term for it, and pulled off his shirts impatiently. He pushed Jim under him and started tearing at the fastening of Jim’s uniform pants. Which really were too tight. Spock did not care for the way Jim displayed his body.

“Hey, hey,” Jim said with a laugh. “You’re getting all cave man on me. You’re going to rip those.”

He found he did not care, but thought it might be improper to say so. He got the pants undone and yanked them down off Jim’s tight round ass and to his knees before he gave up and let Jim shed them the rest of the way. Off went the regulation briefs too, leaving Jim naked. Gloriously naked. Aesthetically pleasing indeed.

Jim licked his lips, his pupils blown wide. “Now you. Your pants.”

Spock stood and took off the rest of his own clothes with as much efficiency as he could manage given his hands were shaking and his hard cock was pulsing with a need to be inside Jim.

But before he rejoined Jim, he asked, “Lubricant?”

Jim licked his lips and nodded. “Yeah. Um, here.” He turned over onto his stomach and scooted toward the small cabinet next to his bunk. He pulled out a bottle of lubricant and handed it to Spock.

Spock frowned, unable to stop himself from thinking about who else Jim had been with. He did not like feeling jealousy but he seemed unable to stop the feelings where Jim was concerned.

Jim reached for his hand, and closed his fingers over Spock’s palm. “Hey. Stop thinking. Forget about that. It’s just us now. Just you. Just me. Together. Okay?”

“Affirmative.” He lay on Jim and crushed their mouths together, shoving his tongue past Jim’s lips, invading the warm, moistness inside. He had not realized this was what he wanted. This was what he’d wanted for a long time. Perhaps from the beginning when he’d first laid eyes on James Kirk at the Kobayashi Muru test. But he had not allowed himself to think about it. Think about Jim. Nyota had known. She had ended things with Spock because of his fascination for Jim. She’d called it an obsession. Maybe it was. There had to be a reason Spock had to be near Jim. Had to keep him safe. Which only became worse after Jim had died.

Spock’s hands covered, slaked over every inch of Jim’s naked, golden skin. Where his fingers caressed, his tongue followed, leaving a trail all over the warm human skin.

Jim gasped under him, his body writhing under Spock, whimpers spilling from his lips. “Spock, please. Spock. God. Please.”

He squirted lubricant from the bottle and reached for Jim’s legs to spread them. One leg Spock placed on his shoulder and the other Jim bent at the knee. Spock pushed a slicked finger in Jim’s tight passage.

“Yes. Damn,” Jim hissed.

“Does it hurt?” Spock asked.

“No, no. Not really. It’s just…it’s been awhile.”

“You have abstained from sexual congress?”

Jim’s laugh was breathless. “Yes. Okay. But, you know, now is not the time to get into a long conversation, Spock. I’m dying here.”

“If you are dying—”

“I swear to God I’m going to fucking kill you if you don’t get on with it.”

Spock felt his lips twitch into a smile and he added a second finger. This time Jim only groaned and spread his legs farther apart. By the time he inserted a third, Jim was panting.

“Please, fuck me already.”

Spock slicked his erection with more lube and then poised himself at Jim’s entrance. With careful precision, Spock pushed the head of his cock into Jim’s ass.

“Spock, please, I’m not fragile. Fuck me. And hard.”

He decided he didn’t need any further permission and he slid in balls deep. Jim gave a contented sigh even as his own hand wrapped around his cock and stroked as Spock thrust into him over and over.

The pace was hard, fast, brutal, and deep. They both matched each other eagerly. Jim rising to meet each thrust that Spock pounded into him. Spock had always found sexual congress pleasing, but this…this was different. More intense, more all-consuming. And it was like coming home.

Even as Jim’s breaths shuttered and he gasped out his orgasm, splattering cum across both of them, Spock felt his own release tingling up the base of his spine and with several deep thrusts, he emptied into Jim’s passage.

****

Jim woke later in the night, unsure really what time it was. Or if it was night. Spock still lay in his bed. In fact Spock pretty much lay on Jim and his arms were wrapped snugly around Jim’s waist.

Blankets were wrapped around them too and Jim wasn’t sure how that happened, but he guessed he’d slept through Spock taking care of him. He smiled and laid his head on Spock’s chest and then he felt Spock’s fingers combing through his hair.

“Hey, you’re awake.”

“Affirmative.”

“Since when?”

“A while. I found it pleasant to hold you while you slept.”

“That was—”

“Unexpected?”

“That too. But amazing. Can we do it again?”

“If you wish.”

Jim snorted. “I always wish.”

“Jim.”

“Yes?” Jim started to worry when he felt Spock tense up.

“Vulcans, and especially me, do not do casual relationships.”

“I know that, Spock. Is that what you think this is?”

“I do not wish it to be.”

Jim smiled and kissed the bare chest under his head. “Are you saying you want to marry me or something?”

“Yes.”

He sat up and stared at Spock, but the Vulcan’s dark eyes were intense and serious.

“Spock, I was kidding.”

“I am not.”

“You-you do?”

“That would please me more than anything. As you have already guessed, I cherish thee.”

Happiness threatened to make him giddy. Jim tried to control it, but it bubbled over into a  laugh. “Yeah? I pretty much cherish you, too.” He lay back down and snuggled close. “So are we really going to get married?”

“In the Vulcan way, yes. Also in the human way, if you would like. Whatever will please you, Jim.”

“You, Spock. You please me. Happy New Year.”

“Happy New Year, Ashayam.”

Follow up story is Memories of You, if interested.

 

Something Different, Flash Fics

I completed both holiday stories and they are posted on AO3. Now I get to happily bid 2017 goodbye.

This week, I am posting various flash fics involving sick/injured Spirk. They’ve been in circulation for a while but sometimes it’s fun to revisit them.

Star-Trek-Into-Darkness

Cough

“Spock—” Whatever Jim was about to say was interrupted by another bout of horrendous, chest deep coughing.

Spock could not help feeling alarmed. To him, Jim’s cough was not improving. “I am going to comm Dr. McCoy.”

“No, Spock.” Jim rubbed his chest. “He already said the cough lingers the longest. It’s fine.”

“You are sounding worse.”

“I’m not worse. He checked me just a few hours ago,” Jim said hoarsely. “It’ll be gone soon enough. I’m going to sleep in my own quarters tonight and you sleep in yours.”

“Why?”

“Because I kept you awake all last night.”

“Vulcans need less sleep.”

“Yeah, but they don’t need no sleep, Spock. It’s just for a night or two. You couldn’t even meditate.”

Spock did not point out that he could not sleep or meditate because he was concerned over Jim’s health. Since they had become romantically involved they had spent every night together and it was not something Spock wished to change.

Jim smiled, but it was strained and his eyes were watery and tired looking. Spock wanted Jim with him more than ever, since he wanted to keep an eye on him. He was beginning to doubt Dr. McCoy’s abilities.

“It’s going to be okay, Spock. It’s just for maybe three nights.”

His alarm increased. “Less than one minute ago it was a night or two and now it has become three nights.”

“Well, whatever. It probably won’t be that long. I’m just tired.”

Spock wanted to argue but Jim’s expression had changed to his official ‘captain’ look instead of Spock’s lover. He nodded. “Very well. But if you change your mind and decide you desire company after all I will be amenable.”

“Okay, deal. Love you.”

“And I love you.”

Spock went to his own quarters without Jim with no little reluctance. He wasn’t certain he could relax enough to sleep or meditate with his concern over Jim, so when he reached his quarters, he commed Dr. McCoy.

“Yes, Spock?” Dr. McCoy asked wearily.

“It is about the captain.”

“He’s fine.”

“Are you certain—?”

“I’ve checked him three times. The worst of the flu that spread through the ship is over. The cough lingers.”

“It sounds deep in his chest.”

“I know, but it’s breaking up. Do you really think I would be casual about Jim’s health, Spock?”

The doctor had a point though Spock did not intend to admit it to him. “Very well. Spock out.”

He undressed and put on his sleeping robe and got into his own bed, by himself. The bed smelled of Jim now since he spent so much time there. They preferred Spock’s quarters for the most part because Spock liked it warm and Jim liked the layout of Spock’s quarters better. Spock suspected Jim just wanted to make Spock happy.

He attempted to sleep for one hour and ten minutes. He gave up and went to his meditation mat. He tried that for another hour, but he could not concentrate.

Spock exhaled and decided he had to ignore his captain’s orders. He entered their shared bathroom and heard Jim coughing. He walked into the quarters and realized it was cold. He stepped over to the bed.

Jim peered up at him. “Spock, what are you—”

“I cannot sleep alone,” Spock said.

Jim sighed. “Stubborn Vulcan.” He lifted the covers. “Come in then. Don’t say I didn’t try to spare you.”

Spock got into bed next to Jim and pulled him close. “I will not.”

Jim shook his head. “Crazy Vulcan. Goodnight.”

“Goodnight, ashayam.”

In Sickness 2

Jim carried the tray precariously as he approached Spock’s quarters. He’d almost dropped the contents five times, but somehow it had remained upright. But he was carrying the tray with two hands so now he was going to have to do it one handed.

He bit his lip. Should be voice override anyway. Jim juggled the tray on his shoulder and keyed in his entry code. He winced when a little more soup spilled out.

The door swooshed open and Jim entered. The lights were dimmed low but he could see the Vulcan laying in the bed on his back, blankets pulled up to his chin.

Jim carried the tray over and set it on the table next to the bed. He peered down at Spock and saw his eyes were open and he was looking up at Jim.

“Hi.”

“Jim,” Spock rasped.

He smiled and knelt next to Spock. He brushed his fingers over Spock’s forehead, pushing away the matted hair. “How do you feel?”

“I am cold.”

“You want more blankets, sweetheart?”

Spock nodded.

“Okay.” Jim kissed his forehead and then stood. “I brought you Plomeek soup. There’s even some left I didn’t spill.”

“Thank you.”

“You want to sit up so you can eat?”

Spock nodded again, so Jim helped him to sit up and tucked pillows behind his back and head.  He brought Spock his soup and then went in search of more blankets. When be brought two more, Spock nodded his approval.

Jim sat on the edge of the bed and watched Spock eat. “I’m sorry you’re sick.”

“I did not expect to be affected by the Dafordian Flu.”

“I know. Vulcan physiology usually means nothing affects you. This time it doesn’t affect humans.”

“I am gratified. I did not want to see you ill with this.”

“Bones said it should only last a day or two longer and you’ll feel a lot better.”

“I am glad.”

Jim smiled and reached for Spock’s hand. “Want me to leave you alone?”

“Do you have to go back to the bridge?”

“No, I’m off the next eight hours.”

“You require rest. You look tired.”

