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100 Words Continuation, 03/30/2018

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Part of him thought he should not hit send. He said what he said and it was true, whether his feelings were unwelcome to Spock or not.

On the other hand, if Spock thought his declaration was something they could not get past, he might ask for a transfer, or worse, go through with his idea to leave Starfleet and go to New Vulcan.

Ambassador Spock’s death had been hard on Spock in a time he’d already felt torn and under the stress of contributing directly to the Vulcan cause.

But was Jim being selfish in keeping him here?

100 Words Continuation, 03/25/2018

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“Better that than to lose Spock altogether, Bones. Look I appreciate you coming but I need to deal with this on my own and preferably alone, okay?”

Bones didn’t look at all happy about it, but he gave a sharp nod and headed for the exit. “If you need anything—”

Jim attempted a smile. “Yeah. I know. Thanks.”

After Bones left, Jim went to his terminal and decided to send his message through that instead of his PADD. He stared at it for a long time before finally typing a brief message.

I’m sorry. Never mind. Forget it.

100 Words Continuation 03/23/18

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“Still—” 

“I can’t face him. And maybe that makes me a coward, I guess it does. But right now I’m too emotionally invested in all this,” Jim admitted. “So I’m going to message him.”

“Message him what?”

Jim ran a hand through his hair in frustration. “I don’t know. That I’m sorry. Maybe that it was a bad joke that didn’t come off well. And that he should forget it and we can just go on as we have been.”

Bones blew out a breath. “And how is that, Jim? Barely even friends? Things are more distant than ever.”

Hmm…

I deleted the “Snow White” story on AO3. it just wasn’t getting the reaction I was hoping for and so I got rid of it. I don’t know if I will go back to it some day or not.

But…

I am discouraged. And depressed. Feeling unappreciated. Whether realistic or not.

I feel like I am writing in a dying fandom or something. I don’t know. But nothing has been getting interest lately and I am getting almost no comments, hits, etc.

Yes, everyone is busy and has lives. But so do I and I don’t write for myself. If I did, I wouldn’t be publishing on a public site.

So, what does this all mean? I don’t know. I really don’t.

I haven’t written the 100 words yet for Friday and I don’t know if I will, frankly. Maybe. We will see.

100 Words Continuation March 16

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“Salvage what? You didn’t do anything wrong. Having feelings for someone is not against Starfleet regulations no matter what that robot might say.”

 

“Bones, come on, that’s not fair. He was in a relationship with Uhura for years so he knows it’s not against regulations. He just doesn’t feel the same way I do. And well.” Jim sighed and leaned his head back against his sofa. “I have to accept that. And hope he doesn’t ask for a transfer or something.”

 

“Think he will?”

 

“I don’t know. He almost left to New Vulcan already. Maybe he will this time.”

100 Words Continuation March 09

“How?” Bones asked, not unsympathetically.

Jim turned from his friend’s gaze. “I told Spock.”

“Told him what?”

He sighed. “That I loved him.”

“Oh.” Bones’ voice was soft, tentative. Like he was waiting for the other shoe to drop. Jim supposed he was.

“And it went about as well as you could imagine.” Jim shrugged. “He looked at me as though I was some science experiment he couldn’t quite figure out. Like he did when I told him I’d miss him when I thought we were being separated.”

“Jim—”

“Now I have to find a way to salvage this.”

Recent Updating

I finally got the update done and posted to Didn’t We Almost Have it All. I was very happy with the response I got to it, too. You never quite know if people are still reading your work, especially if you haven’t updated it in a while and though it had been updated in January, you just don’t know how many readers you’ve lost. But people are still following it and that makes me happy.

Friday will be the continuation of the 100 word thing I am doing. I am having fun with that. It’s certainly making the story take longer just because I have to keep it to 100 words at a time.

I decided to post All I Ever Wanted on AO3 and so with that I took it down from here. I was torn about it honestly because I knew it wouldn’t be that popular on there (older characters, yet another wip from me, etc) but I wanted more to read it then the three or four that were reading it here.

I’m working on finishing Turning Page now and hope to have it updated today or tomorrow. Once that is up I will be turning to the next chapter of You are the Light That’s Leading Me, but I think it will probably not go up until next week. I think I am giving myself permission to take the weekends off from writing/posting for a bit.

100 Words Continuation, March 02, 2018

Jim did not feel like seeing anyone.

“Computer, identify visitor.”

“Leonard McCoy, Chief Medical Officer.”

He groaned. Just what he needed. He wanted to ignore Bones, but an ignored Bones was an even crankier Bones.

“Open.”

“Jim—“Bones started as soon as the door swished open to allow his entry.

Jim held up his hands. “Don’t start. Not in the mood.”

“You do look like hell, Jim. What’s wrong?”

“I’m an idiot.”

Bones smirked. “Yes that I know.”

“Shut up.” Jim smiled in spite of the fact he really didn’t feel like smiling.

“Let me guess. Spock?”

“No. Me.”

Update Madness March 01

Okay so this week I updated the blog story, the 100 words (coming tomorrow), My Devotion (twice), Anything and Where My Demons hide.

Whew.

I am exhausted. And probably done for the weekend. We shall see.

Next up is Didn’t We Almost Have it All which deals with the sudden arrival of Spock in Jim’s yard and it’s going to be difficult for both Jim and me, so probably not until sometime next week.

Enjoy the updates I have done in the meantime! Thanks!

 

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