“Spock, don’t worry about me.”

“I always will.”

Jim shook his head. “Want me to stay or go?”

Spock threaded his fingers with Jim’s. “Please stay. If it will not make you uncomfortable.”

“It won’t.” Jim stood up, took Spock’s empty soup bowl away, and pulled off his shirt and pants and crawled onto the bed in just his underwear.

“It is not too warm for you?”

“A little. But it’s okay. Computer, lights off.”

“Good night, Spock.” He touched his fingers to Spock’s in a Vulcan kiss.

“Good night, Jim.”

Comfort

“Bones…” the captain protested as Dr. M’Benga pulled the doctor from his arms the moment they beamed on board the Enterprise.

“I’ve got him, Captain,” M’Benga assured him and the doctor was placed on a gurney.

Dr. McCoy was very white except for blotches of skin that had already begun to bruise and the red streaks covering the doctor’s torn shirt.

Kirk followed after the gurney as they wheeled him away and Spock followed after Kirk.

When they reached the medbay, Kirk made to follow them into the surgical room.

“Wait out here, Captain,” M’Benga told him.

They disappeared through the door and Kirk stepped forward as though to go in anyway. Spock stopped him with a grasp of his shoulder.

“Get off me, Commander,” Kirk snapped and Spock removed his hand immediately. The captain did turn from his intent, however, and began to pace the area in front of the door.

“Captain, there was nothing you could have done to prevent injury to the doctor,” Spock said after a few minutes of watching his captain pace.

“Bullshit.”

“Captain?”

“Bull. Shit. It should have been me.”

“Negative. The Naisrants wanted you to choose between myself and Dr. McCoy. No positive outcome could result from that.”

“I should have just told them to choose me.”

“Then you would have been injured.”

“Better me than Bones.”

Spock did not agree. Not that he wished harm to come to the doctor. He did not. “Dr. M’Benga will see that the doctor fully recovers, Captain.”

“And if he doesn’t?” Kirk asked, eyes flashing fire.

“Then Dr. McCoy will have given his life in duty to prevent your death, Captain.”

“You know, Spock, you are my favorite person…Vulcan…being…whatever. But right now? Do me a favor and shut the fuck up.”

Spock straightened. “If my presence is unwelcome I will exit the medbay.”

Kirk sighed, rubbed his eyes. “It’s not unwelcome. I know this whole…whatever…is new between us, I get that. But the way to comfort me is not to tell me my best friend died giving his life for me, okay?”

“Dr. McCoy is still alive.”

“I know that, Spock. “

Spock remained quiet for a moment, and then asked, “What is the best way to comfort you?”

“Just…be here with me, okay?”

“Very well.”

After twenty minutes of his captain pacing, Spock intervened again and found two chairs. He placed them by the door of the surgery room.

“Sit.”

Kirk looked at the chairs. “I don’t know if I can.”

“Sit,” Spock said, his voice firmer. He was gratified when the captain sat. He replicated two cups of tea and handed one to his captain before taking his seat in the other chair.

The captain took a sip of tea and sighed. “Thanks.”

“I am offering comfort more appropriately?” Spock queried.

Kirk smiled a little. “Yeah, yeah you are.”

Three hours later when Dr. M’Benga came out of the room, Spock woke his captain, who was leaning on Spock’s shoulder, snoring softly.

Kirk straightened, blinked, and then stood. He swayed a little and Spock steadied him with a hand on his captain’s back. “Bones?”

M’Benga smiled. “He’ll be fine, Captain. He’s in recovery and later we’ll move him to a bed.”

The captain grinned. “Great. That’s great. Thank you.”

M’Benga nodded and went back inside.

“You should get some rest,” Spock murmured.

“A shower would be in order, too,” Kirk agreed. He tilted his neck and then cracked it. “My neck’s a little stiff.”

“From leaning over on your chair.”

He nodded. “You make a good pillow, Mr. Spock.”

“I am, of course, pleased to assist you in any way I can.”

His captain smiled. “I’ll so remind you of that later.” He yawned. “God, I hated that place.”

“It was not my favorite mission either.”

Kirk laughed at that and it was a laugh that wrapped around Spock most pleasantly. “You have such a gift for understatement, Commander.”

Spock arched a brow. “I will be on the bridge, Captain.”

“I’ll see you there later.” They walked out of the medbay and the captain held up his two fingers as Spock had taught him. Spock met them and then they parted, walking in the opposite direction in the corridor.

The Flu

Jim accessed Spock’s quarters and entered into a blast furnace. He winced. He swore he almost started sweating immediately.

“Spock?”

“Here, Captain.” The raspy, barely there voice sounded like Spock. Kind of.

Jim approached the bed where Spock lay under what could only be described as a mountain of blankets and sheets. In fact he was covered by so many Jim suspected he’d absconded with those from Jim’s quarters and perhaps several other crewmembers.

He looked down at the very pale Vulcan.

“Hey, sweetheart. Bones told me you have the Norvarian flu.”

Spock nodded. His brown eyes were glazed and his hair stood on end.

Jim sat on the edge of the bed and touched his forehead. “You’re burning up. How hot do you have it in here?”

“95 degrees Fahrenheit.”

“That’s—that’s hot.”

“If you would like me to lower it—”

“No, Spock. I want you to have what you need. Are you cold?”

“Freezing.”

“Damn. I’m sorry you got sick. I’m gonna ream Bones a new one for not figuring this out before you got infected. What happened to Vulcans being immune to everything?”

“That is a fallacy. And I am half-human.”

Jim leaned down and kissed Spock’s feverish brow. “What do you need? What can I do for you?”

“I do not wish to inconvenience you,” Spock said with obvious reluctance.

“I’m on a break right now. Scotty’s on the bridge. I’m yours for the next four hours.”

Spock was quiet and simply stared at Jim.

“What?” Jim asked, stroking Spock’s hair. “What do you want, sweetheart?”

“I am told body heat is a good way of keeping warm,” Spock said, his soft voice straining. “I do not wish to infect you.”

“You won’t. I was inoculated against the Norvarian flu when I was on Tarsus. It was one of the few good things from those days.” Jim did not look forward to roasting to death under the covers with Spock but he also would do just about anything for his still secret lover.

Jim removed his shirts and then reached to yank off his boots.

“Are you certain?” Spock whispered. “I do not wish to make you unhappy.”

“You make me happy. Everything else doesn’t matter.”

“Computer, lower temperature twenty degrees,” Spock ordered.

“You didn’t have to do that.” Jim stood to remove his pants and boxers.

“With you in bed beside me I will not need it.”

Jim smiled and slipped under the covers. Spock immediately pulled Jim to him and plastered him against him, his arms looping around Jim’s middle. Spock gave a contented sigh and Jim decided his discomfort was worth it to make Spock happy.

Jim woke up to the sound of someone entering Spock’s quarters. He blinked his eyes blearily, trying to struggle up from the Vulcan who had decided to make Jim his bed. Spock was too heavy and would not budge.

“Okay, Spock, this should make you feel a lot better,” Bones declared from right next to the bed.

Uh-oh.

Spock stirred and began to move off Jim. “Doctor?”

“Yeah, I—Jim!” Bones had lifted the blankets that covered them.

Jim smiled sheepishly even as Spock tried to cover Jim from Bones’ gaze.

“Doctor, please let go of the blankets,” Spock said. “You are exposing the captain.”

“I can see that!” Bones said, dropping the blankets and covering his eyes.

Spock tucked the blankets around Jim. “Why are you here?”

“To give you a shot! You’re supposed to be sick.”

“And I am. The captain was keeping me warm.”

“God.”

Jim laughed. “I think you might be making it worse, Spock.”

“Jesus, Jim. Spock? Spock is your lover?”

“That is not your business, doctor.”

Bones rolled his eyes. “I think the cat’s out of the bag now, Spock.”

“The cat, doctor?”

“Never mind.” Bones stabbed Spock in the neck with a hypospray. “This should make you feel a lot better. Almost as good as new.”

“Looks like you lost that wager, Bones,” Jim said with a huge grin.

“Well, how was I supposed to know you’d lost your damn mind?”

“To what do you refer, doctor?”

Bones snorted. “I can tell he’s feeling better already. I’m going. And I just have to say, no details.”

“Details?”

“Shut up, Spock. Though, I gotta know, when? How?”

“One month and two and a half weeks ago,” Spock replied. “If you desire hours and minutes as well as seconds—”

“I don’t,” Bones interrupted.

“And as for how,” Jim said. “That’s easy. Spock was upset I got hurt during a landing party and when you released me he attacked me and fuc—”

“La, la, la,” Bones said loudly, plugging his ears. “Forget I asked. In fact, forget I was here. In fact, I never was.”

They both watched as Bones practically ran out of Spock’s quarters.

“I believe I have won the wager, Captain.”

Jim shook his head and then frowned up at Spock. “What?”

“I placed an anonymous wager.”

“You-you did? But Spock, that’s-that’s cheating.”

“Is it?”

“Yes, because you had inside knowledge.”

Spock nodded. “I see. I suppose I must forfeit my winnings. I am not used to gambling.”

Jim smiled. “Yeah, I know. How do you feel?”

“I am greatly improved.”

“Good. I think I’m due back on the bridge soon. I’d like to get a shower.”

“Do you desire company?”

Jim’s eyes widened. “Do you feel that much better?”

“Affirmative.”

Jim licked his lips. “Hot damn. Then, yeah. Hell, yeah. If you’re sure.”

“I am sure.” Spock leaned down to kiss him, pressing him into the mattress.

Jim groaned. “Maybe the shower can wait.”

McCoy’s Worst Day 

McCoy had a duty to perform but that didn’t mean he had to like it. No, in fact, he couldn’t imagine anything he wanted to do less than this particular duty. He had an ache in his chest that wouldn’t go away. Wasn’t sure it would ever go away.

“Leonard McCoy, Chief Medical Officer’s log, Stardate 2341.2.” McCoy paused. Swallowed the lump. Pinched his nose to stop the tears, at least temporarily. “After the Shuttlecraft, Gamma 3, crashed and exploded on the planet, Janys VI, Captain James-James T. Kirk and first officer, Commander Spock, are presumed dead. A scan for life forms revealed no survivors. Rescue operations found wreckage too complete to find any remains.”

How everything could have gone so wrong, McCoy didn’t know. He’d had breakfast with his two best friends that very morning.  An ordinary day, an ordinary mission.

Jim had been pretty cheerful and Spock had been…Spock.

“What’s that you’re eating?” McCoy asked as Jim joined him at the table. Spock was close behind with tea and a bowl of fruit. Lately Jim and Spock were always together. Joined at the hip, McCoy would say.

“Oatmeal,” Jim declared with an easy grin. “I figured you’d approve.”

“I do.” He narrowed his eyes at them. “You two are awful chummy.”

“Meaning?” Jim asked, sipping from his coffee.

McCoy shrugged. “I left you last night, you were together. I see you first thing this morning, you’re together. If I didn’t know any better, I’d think—” He closed his mouth, staring at them as Spock arched a brow.

Jim smiled. “You’d think?”

He cleared his throat. “Uh, never mind.”

“A wise choice, doctor.”

And now? Damn it, he’d give anything to hear Spock call him “doctor” in that just above disdainful voice. He’d give anything to hear Jim’s laugh. This was so fucking unfair. He didn’t want to serve with anyone but them.

McCoy reached for his stash of bourbon. He needed to get drunk to forget this was the worse damn day of his life.

****

“Scott to Dr. McCoy.”

McCoy lifted his head from his desk. Next to him was the still largely untouched glass of bourbon he’d poured. “McCoy here.”

“Doctor—we-we just got word.” Scotty’s voice broke.

Ah, hell what now.

“Scotty, what is it?”

“It’s Captain Kirk.”

His heart stopped. “Did they find his remains?” Tears pricked at his eyes.

“No! Doctor, he’s alive.”

McCoy got up from his seat so fast his chair fell over. “What? Jim? Where?”

“He just contacted us. We’re beaming him and Mr. Spock up. Meet them in the transporter room.”

He was already running for the transporter. His heart was practically in his mouth. He had no idea what condition they were in. But they were alive. “M’Benga to the transporter room.”

Scotty was behind the controls himself when McCoy entered the transporter room. He shook his head. “Don’t know the details. Something about being held prisoner. They are injured. Sulu went down to get them.”

Dr. M’Benga rushed through the doors, followed quickly by medics with gurneys.

“Sulu to Enterprise. Beam us up.”

Scotty pulled the lever and Sulu, Jim, and Spock appeared on the pads. Sulu and Jim were both bracing Spock. Jim had a large bleeding gash across his forehead and blood dripping from the corner of his mouth. Spock was unconscious.

“What the hell happened?” McCoy asked, moving forward. He was elated. Jim was alive. And looked like he would be just fine. But Spock—

“The shuttlecraft was tampered with. Just before the crash, Spock and I were beamed to some prison,” Jim explained. “We were both beaten, tortured. They were gonna kill me, but Spock protected me.” He stopped, took a deep breath, and then continued, “We escaped, but then Spock collapsed. Bones, please.”

McCoy knew exactly what his best friend was asking. They got Spock on a gurney and off to medbay. Jim followed them, anxiously waiting on the side.

“What about you, Jim? I need to check your injuries,” McCoy said as he and M’Benga began to check Spock over.

“Not now, Bones. I’m okay. Just-Just make sure Spock is okay.”

McCoy grimaced but concentrated on examining Spock.

“He’s in the Vulcan healing trance,” M’Benga declared a few minutes later.  “He should be all right when he comes out of it.”

“Great,” McCoy said, feeling a great deal of relief. He’d gone from thinking his best friends were dead to having them both alive. He turned to Jim, with a smile. “Now let’s see how you are.”

“Bones, don’t worry.” Jim smiled, but it was very strained. “I got hit in the head and…and my stomach…it really hurts, but I’ll be—”

McCoy watched Jim sink to the floor. “Jim! Nurse, M’Benga!”

****

McCoy was running his tricorder over Spock when suddenly Spock’s hand grabbed his wrist. “Spock?”

Spock blinked. “Doctor.”

“How do you feel?”

“I am well. The captain?”

McCoy grimaced. “Spock.”

“Where  is the captain?” Spock sat up.

“You should rest.”

“I am fine. I wish to know where the captain is.”

McCoy sighed. “Let go of my wrist. He’s in the bed next to you.”

Spock glanced toward the other bed and saw Jim laying there unconscious. McCoy watched Spock’s expression change to one of anguish. “Is he—”

“It was touch and go. Internal bleeding. He wouldn’t let us treat him until we knew you were going to be all right. We caught it just in time, Spock. He’s going to be fine.”

Spock stood up and McCoy instantly tried to push him back down onto the biobed but Spock was far too strong and determined. “As I have stated twice before, I am fine. Allow me to see the captain.”

With a sigh, he relented and watched as Spock made it to Jim’s biobed. Spock reached for Jim’s hand, held it in his.

Jim opened his eyes. “Spock?”

“Yes, Ashayam.”

“You’re all right?”

Spock brought Jim’s hand to his lips and as McCoy watched, a little startled, he kissed Jim’s fingers. “Now that you are, yes.”

Jim smiled. “Tired.”

“Rest, my Jim.” And then Spock leaned down to place a brief kiss on Jim’s lips. He released Jim’s hand and then turned back to McCoy with an arched brow. “Doctor?”

McCoy shook his head. “Nothing, Spock.” He swallowed the lump that had formed in his throat. “I’m really glad-I’m really glad you’re both here.”

“As are we, doctor. Thank you.”

CBH, Chapter 7

CelebrateMeHome

 

Beginning NSFW

Chapter 7

“T’hy’la?” Spock called out as he stepped into the frigid cold December day. It was just a couple of days until Christmas. And as Leonard and Nyota were busy bathing Oliver, Spock had noticed that Jim was nowhere to be seen.

“Here, Spock.”

He found Jim standing near the back porch, hands shoved into the pockets of his heavy coat, woolen hat pulled low over his ears. Snow flurries rained down on them.

“Are you ruminating?”

Jim laughed. “You got that from Bones.”

“Perhaps.” He stepped up behind Jim and wrapped his arms around his middle and pulled him close. “Is something amiss, Jim?”

“No, no. I just…wanted some air. Oliver’s cute, yeah?”

“Indeed. Though at times he smells.”

Jim’s laugh was a low, pleasing rumble. “I’m glad for him. Bones, I mean. He’s so excited and happy. I’ll miss them when they go back to Georgia.”

Spock nodded. “As will I. You have already purchased Oliver enough that the doctor will require another suitcase when he leaves.”

“I know. I got him one for Christmas.” Jim sighed. “Ever think about us, Spock?”

“Clarify.”

“Having a child. We could get a surrogate or whatever.”

“I did not think you wished for children.”

“Well. I don’t know. Not now. I mean, I waited forever to be with you, and yeah I know we’ve been together for a while now, but I want longer. Just you and me.” Jim fell silent for a moment. “Is that selfish?”

“Negative. And I feel the same. I want to be with you to the exclusion of others.” Spock closed his eyes and cuddled Jim closer.

“Mm. That’s nice. Are you sorry we invited Bones and Uhura?”

“Sorry is not exactly the word I would use,” Spock admitted. “Though if it were just us I would not be disappointed.”

“The holidays are supposed to be about spending time with family and friends.”

“I do not celebrate the holidays.”

Jim chuckled. “I know.”

Spock smiled slightly. “It is pleasing to see our friends. And I acknowledge I cannot keep you to myself at all times.”

“Nice thought though,” Jim said softly. “Maybe some day, down the line, we might consider getting a surrogate. I wouldn’t mind a little baby with pointed ears.”

“Or stunning blue eyes.”

“Both maybe. But not yet.”

“There is plenty of time, T’hy’la, should we wish to pursue the idea.” Spock nuzzled the side of Jim’s face. “Jim?”

“Yeah, honey?”

“Why did you choose the frigid outdoors to ruminate?”

His mate laughed again, a hearty, warm laugh that had Spock thinking wicked things even though it was not that long ago since he had moved within Jim’s body. Jim turned in his arms to face him and flung his arms around Spock’s next, kissing him, with snowflakes upon both their cheeks.

“God, I love you so much,” Jim exclaimed against Spock’s lips, most illogically.

“I return the sentiment though I am not entirely certain why I warranted such an enthusiastic declaration of your love.”

“You’re just the cutest Vulcan ever is all.”

“Could we not at least move onto the enclosed back porch?”

Jim grabbed his hand and they made their way up the steps and Jim opened the door to the enclosed porch and the stepped inside.

It was warmer.

Barely.

Spock pulled Jim over to a chair and he sat, pulling Jim down onto his lap.

“Mm. This is nice. We can ruminate together.”

“It is still cold.”

“We won’t stay out here long,” Jim promised. He bit his lip. “But, um, do I feel you becoming aroused?”

Spock blushed. “Perhaps. You are very tempting like this.”

“Like what?”

“Breathing.”

He was rewarded with Jim’s richest, warmest laugh yet and Spock felt it all the way to his toes. He was in awe when Jim was like this. There was no other word for it. Spock could not suppress his feelings for this human no matter how he might try. And he did not even wish to do so.

“We can’t do it out here,” Jim said.

Spock arched a brow. “Can we not? We have before.”

“Bones and Uhura could come out here at any moment. And as you pointed out, it’s cold.”

“We will keep most of our clothes on.” Spock reached over to the chair beside Jim. “And we can have this blanket over us to help both with warmth and in case they come out to check on us.”

“Spock, are you actually suggesting we copulate right here on the back porch in his chair?”

Spock’s lips twitched. “Affirmative. You will have to remove more of your clothing, so we will cover you with the blanket.”

“Damn horny Vulcan.” But he was grinning.  Spock knew Jim was just as eager as he was despite his protests.

They removed Jim’s boots and then his pants as well as pulling Spock’s hard cock out from within the opening of his slacks, and then Jim straddled him. Spock pushed in slow and deep as he pulled the blanket around his mate to cover him.

Perhaps he should make it fast and hurried, given they might get caught by their guests at any time, but Spock did not, instead choosing to thrust slow and rather calmly up into Jim, as Jim leaned down to kiss him.

Spock kept on hand on Jim’s sharp hipbone to hold him there and the other he used to cradle Jim’s jaw as he moved up into him over and over.

Jim was breathtaking like this, Spock mused, as he watched Jim’s face. Just watching Jim was enough to make Spock lose control. He brought their foreheads together, touching there, getting his mates thoughts, feelings, physical reactions. He never could get enough of being connected to Jim this way. Every way he could be and then some.

“Spock,” Jim panted out, blue eyes meeting brown ones.

Spock arched up into Jim as he wrapped his fingers around Jim’s erection, jerking him quickly now, no longer interested in going slow.

They came together, their minds and bodies so in tune they could do nothing else, and the tremors afterward as they came down from their release wracked them for several minutes as Spock ran his hands on and down Jim’s back, soothingly.

“Is it wrong to feel such lust for one’s mate?” Spock whispered, actually wondering if it was. If there was some part of him who could not be Vulcan no matter what. But then what if this part came from his Vulcan side?

“Wrong? How could it be wrong?” Jim kissed him, fingers to fingers, soothing him in the way only Jim seemed able to do. “You’re my husband.”

“I do not have control with you,” Spock admitted.

Jim’s smile was the soft, amazing one he had only for Spock. “You don’t need to have control with me, ashayam.”

Spock closed his eyes, letting the Vulcan word wash over him. Though Jim rarely spoke in Vulcan to him, Spock found it very pleasing when he did. His pronunciation was perfection.

“Taluhk nash-veh k’dular, S’chn T’gai Spock.”

It was like a gift and Spock tightened his hold on Jim.

But after a while they both began to squirm as the cold air began to affect them even within the closed in porch and so Jim lifted off Spock with a kiss to his nose and began to re-clothe himself.

Spock rather lazily redid the fastenings on his pants and pulled down his sweater.

“We should invest in anti-bacterial wipes or something,” Jim joked.

Just then they both turned at the sound of an arriving hover car. Spock, without even really thinking about it, immediately pushed Jim behind him, though Jim squawked in protest.

But as they exited the enclosed porch they immediately saw it was friends.

“Hikaru, Ben…Jaylah?” Jim exclaimed. The Sulus little girl, who was not so little anymore at about eleven, got out next.

“Uncle Jim,” Demora exclaimed, running toward him and throwing her arms around his thick jacket.

Good thing we were done.

I had the same thoughts.

“Hey pumpkin pie.” He looked at the adults. “What are you doing here?”

“Sorry, Captain,” Sulu said. “When we heard about Leonard’s son, well, we couldn’t resist.”

“We came to see the baby!” Demora said excitedly.

Jim eyed Jaylah. “You too?”

“Does that surprise you, James T?”

“A little,” Jim admitted. “Everyone come on inside. It’s freezing out here.”

Jim led them inside and Spock let them all precede him as they entered the warmth of the farmhouse.

He had absolutely no idea where they would put them all. The farmhouse was decent sized but it was not a boarding house by any means and though Spock supposed it was a tiny bit illogical he began to resent all this merriment. He liked having Jim to himself.

The holidays are all about friends and family, Spock.

I know, Adun.

Soft Christmas music was playing and as Hikaru and Ben and their daughter descended on the doctor, demanding turns to hold Oliver, Jaylah stood back, watching carefully, until Jim caught her attention and she began to speak with him.

Nyota joined Spock, smiling.  “A little overwhelming for you?”

Spock hesitated. “I know that it makes Jim happy. And the rest of you as well.”

“But it does overwhelm you?”

“Affirmative.”

She rested her hand on his arm. “I’ll try to make sure you get alone time with Jim, don’t worry.”

Spock watched as Jim gestured widely and laughed as he talked to their newest visitors. “He misses them.”

“You had to know he’d miss command. It’s in his blood.”

“Illogical,” Spock murmured.

“Yes.” She laughed. “The question is, where are we going to put them all? Jaylah and Demora can room with me I guess. Ben and Hikaru with Leonard and Oliver?”

Spock blew out a breath. “We will figure it out. It is only for a few days more.” Spock hoped.

She leaned up and kissed his cheek. “It’ll be okay, Spock.”

Nyota moved off to fuss over the baby with everyone else. Spock watched as Sulu pulled out box after box of brightly wrapped presents which Jaylah kept putting under their tree.

And Jim…he moved toward Spock and Spock had to admit, he needed his T’hy’la’s presence just then.

“Uh, sorry,” Jim said, putting his arm around Spock’s waist.

“For what do you apologize?”

“Well. All of this. I know you didn’t want any of this and now—”

“It is not really that different than when we were on the Enterprise,” Spock admitted. “We did not get a lot of time to ourselves then either. Of course Oliver is new.”

“He is. And so damn cute I want to eat him up.”

Spock shook his head. Humans.

“And it’s great having Demora too. She’s so excited to be here. I’ve never had Christmas with kids before.”

“Nor have I.”

Jim laughed. “Well, you never had Christmas before. I mean not much anyway. Before I forced you into it.”

“You did not force me. I would participate in anything that pleases you.”

Jim laughed and it was way too sexy. “I know that, honey.” He spoke low and winked and Spock found himself blushing.

Ben game around holding a bottle of champagne and glasses and offering them up as he poured them and Jim and Spock both took one. They all did.

Demora came to Jim again and shyly asked Jim to come sit with her. Spock remembered Sulu saying his daughter wanted to be in command in Starfleet someday and was a little enamored of Jim. Spock could understand that.

Jim went with her willingly and they sat on the couch while she showed him her PADD and he looked at everything she showed him and commented a lot about it too. She was glowing.

Leonard came next to Spock, holding Oliver. “You okay, Spock?”

“Yes, doctor. May I?”

Leonard smiled and handed him the six month old, who immediately smiled and reached for Spock’s ears. “He likes you. A lot.”

“He has good taste.” Spock allowed himself to smile back at the boy. “Hello, Oliver. You are a lucky boy. You are surrounded by a family that will love you more than you ever thought possible. You are a child of two worlds. And I know something about that.”

He caught Jim’s gaze who winked and Spock felt warm with love. And contentment.

Perhaps Vulcans did not feel happy, but Spock…did.

“Happy Holidays everyone,” Sulu called out.

And they drank from their champagne.

“Little one,” Spock said softly to Oliver. This time Oliver got a hold of Spock’s ears and pulled with rather a lot of glee which made his papa laugh.

Spock did not mind.

CMH Chapter 6

CelebrateMeHome

Chapter 6

First part of chapter is nsfw

“Stop, Mister Grabby.” Jim swatted Spock’s hands away with a laugh. “If you start that, we’ll never get back downstairs.”

Spock gave him a sly look. “Would that be so terrible, T’hy’la?”

“Well, not to me, honey, but we do have guests. Whom we both invited. It might be rude to spend the whole time pawing at each other up here.”

Spock drew him near, back plastered to Spock’s chest. He leaned down and planted a soft kiss on Jim’s shoulder where he had just recently sucked a mark. “It is your fault for being so enticing.”

Jim chuckled. “And yours for being such a horny Vulcan.”

“You were not complaining a short time ago,” Spock reminded him.

“Oh, baby, I never would. I’ll never tire of making love with you.”

“When we are both one hundred and fifty we will still be all over each other,” Spock whispered in his ear.

“Now that’s a beautiful thought.”

Spock turned Jim’s face toward him and ran kisses along his jaw. “You are not yet clothed, it would take no time at all to copulate one more time before going down.”

Jim gasped as Spock’s hands slipped down to his briefs covered ass. “Well I—”

Spock yanked them down to Jim’s knees. Jim closed his eyes, leaning back against Spock as he heard Spock lower the zipper of the pants he’s already dressed in.

“Are you sure?” he moaned out. “You might soil your slacks.”

“I will change them,” Spock assured him. He rubbed his erection along the crease of Jim’s ass.

“Ah, fuck.”

He was impaled on Spock’s slicked cock, Spock sliding in easily after their recent activities.

It was a slow, steady joining, Spock thrusting in carefully like they had all the time in the world. He held Jim easily to him with one hand on his hip and the other wrapped around Jim’s now aching cock. His mouth and teeth latched onto the pulse point of Jim’s throat, no doubt marking him further, but neither of them cared. Spock liked marking Jim as his and Jim liked being marked.

Jim kept his own noises to just heavy pants this time so as not to make quite as much of a spectacle of themselves, but it was hard, because Spock was expertly nailing his prostate and stroking his dick until Jim could barely contain his mewling, shuddering self.

“Adun,” Spock groaned as his pumps began to speed up. His grasp on Jim’s erection tightened, jerking Jim frantically until Jim couldn’t take it anymore. He cried out as he came with a burst of cum splattering the wooden floor in front of him. Only moments later, Spock filled him with his own release.

Jim sagged against him. “Do we have to take another shower?”

“No, my Jim, we will simply…wash off.”

“Your sex drive, man.” He shook his head and straightened up and away from his Vulcan. “How did I survive Pon Farr?”

“Very well indeed,” Spock replied with some amusement. He was eying Jim with undisguised admiration.

“I’m cleaning up and getting dressed in the bathroom,” Jim announced as he rolled his eyes. “Sheesh.”

“Perhaps that would be wise.”

****

They made it down the stairs, both of them, twenty minutes later. Bones and Uhura were still in the kitchen working on baking. Freshly baked cinnamon rolls were laid out on the dining room table and they had, apparently, moved on to sugar cookies.

Jim smiled and approached Bones. “Love the flour in your hair.”

“Oh bug off.”

Jim laughed. “Smells good.” He went to refill his coffee mug from before.

The doorbell rang.

“What the hell? We’re all here so—”

He set the mug down on the counter and headed for the front door. Spock was right behind him. He opened the door to a stranger.

“Got the wrong house?” Jim guessed.

The man, an older white haired man, frowned. “I am looking for Leonard McCoy. My information is that he’s staying here.”

Bones suddenly appeared behind Jim. “I’m Leonard McCoy. ”

The man nodded. “AJ Sorenson. I have news of your wife—”

“Ex-wife.”

“Hm. Anyway, as I was saying there was an accident. An explosion and Jaidou was killed.”

Bones sucked in a breath.

Jim stepped close and put his hand on Bones’ shoulder. “Bones.”

AJ Sorenson continued, now holding up a PADD. “Your wife provided in your will that you were to receive full custody of the child arising from—”

Bones made a strangled sound. “Excuse me. What?”

Sorenson turned around and spoke to someone. “Bring the child.”

A woman, an Orion herself stepped forward, holding a bundled infant. She handed the infant to Sorenson who held it toward Bones.

“This is your son with Jaidou.”

Bones stared at the baby, who was about six months old and lightly green. “But…she never…what?”

Sorenson shrugged. “Apparently because of the demise of your marriage she didn’t alert you to her condition. Her Orion family will not care for the child in any event, so you, as his next of kin, are responsible now.” He placed the baby into Bones’ arms who held him like he might break.

Jim moved close. “Oh, my God. He’s so cute.”

Bones’ eyes filled with tears. “What’s his name?”

“Oliver,” Sorenson said. “Oliver McCoy. If you will excuse us, we would like to be on our way, before the snowstorm starts.”

Bones only had eyes for the baby. He just nodded. The woman handed Jim a bag.

“These are his things. There is a PADD that has all his legal information,” she said, then followed after Sorenson.

“Holy smokes,” Jim breathed.

Bones was rapidly blinking his eyes. “I-I have a son. A baby son.”

“He is beautiful, Leonard,” Spock said softly.

Jim glanced at Spock and smiled, then back to the infant. “Talk about life changing.”

“Yeah,” Bones said. He gave a watery laugh. “I can’t believe I didn’t know.”

Jim leaned in and touched his finger to the baby’s tiny little hand. Oliver. He stared at Jim in wonder. “Hi little guy. I’m your Uncle Jim.”

“Wow,” Uhura said, coming over from the kitchen. “He is so cute! Oh, Leonard. What a wonderful gift. But it sure seems like Jaidou had more secrets than even you knew.”

“Yeah.”

“Perhaps it would be wise to close the front door and bring Oliver into the warmth of the house,” Spock said as he went over to close the still open front door.

Jim went to him and put his arm around Spock’s waist, drawing him near. “Well, now this is shaping up to be quite the grand celebration. Wouldn’t you say?”

“Indeed.”

“I’ll have to get more things for him,” Bones said as they all moved out of the hallway toward the delicious smelling, warm kitchen.

“That’s going to be one spoiled boy,” Uhura said with a grin. “We can all go shopping tomorrow.”

Bones was transfixed as his son grabbed onto his finger and smiled toothlessly at him. “Coochie coochie coo.”

Spock frowned. “Coochie coochie coo, Jim?”

“Um, yeah, honey. It’s, um, sort of baby talk.”

“Baby talk?”

“Never mind. Weird human stuff.”

Spock arched a brow and then nodded, moving off to make himself tea.

CBH Chapter 5

CelebrateMeHome

 

Chapter 5

Nyota was neither the first one off the shuttle nor the last. She exited precisely in the middle of the crowd of arrivals. Somehow Spock found this entirely logical for what he knew about Nyota.

She’d cut her hair a little since the last time he had seen her, though it was still long enough for her to wear it in a ponytail, as she mostly preferred. She wore a thick down jacket in red, which admittedly was her color, and jeans with boots up to the knee. She carried with her a small bag, presumably of clothes and other things she would need while staying at the farmhouse until the New Year.

She headed immediately toward where he stood, greeting him with a soft smile. “Spock! Is it okay if I hug you?”

“Of course, Nyota.”

She embraced him, arms going around his upper back. “You look really good,” she declared. “Life on the farm must agree with you.”

“Perhaps,” he said agreeably, as she released him.

“Or life with Jim.” Her smile widened. “He makes you happy.”

“I am more content than I ever thought I would be,” Spock said as he took her bag from her.

“I can carry that you know.”

“As can I,” Spock said as he led the way out of the shuttle bay. “It has turned quite cold as you will no doubt recognize for yourself.”

They got into the hover car and left the parking area.

She was studying him carefully. “You have a…”

“What?” He glanced at her.

“You have a smudge of something on your face, near your right cheek.”

“Oh.” Spock wiped at his face, trying not to blush, for he suspected it was some sexual fluid from his recent copulation with Jim.

“Jim didn’t mind me coming here?”

“Why would he?”

She rolled her eyes and looked out the window. “He and I have something of a history. Thanks mostly to each of our histories with you.”

“Does it make you uncomfortable?”

“No. I was just worried it might make Jim uncomfortable.”

“He has not expressed such reservations.”

“Hmm. I don’t know that he would. Anyway, I’m here now. And I’m happy to be.” She shrugged. “And anyway, he won in the end.”

“I do not think of myself as a prize,” Spock replied with the rise of an eyebrow.

“Well, I know you aren’t. I’m just saying I imagine he’s going to continue to be quite magnanimous with me.”

Spock frowned slightly. “If there was a problem with you coming I am puzzled as to why you initiated the idea.”

“Because I was being thoughtless I guess. I just wanted to see you so much, I didn’t really think about Jim’s feelings.”

“He is very fond of you, Nyota.”

She smiled. “I’m fond of him too. And I know I’m just being silly.” She crossed her arms in front of her chest. “I guess I miss Scotty.”

“His assignment on the Excelsior is temporary.”

“I know. I still miss him. And the fact that my ex has a hot husband who he can’t keep his hands off of doesn’t help.” She laughed. “I’m jealous.”

“I was given to understand that your romantic inclinations had—”

“Spock!” Nyota smacked his arm. “Not of you that way. Just being happily coupled, while my sweetie isn’t even here. And I feel bad for Leonard, too.”

“His divorce is unfortunate but Jim has been keeping his spirits up, as he words it.”

Nyota sighed. “I wish he’d never gotten together with that stupid Orion woman.”

“It is illogical to wish for something that cannot be changed.”

“Humans are illogical. Both Jim and I have told you that. No doubt he misses Joanna, too. How old is she now? Seven?”

“Eight.”

Spock pulled the hover car down the long dirt road leading to their farmhouse. He could see the farmhouse now and saw the rise of smoke from the chimney, which meant that Jim had started a fire in the hearth.

“It looks so cute! Like an old time gingerbread house or something. All those Christmas lights. Did Jim do that?”

“With Leonard’s help, yes. They worked on it for most of the day yesterday.”

“You guys sure did a lot of work on it.” She shot him a glance. “It doesn’t look like a place he only wants to live in for six months, Spock.”

“Yes, I am aware. But he has committed to six months on New Vulcan and he will keep his promise.”

“And then?”

Spock shrugged. “I will follow wherever he wishes to go.”

He stopped the hover car and they both got out.

“God, it really is cold,” Nyota said. “I hope it’s warm inside.”

“I am certain it will be.”

As soon as he opened the door into the house, they were both hit by a rather delicious warmth and the smell of cinnamon. And the sight of a Christmas tree which Jim and Leonard were currently decorating with a variety of ornaments in all shapes, sizes, and colors. It was already lit up with multi-colored lights.

“When did you have time to go out and get a tree?” Spock wondered.

Jim grinned. “Oh, I didn’t. I pulled this up from the basement. It’s artificial. I don’t like to kill living things and I remembered when Bones was making cinnamon rolls earlier that this old tree and decorations were down there somewhere and…wa la!”

Jim moved away from the tree and over to where Spock stood with Nyota.

“It’s great to see you again, Ny,” Jim said as he enveloped her in a hug.

“You too.”

“I’m glad you’re staying with us.” He turned to Spock and touched Spock’s fingers. “You’re both frozen. Take those coats off and come by the fire.”

Jim looked freshly showered and he was dressed in sweatpants and one of Spock’s own sweaters, a powder blue one, that looked amazing with Jim’s eyes, and Spock could not help but appreciate greatly that he had chosen to dress in Spock’s clothing. For some reason, it was quite arousing.

Spock removed his out wear and hung both his and Nyota’s coats as she went to greet Leonard. It was then that he noticed the menorah on the mantle. He arched his brow at his mate.

“I doubt you had that down in the basement.”

Jim laughed and tugged Spock to him to gaze both at the tree and the menorah. “No, I got this the other day when we went into the city. I know you and your family didn’t really celebrate any Earth holidays, but your mother’s background was Jewish, so I thought it might be nice, you know, to acknowledge it. Hell, even growing up, I wasn’t religious or anything myself. Christmas is just, well, kind of fun. Or it was until the asshole ruined it anyway.”

Spock knew the “asshole” was Frank, Jim’s stepfather. He rarely called him anything else besides the “asshole.”

“I appreciate the sentiment with the menorah,” Spock replied. “And you are right, Mother didn’t celebrate Earth traditions, having fully integrated to life on Vulcan, but it is nice to have the reminder of Mother. I believe she would have thought highly of your thoughtfulness.”

Jim searched his eyes. “I wish I had known her.”

“As do I,” Spock said quietly. “She would have been very fond of you.”

Jim held up something over their heads and leaned into Spock for a lengthy kiss.

“Fake mistletoe,” Jim murmured when they finally ended the kiss.

“You are quite fetching in my sweater,” Spock whispered.

“Okay, can it you two. Nyota and I don’t want to watch you go at it on the couch or something. Anyway, the cinnamon rolls I slaved over are ready.”

Jim winked at Spock and pulled him along toward the kitchen. Leonard passed out coffee to Jim and himself and tea to Spock and Nyota. Then he thrust lumpy looking cinnamon rolls at each of them.

Spock waited for Jim to take a bite first.

“Well.” Jim smiled. Glanced at Spock and Nyota. Then back to Leonard. “This, um, these are, they have an, um, there’s a flavor—”

Nyota popped some of hers into her mouth. “Oh, Leonard. Throw these away.”

“What?!”

She laughed and patted him on the arm. “I’ll show you how to make cinnamon rolls that taste great.”

“But I followed a recipe,” Leonard protested.

“You forgot the main ingredient. Love.”

Leonard made a gagging noise but Nyota just laughed and tossed out his cinnamon rolls. Spock felt fortunate to have missed tasting them.

Jim leaned in close. “Come on. Maybe we can sneak away for a bit while they are baking. You look like you could use a shower.”

Spock swallowed as he stared into Jim’s eyes. “Yes. A shower. I am quite dirty.”

“They’re going to go fuck,” Nyota said to Leonard.

“I know it.” Leonard scowled. “This has been going on for days. I left earplugs in your room. You’re going to need quite the supply.”

She giggled and Spock allowed Jim to drag him upstairs, with his cheeks aflame, but nevertheless, he did need that shower.

Eb 2017 Version

In 2013 I wrote a modernized version of my favorite story A Christmas Carol. I also wrote a Spirk version, A Spirky Christmas Carol in 2014. That remains one of my favorite Spirk holiday stories that I have written.

But this post concerns, Eb. This has nothing to do with Spirk as it is based mostly on the characters written by Dickens.

This year, in lieu of my intended update for today, I am re-posting Eb in its entirely but also with a brand new 2017 ending that I wrote very recently.  I hope you will give it a read.

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Eb

 

By Ivan Wright

Inspired by Charles Dickens’ A Christmas Carol

 

 

 

Ebenezer Scrooge looked at the clock in his office. Almost seven on Christmas Eve. He could hear his clerk, Bob Cratchit, getting restless in the next room. He sighed and tossed down his pen and rose to go out to his clerk’s desk.

Bob looked up hopefully. “Almost finished up, Mr. Scrooge?” the slightly short, thin man asked in a timid voice.

“Can’t wait to get out of here, eh, Cratchit?”

“It is Christmas Eve, sir. The family, you know.” “Hmm. You’ll want all day tomorrow, I suppose.” “If convenient, Mr. Scrooge.”

“Well, it isn’t. If I was to stop a day’s wages, I’m sure you’d think yourself ill-used.”

“It’s just the one time a year.”

Eb narrowed his eyes. “Whatever. Be here early the next day.” “Yes, sir. Thank you, sir.” Cratchit hurried into his coat and then wrapped his scarf around his neck. “Merry Christmas, Mr. Scrooge.”

“Get out of here,” he growled at his clerk who rushed out the door.

Just as he was leaving, his nephew, Fred, came in.

Fred, handsome, tall and muscular, and grinning like an idiot, called out, “Merry Christmas, Bob.”

“Merry Christmas, Fred,” Bob called back without stopping. Clearly wanting out as quickly as possible.

Fred turned to Eb. “Merry Christmas, Uncle. God save you.”

“God save me from idiots like you,” he returned. “What do you want? If it’s money you’ve come for, just turn around and walk back out.”

His nephew had the gall to laugh. “No, uncle. That’s not the reason for my visit.”

“What then? I’m conducting business here, you know.”

“I won’t keep you long,” Fred assured him. “I’ve just come to ask you to dine with me and my wife tomorrow.”

Eb snorted. “Your wife. Why did you get married?”

Fred smiled. “I fell in love. You’d adore her too if you met her.”

“Doubtful. And if there’s anything more stupid than Christmas it’s love.”

“Christmas stupid? Come on, you don’t mean that.”

“I do mean it. What good is Christmas anyway? It’s so commercialized and everyone spends so much money on gifts for people who don’t need them or appreciate them that they can’t even pay their bills.”

His nephew sighed. “I love Christmas.”

“Why? What good has it ever done you?”

“There are many things from which I have not derived monetary gains that still do me good and Christmas is one of these. I feel that people treat each other kinder at Christmas. And anyway, my dear mother, and your dear sister, loved Christmas and for that alone, I am quite fond of it.”

Eb’s stomach twisted at the reminder of his sister, Fan. It had been too many years since her passing. And he did not care for the reminder of it one bit.

“Nephew, you keep Christmas in your way and let me keep it in mine.”

“But you don’t keep it,” Fred protested.

“Then let me leave it alone. I’ve got some work to finish before I can leave, so if you don’t mind, get out.”

“Will you dine with us tomorrow?”

Eb shook his head. “No.”

“I don’t understand why you always refuse me,” his nephew said. “I want nothing from you except for us to be friends.”

“I don’t need friends. And I don’t need you. Get out.” Eb turned his back on his nephew and walked back into his office. He sat back behind his desk and picked up his pen and after a few minutes the door closed.

The truth was he hadn’t the urge to continue working himself this night. It was cold and quiet and he just wanted to go home. He’d been battling a cold all week. A battle he very much feared he was losing.

He got back up and was reaching for his own coat when the outer door opened again. Frowning Eb went back out to the outer office and was met by two men smiling at him.

“Sorry to disturb you, good sir, so late on Christmas Eve,” one of them said. “Have we the honor of addressing Mr. Scrooge or Mr. Marley?”

At the mention of Jacob, Eb felt tightness in his chest. He ruthlessly pushed aside such emotion. Jacob was gone and there was nothing he could do about it. “Mr. Marley has been dead these seven years. He died seven years ago this very night.”

“Oh, on Christmas Eve?” the man cried.

He shrugged. “Dying is dying, no matter the day.”

“Perhaps you’d like to donate to our cause in Mr. Marley’s name.”

“Cause? What cause?” he asked sharply.

“A few of us are endeavoring to collect for the poor to get them some means of food and drink and warmth. At this festive time of the year, need is keenly felt. What may we put you down for, Mr. Scrooge?”

Eb rolled his eyes. “Nothing.”

“You wish to be anonymous?”

“No, I want to be left alone. I am forced to contribute toward welfare and food stamps and social security through taxation as it is. And there are shelters for the poor to go to if they wish.”

“Have you been to some of those shelters, sir? Many people would rather die than go there.”

Eb nodded. “I’m sure. But perhaps then they ought to go about the business of dying then and decrease the surplus population.”

The man stared at him aghast but he cared not. Let them think what they wanted of him. It mattered not to him. He went to the door and held it open. “Goodbye.”

When they had left, he finished putting his coat on and closing up his office, went out into the cold and fog shrouded night.

The walk to his apartment was not that far from his office. He’d rented it for that purpose. That and it was relatively inexpensive for this part of the city. The streets were crowded and people ran about exclaiming pleasantries and laughing and Eb paid them no mind.

He hated Christmas. And Christmas Eve most especially. He only knew heartache when it came to that day. Well, when he’d had a heart left.

By the time he reached his apartment on the third floor, Eb was feeling miserable with his cold and he just wanted to fix himself a bowl of cream of wheat and a cup of tea. He’d fall into bed and not get up until the morning after Christmas.

But when he went to put his key into the door of his apartment the doorknob wavered and then changed to Jacob Marley’s face. His heart stuttered in his chest.

“Jacob?” he whispered.

There was no way he could be seeing Jacob. He hadn’t even really thought of him, except for bringing him up earlier that night, in years. Jacob had died seven years before and though initially his death had destroyed Eb, he had vowed not to dwell on it. Yet—

Jacob’s face faded from the doorknob and Eb shook himself.

“Idiot,” he muttered and opened the door of his dark and quiet apartment. He flicked on the light switch which illuminated the living room and of course there was nothing. Great, he was losing his mind now.

He locked up the door and went into his kitchen to make himself the cream of wheat and tea. It was cold in the apartment and he debated turning on the heat but in the end decided it would be much cheaper to just keep his coat on.

He finished making his cream of wheat and tea and he took them into the living room and curled up on the couch. Eb was about half way through the bowl of cream of wheat when he heard footsteps approach his apartment door.

A visitor? Him? Not likely. More likely someone had the wrong apartment. He waited for the footsteps to move away. But instead he watched as someone walked through the door. No one had opened the door. No. The man walked through it, through the solid door.

Eb stared and his heart leaped into his throat. For the man now standing before him was Jacob Marley. He looked as solid as Eb himself. Dressed very much like he had been on the day of the car accident seven years ago. A navy suit, a pale blue tie, his overcoat and a red scarf. His dark hair expertly cut salon style. Gorgeous. And all Eb could do was stare at him longing for him to be real.

“Hello, Eb.”

Jacob’s voice even. Damn. He was seriously losing his mind. “Who are you?” he asked.

“Ask me who I was.”

Eb frowned. “Who were you then?”

“In life, I was your law partner and lover, Jacob Marley.”

He swallowed. “Yeah, whatever. You aren’t real.”

“You doubt your senses?”

“Of course. Anything can affect them. I have a cold you know. I’m probably delirious.”

Jacob stepped up to him and leaned down and kissed him hard and long until Eb was breathless. “Now, do you believe in me?”

Eb touched his fingers to his kiss swollen lips. “I do. But, Jacob, what are you doing here? You’re…dead. Aren’t you?”

“I am, Eb.”

Eb grimaced. “I just kissed a dead person.”

“A romantic to the last, Eb,” Jacob said, with some humor. “I’m here because you’ve lost the spirit of Christmas. Of generosity. You’ve lost the spirit of life, really. I’m here to restore it.”

“I do fine without Christmas.”

Jacob shook his head. “You only think that. The way your life is going, Eb, you’re going to be very lonely and sad in the time you have left. You’ve always been a bit cold, standoffish. But you’re getting worse. Pretty soon no one will want to be around you.”

Eb shrugged. “What of it? I don’t really like people anyway. Why should I give a damn if they like me?”

“Eb, I know you. Well as well as anyone can know you. You care more than you think you do.” Jacob reached out a hand. “Let me show you.”

Eb stared at Jacob’s hand. “What do you intend?”

“Come with me. I have a lot to show you.”

He took a deep breath and reached for Jacob’s hand and he suddenly felt like he was floating above the city, and he realized he was, looking down at rooftops.

“Jacob, Jesus, are we flying?”

“We are. I thought you might like looking down at the city, sort of like how you like looking down at people.”

He felt his cheeks heat at the gentle rebuke, but he said nothing for several minutes. And then, “Where are we going?”

“The past.”

“Long past?”

“Your past, Eb.”

And then suddenly they were standing on the ground, snow covered ground at that. It was frigidly cold, way colder than it had been in the city. They stood before a large old building several stories high. It was very old. Built long before Eb’s time. But familiar nonetheless.

Jacob was watching him closely. “Do you know this place?”

Eb smiled sadly. “Know it? Yeah. I know it. I spent my years at school here.”

They walked toward the building, a boarding school where he’d spent much of his school years.

“This place is so desolate, Eb. I had no idea this is where you went to school.”

“My dad never liked me, you know? I think he always guessed I was gay, even when I was small, and he hated that. He wanted a kid who would play football or something.”

Jacob pointed at a young blond boy of about twelve. “That’s you.”

Eb nodded. “Yeah, it’s me.”

The young Eb stood off to the side, his hands clasped behind his back while he watched his school friends load a bus. One of the boys came to where Eb stood.

“I can’t believe your parents don’t want you home for Christmas, Eb,” the boy said.

He shrugged. “They don’t think much of Christmas and would rather I get in some extra studying.”

The other boy frowned. “Are you sure you don’t want to come home with me? I could still call my folks to see if it’s okay.”

“No, that’s all right. I’m used to it by now.” Young Eb smiled. If the other boy noticed it was a little watery he didn’t comment. “Merry Christmas. And happy New Year.”

The bus finished loading and drove off, leaving only twelve year old, Eb, standing there.

Jacob squeezed his shoulder. “Let’s see another Christmas.”

“They were all like that one, really.”

They moved into the building and went up to the fourth floor where this time Eb was around sixteen. He lay stretched out on his stomach on a single, uncomfortable looking bed, reading.

Jacob tilted his head to look at him. “You were beautiful even then.”

“The things you say,” Eb said, feeling himself blush.

“I would have loved to have known you then. I think—I don’t know— maybe things would have been different for you. For us. If I had.”

Eb found it hard to swallow past the lump in his throat, so he said nothing. Just kept his eye on his teenaged self because he knew what was coming next.

A young girl with long curly blonde hair, a year or so older than Eb himself at the time, came rushing in.

“Ebby! Ebby, get up! It’s me,” she yelled happily.

Eb sat up on the bed as she rushed at him, embracing him. “Fan?”

“Yes, Ebby. I’ve come to take you home with me.”

“Home?”

“Yep! I brought my car and I’m taking you home for Christmas. Dad’s so much cooler than he used to be and I asked him if you could come home for Christmas and he said yes. And, that you wouldn’t have to come back here again after. Isn’t that wonderful?”

Eb blinked. “Never come back here to the boarding school?”

She laughed. “No, never. Let’s pack your things.”

“Pretty girl,” Jacob commented. “She clearly adored you.”

“Yeah,” Eb agreed. “She really did. Didn’t care what I was. She just loved me.”

“She had kids before she died, didn’t she?”

“One kid.”

Jacob watched him intently. “Yeah, your nephew, Fred.”

Eb nodded.

“He got married recently didn’t he?”

Eb looked at him. “How did you know that?”

“I’ve kept tabs on you, Eb. Sometimes, I even sit with you, watch you while you go about your day.”

“Okay, that’s kind of creepy. Having your dead boyfriend watching you. Isn’t it?”

“Probably,” Jacob said. “Can you focus on what’s going on in front of you now though?”

Eb’s lips twitched just a little. “Fan made that Christmas tolerable, but my dad didn’t suddenly accept having a gay son. I left again when I was eighteen. I think it was a relief to both of us.”

Jacob grabbed his hand. “Come, let us see something else.”

And they were gone from his old boarding school and at an office building in the city.

“Do you remember this place?”

Eb laughed. “Of course I do. This was my first job.” He pointed to a portly man behind a desk. “Oh, my God, it’s Mr. Fezziwig. God, he’s been gone for years and years.”

Mr. Fezziwig was smiling and singing a Christmas tune off key as he worked and Eb found himself smiling in return.

“He couldn’t carry a tune to save his life, but he loved to sing just the same.”

Just then two young men came into the office area where Mr. Fezziwig sat. Eb recognized himself and Dick Wilkins easily.

“And who is that with you?” Jacob wondered.

“Dick Wilkins. We worked together.”

Jacob watched as young Eb stole a quick glance at Dick. “I’d say you were more than co-workers.”

Eb nodded. “Yeah, he was my first boyfriend.” He sighed. “I haven’t really thought of him in years.”

“Let’s listen,” Jacob said.

“Ah, here you are, boys!” Fezziwig exclaimed. “I know it’s only eleven but it’s time to close up.”

“Close up?” Eb repeated.

“It’s Christmas Eve, Eb, Dick. I say we close up and I’ll take us to lunch.” He reached into his desk and pulled out two envelopes. He handed one to each of them. “This is your Christmas bonus.”

“Thank you, sir.”

“Thank you, Mr. Fezziwig.”

Then he took out two brightly wrapped gifts and handed those out too. “And these are from me and Mrs. Fezziwig. Wait for Christmas to open them.” He grinned and stood up. “You can just go home after lunch. And we may as well close up the day after Christmas too because who the hell wants to work the day after Christmas! Right?”

They grinned. “Right!”

Eb couldn’t help but grin and he noticed Jacob watching him with a funny expression. “What?”

“Well, you act like this guy is so great. What’s the big deal? So he spent a few dollars on you and Dick. So?”

“It’s not that. It’s just he had the power to make work fun or tedious and even when we were swamped, Mr. Fezziwig always appreciated us and did his best for us. He was a great boss.”

Eb stopped and thought of Bob.

“What?” Jacob prodded.

He sighed. “I just…I’m not always very nice to my clerk. I was just wishing I had done things a little differently earlier today.”

“Shall we see one more Christmas from your past?”

And the scene changed again and it was him and Dick sitting on a bench in the park and Eb felt his throat tighten.

“Must we see this one?”

“These are shadows of the past that have been, Eb. That they are what they are, it cannot be changed. Let’s listen.”

“Wait,” Eb from the past said. “Are you…you’re breaking up with me?”

“I don’t want to.”

“Then why are you?”

Dick sighed. “You’ve changed from when we first met, Eb. You’ve always been quiet, reserved. But now, it’s like I can’t even reach you. You always shut others out, but you’re shutting even me out these days.”

“That’s not true,” Eb protested. “I haven’t changed toward you.”

“Yes you have. God, when was the last time we made love? Every night you tell me you’re too tired.”

“I’ve been working a lot. I want to get ahead. What’s wrong with a little ambition?”

“Nothing, except you never make time for me anymore.” Dick paused. “I’ve thought of little else these last few months. I’ve turned over everything I’ve done and said in my mind, trying to figure out where I went wrong. Eb, you’ve never even said you love me.”

Eb looked down at his hands. “You don’t think I do?”

“I wish I could believe that you do. I’ve said it dozens of times to you and you’ve never said it back. Not once.” Dick sighed, looking off into the distance. “I thought at first it didn’t matter to me if you never said it but I find that it does matter.”

He stared at Eb waiting but Eb just stared right back without saying a word. Finally Dick bowed his head. “That‘s what I thought. I’m sorry, Eb. I can’t be who you need me to be. I need more from my boyfriend than you seem able to give.” He stood and leaned down to kiss the top of Eb’s head. “Bye. I hope you’ll be happy.”

Both the past Eb and the present Eb watched Dick walk away. He had loved Dick. But saying he loved someone had never been easy for him. He just didn’t do it. And even when it was clear Dick wanted him to say it or he would walk, Eb still couldn’t do it. It felt like some sort of ultimatum and Eb didn’t like those. Wouldn’t give into those. And he’d stubbornly let Dick walk out of his life forever.

Just like he’d never said it to—

“That’s it for the past,” Jacob said. “I’ll show you Christmas present now.”

And whoosh, just like that they were in front of a tiny duplex in one of the seedier parts of the city.

Eb frowned. “What the hell? What are we doing here, Jacob?”

“This is where Bob lives.”

“Here?”

Jacob nodded. “He doesn’t make much money. Come and see.”

They stepped up to the window and then walked right through it into the duplex as though walls were nothing to them. Eb felt a little strange for a moment, but it went away quickly.

Sure enough Bob was there with a young wife who held onto a baby, probably less than six month’s old. Next to them was a small boy who was very pale and appeared sickly, coughing often. There was a tiny Christmas tree decorated sparsely with what looked like old fashioned lights and cheap ornaments.

“I didn’t know Bob had a sick child.”

“How much do you really know about him, Eb? Do you ever ask about his family? How he’s doing?”

“No, I-I figured it was not my business.”

“You sit there, my dear,” Bob said to his wife as he took the baby from her and set her in a playpen. “I’m going to make Christmas dinner this year and I want you and Tim to just rest there.”

She smiled. “Oh, Bob, you? You’re going to make a disaster out of my kitchen.”

“I will not,” he declared. “And anyway, I’ll clean up any mess I make. Promise.”

“What are you going to make, Daddy?” Tim asked.

“Well,” Bob said thoughtfully. “We’ve got a box of stuffing I got down at the dollar store. It’s perfectly good. And I think we have some chicken I can defrost from the freezer. Don’t you worry, kiddo, it will all be delicious.”

Eb frowned. “What’s wrong with the boy?”

“He’s always been sickly, poor boy,” Jacob said. “And now Bob’s wife just got diagnosed with breast cancer. They aren’t sure how they are going to make it since Bob’s employer doesn’t offer insurance.” And now he looked pointedly at Eb.

His face felt very hot indeed as he faced the disapproving look of his late lover. And he turned back to look at the family. “Will-will they make it?”

Jacob shook his head. “I don’t know, Eb. If she gets proper treatment for the cancer and the boy, too, maybe. But I fear Bob won’t have too many more Christmases with his family.”

“I had no idea,” Eb whispered. “I had no idea.”

“Anyway, what does it matter if they die, right? Perhaps they should go about the business of dying and decrease the surplus population.”

Eb gasped. “Jacob—”

“Come, Eb, let’s visit your nephew next.”

They were suddenly in a much nicer suburban area in a cozy three bedroom house and Fred was laughing and laughing, standing next to a Christmas tree. He had what appeared to be a glass of eggnog in his hand and there were at least ten people surrounding him all laughing with him.

“No, no, I tried to get my Uncle Ebenezer to join us today and he refused as usual,” Fred told them.

“Well, it’s just as well,” another man around Fred’s age said. “Your uncle is a rather unpleasant fellow.”

“I like him,” Fred said. “And my mother adored him. I just think he’s really rather sad. He hasn’t had the easiest life you know. His boyfriend was killed on Christmas Eve.”

“That is sad,” a pretty brunette said, coming to wrap her arms around Fred. “I can’t imagine how that must make him feel when Christmas comes around.”

“Exactly, darling,” Fred said to his wife. “And I mean to give him the chance every year to come spend Christmas with us. I want him to think of it as a happy time to spend with family. And I swear someday it’s going to work and he’ll come.” He clapped his hands. “Now, let’s put on some Christmas music, pass out more eggnog and do the gift exchange.”

Eb turned to Jacob. “I didn’t imagine Fred even realized how sad I am at Christmas.”

“He’s more observant than you realize, Eb,” Jacob said. “Dick was right, you know. You do shut people out of your life. Until the point they can’t try anymore.”

“You didn’t give up on me,” Eb said softly.

“No,” Jacob agreed. “I never would. But you haven’t got me anymore, Eb. And sometimes, you have to try. Perhaps you can think about trying with Fred?”

Eb felt the prick of tears. “Maybe.”

Jacob took his hand again. “It’s time to see the future.”

“I dread this part, Jacob.”

“I’m here with you. You have nothing to fear. Except for your own stubbornness. Come.”

And just like that they were back at Bob Cratchit’s house, but this time it was only Bob and a little girl of perhaps five. There was no sign of Bob’s wife or Tim.

The girl wore a dirty dress and sat on a soiled couch hunched over what looked like a video game. Bob held a bottle of whiskey in his hand and he kept taking drinks.

“Where is his wife and little Tim?”

“Gone, Eb. They died.”

“Oh, my God. No. I never meant for this to happen.”

Bob’s eyes were red and glassy and he just stared into nothingness. “Bob’s lost his job too.”

“What?”

Jacob shrugged. “He was drinking on the job. You had little choice.”

“No, no. This isn’t how I want it to be.”

“Come, Eb. There is more for you to see.” They appeared in a dark alley.

“Where is this?”

“Look.” Jacob pointed.

And suddenly Eb saw himself as a very old man picking through the trash in the alley. He recoiled in horror.

“What? This is me?”

“You kept shutting everyone out, Eb. Closing further and further off. You had no boyfriend, no friends, no family to care for you, you pushed even Fred away,” Jacob explained. “You got Alzheimer’s and when there was no one around to care for you, you ended up here, wandering, completely unaware of who you are.”

Eb dropped to his knees in the alley. “This? This is my fate?”

“Eb—”

Tears streamed down his face. “God, life is cruel.”

“That’s the problem. You fear life, you fear closeness. You don’t let anyone too near you. You have to let them in, babe.”

He bowed his head, feeling the sobs tighten his chest painfully. “It hurts.”

“I know. But you have to open your heart.” Jacob was kneeling next to him, his hands on Eb’s face.

“Please don’t leave me, Jacob. Please. I-I love you. I’m sorry I never said it. I’m so sorry.”

“I knew you loved me, babe. It’s all right. I knew you did.”

“Please, don’t leave me. I can’t make it without you.” He clutched at Jacob.

“You can.” He stroked Eb’s cheek. “You have to. As long as you keep the spirit of Christmas and generosity in your heart, you’ll always have me with you. But I’m gone, Eb. I’m not alive anymore. But I watch over you and I always will. I love you more than you can even imagine. And I want you to live. Live for me. Live for both of us.”

“Jacob—”

Jacob smiled. “I have to go now. You’ll be okay, Eb. I know you will.”

And then Jacob was gone and Eb woke up on his couch. The bowl of cream of wheat was half eaten on the coffee table and the cup of tea cold.

Eb took a deep breath and grabbed a tissue from the box to wipe the tears off his face. He got up and went to the window to look outside. It was daylight again. He checked the date on his watch and saw that it was December 25. Christmas.

He went into his bedroom, showered and dressed, and then he arranged for a four course dinner from a local restaurant to be delivered to Bob Cratchit’s house. It cost a small fortune to have it delivered on such short notice, but Eb found he no longer cared.

After that, he found Fred’s address and drove out to the suburb where his nephew and his wife lived. He wasn’t a bit surprised when they welcomed him with big smiles and open arms. Fred almost never left his side the whole day and about two hours after he’d been there he’d brought over a good looking man only perhaps a few years older than Eb’s forty-five.

“Uncle Ebenezer, I’d like you to meet my friend, Jason. I’ve been telling him about you for a while now,” Fred said with a laugh. “Jason, this is my uncle.” Fred whispered, “He’s gay, too.”

Eb found himself turning a bright shade of red, but Jason just laughed, and it was a rich, hearty laugh that Eb found very appealing. It was a very nice Christmas indeed.

And the next morning, Eb got to the office extra early. He wanted to be sure to beat Bob before he arrived and as it turned out he had no trouble for Bob was twenty minutes past his usual time.

Eb came out of his office and folded his arms across his chest. “Well?”

Bob ducked his chin. “I am sorry, Mr. Scrooge. I am late. I…well it was Christmas and we kind of got carried away celebrating.”

“I imagine so. Bob, I don’t intend to tolerate this anymore.”

“Sir?”

“My name is Eb, Bob.”

Bob stared at him as though he’d sprung a second head.

Eb smiled. “I think first we should go out to breakfast. What do you say?”

“Breakfast?”

“Yeah, what the hell are we doing working the day after Christmas anyway? But let’s go get your family and take them with us. Bet they’re hungry too.”

“My family?” Bob said faintly.

“Yes. And we’re also going to get you a raise. A huge raise. And we’re going to get insurance. And get both your wife and Tim good doctors. The best doctors.”

“You-you know about Tim, sir?”

“Eb. Call me Eb.”

Bob straightened and smiled. “Eb.”

“I do know about him, Bob. And we’re going to get him well. And your good wife, too. And we’re going to see about getting you a better place to live, too.”

“That’s amazing. Thank you. Eb.”

“You are very welcome, Bob. Now, shall we close up and go to breakfast?”

“Yes!” Bob was grinning.

“And what the hell! Why don’t we close the office for the rest of the year. Open back up on January 2. What do you say, Bob?”

“I say, great idea.”

Eb found that having friends, family, and maybe even a new boyfriend changed him in ways he could not have imagined. He did help Bob and his family and they became as close to him as anybody could be to anybody else. And Bob’s wife and son did not die but thrived for many years to come.

Eb knew that some people wondered at the sudden change in him, but he didn’t care. He knew that he had Jacob Marley to thank for it. He’d opened his eyes to the rest of Eb’s life. And he knew no one had ever loved him like Jacob had and for that, he would always be grateful and happy. For both of them.

It was a year later, and Christmas was upon him once more.

It had been a good year. And though he’d enjoyed a few months of a fun romance with Jason, it hadn’t worked out and they’d ended up deciding over the summer that they made better friends.

In fact, at Thanksgiving, Ed had been invited to Jason’s house where he met Jason’s new boyfriend, Daniel. He’d been fine with it, unexpectedly so, and he realized he had never thought of Jason as anything serious. He was not his forever man.

Of course, once that  had been Jacob, but Jacob was indeed gone, and though Eb missed him terribly still, he had made peace with it.

“Yes, yes, Fred. I’ll be there same time as last year.” Eb laughed. “No, I’m not working too late. And I’m not making Bob work too late either. Or Ralph and Mabel for that matter.” He smiled in the direction of his latest employees. His law firm was expanding. “Now stop pestering me so I can finish up here.”

“All set, Mr. Scrooge?” Ralph asked.

“Eb, Ralph. We’re not formal here. Yeah, I think you can all go on home for the day.”

Ralph frowned. “Are you sure, sir? It’s only just past three.”

Eb nodded and got up from his desk. “I hadn’t intended to keep you this long. It’s Christmas Eve. Go on and have fun. You too, Mabel. Don’t forget those presents for your kids.”

Mabel rose from her desk with a beaming smile. “Yes, Eb. And Merry Christmas.”

“Same to you. And Happy New Year. See you on the 2nd. And Happy New Year.”

Bob waited until the others had left before turning to Eb. “I wanted to thank you again, Eb. I swear I wouldn’t have passed the bar exam if you hadn’t helped me and given me so much time off to study. It’s made such a huge difference to all of us.”

“It was my pleasure, Bob.” He squeezed Bob’s shoulder. “And give my best to Emily, Tim, and Constance, too.”

“You’re still coming New Year’s Eve? Emily keeps asking.”

Eb laughed. “Of course I am. Merry Christmas, Bob.”

Bob grinned. “Merry Christmas. We’ve come along way since last year, haven’t we, sir? Don’t stay too late.”

“I won’t. I promise.”

Eb locked up after Bob, smiling as his employee and friend headed off. He turned to survey his office, decorated with a Christmas tree for the first time since, well, ever. He didn’t recall even when Jacob had been alive them decorating the office.

He went back to his desk and went over a few more legal briefs for an hour or so and then finally stretched to head home. There was a cozy little bar close by his apartment that he sometimes stopped at and he’d mentioned to some of the regulars he might stop by that night.

Eb grabbed his coat and scarf and put them up on and left his office, locking up as he went.

He’d gone about a block, barely paying attention to where he walked, having walked it hundreds of times, and his mind on the upcoming festivities.

When he’d looked up the light had been green, so he stepped off the curb, and heard a horn and the screech of tires. His heart thudding fast, he was suddenly yanked hard out of the street and onto the curb.

“Fuck, man. You gotta watch where you’re going. You don’t want to end up in the hospital on Christmas Eve.”

Eb stared into all too familiar dark dark eyes. Even through the black rimmed glasses he could see the eyes were framed by long curly lashes. And the muscular arms that held him—

Eb sucked in a breath. “Dick? Dick Wilkins?”

The man blinked rapidly, going a shade lighter. “Ebenezer?”

Oh. My. God.

Without even thinking about it, he grabbed the collar of Dick’s coat and pulled him close, covering his lips with his own in a searing kiss. Dick’s lips softened under his and began to kiss back and then Eb remembered where he was and who he was kissing.

He pulled away in embarrassment, stepping out of Dick Wilkins’ arms. “God, I’m sorry. I don’t know what came over me. God. You probably have a husband or a boyfriend or something.”

He smirked. “Actually, no. And that was nice. Really nice.” He grabbed Eb’s arm and steered away from the street. “Let’s get a little further from the traffic.”

“Yeah.” Eb laughed nervously, looking back at the street. He ended up leaning against a building with his old friend leaning in very close. “It really is you.”

“In the flesh.”

Eb’s gaze swept over him. He was stunning. He’d filled out where he’d been super skinny before. Muscular, athletic. Dark windswept hair and a five o’clock shadow. He had a striped white and black scarf around his neck that somehow made him super sexy.

“You look amazing,” Eb said softly.

Dick smiled. It was all teeth, beautifully white. “I was thinking the same about you. So you don’t—?”

“No, there’s no one.” He licked his lips. “Back when, you know, before, I did, you know. I loved you. I was stupid.”

He stared at Eb intensely. “We all make mistakes in our youth, Eb. I don’t think I gave you the patience you deserved. And ultimatums are never wise. I can’t tell you how much I kicked myself after all that.”

“Yeah?”

“Oh yeah.”

“I had someone once. After you,” Eb said honestly. “I loved him very much. His name was Jacob.”

“What happened?”

Eb smiled wistfully. “He died eight years ago tonight in a car accident.”

“Oh, Eb. I’m so sorry.”

“Me too.” Eb looked down the street. “Were you headed somewhere?”

“Not really. Just for a walk, actually.” Dick shook his head. “I just suddenly felt like walking down this way. My office is two blocks over. Small world, huh?”

“Yeah.” Eb put his hand on Dick’s chest, taking a chance. “Want to try that kiss again?”

“I’d like nothing better.” He leaned in and touched his lips to Eb’s, tentatively at first and then more deep though still sweet. “You taste like peppermint cocoa.”

Eb laughed. “That’s what you said to me the first time we kissed.”

“I know.” His fingers ghosted over Eb’s cheek. “How about you? Were you going somewhere?”

“This is going to sound stupid but I think I was looking for you.”

Dick kissed him again, slower and deeper.

“My apartment is close,” Eb said breathlessly. “You know.” He licked his lips. “If you want to come over. I have wine.”

“That sounds like the best Christmas Eve I could think of.”

“It’s this way,” Eb said as they made their way over to the intersection, stopping at the light.

“Perhaps I’d better hold on to you as we cross the street,” Dick said with a wink.

Eb grinned, feeling very warm and very hopeful. “Yes, perhaps you should.”

And as they walked to Eb’s apartment, they did not notice, for how could they, so wrapped up in each other, the man who stood to the side of the apartment building watching them carefully, dressed in a navy suit, a pale blue tie, an overcoat and a red scarf.

He watched as they went into the building, arms linked and eyes shining like two young men again, and the man smiled.

“Merry Christmas, Eb.”

He faded away.

And Merry Christmas to all.

Ramblings of the Week, November 27, 2017

Hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving (US). Mine was lovely but warm as hell (literally)

My time off of work is over, unfortunately, which makes me sad! Grrr

I did do decorating over the weekend and started the holiday movie watching with Miracle on the 34th Street.

Everything currently takes  a backseat to my holiday stories. Once I get my second holiday story finished I will attempt to get back to regularly updating. But right now that’s what is going to happen. We can’t drive Ivan insane.

When I do get back to updating I may go out of order and deal with one or two that are very close to being concluded. We will see.

My next day off in in December (19) to go the Universal Studios with the sister. And then of course Christmas and New Years. Don’t have any extra days around then, unfortunately.

This week I am seeing The Man Who Invented Christmas.

 

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