
“Captain! Jim!”
Jim jumped awake, his heart thundering hard. A feminine hand rested against his chest as he sucked in a breath.
“Easy, easy,” Uhura said, soothingly. “You just had a bad dream.”
Jim blinked and shifted, his back meeting the hard rock wall behind him. Right. Stranded on this planet during an ion storm.
“Status?” he asked automatically.
“Nothing has changed. It’s still…we can’t leave this cave. And there’s no getting in touch with the Enterprise. Or the other members of our landing party.”
He and Uhura got separated from the others. Fortunately neither of them were injured.
Uhura handed him a container of water. “Must have been bad that dream.”
He took a sip of the water and shrugged noncommittedly. He didn’t want to talk about it, not with her. Not with anyone.
But of course she wouldn’t let it go.
“You spoke. You said, ‘he can’t marry her’.” She took the water canteen he handed back to her.
“I don’t remember,” he lied.
Uhura sighed and tucked the canteen back into their survival bag. “You want a nutrition bar?”
He shook his head.
She took one out for herself, unwrapped it and took a bite. “I didn’t know you still thought about that.”
“I don’t.”
She moved to sit beside him, her back against the wall like his was. “Come on, Captain. You were dreaming about Spock marrying me.” She paused. “Weren’t you?”
“Not exactly,” Jim admitted. “It was your…wedding shower.”
“Oh. Which I didn’t have. Because we were never getting married,” she pointed out needlessly.
“The subconscious mind plays tricks on us.”
“Mm. But why are you still thinking about that? Spock is in a relationship with you.”
“You were in a relationship for a long time,” Jim said softly.
“Yeah, we were. But long-term relationships end too. Just ask all the divorced couples. My own parents were married ten years before it ended. People grow apart, Jim.”
“Yeah. I just think…I’m Human too. If it didn’t work out with you, and you were together for as long as you were, hell he gave you his mom’s necklace, he might just grow apart from me too.”
“So you think because we’re both Human, Spock can’t stay in a relationship with a Human.”
“Well.” He shrugged.
She shook her head. “Sometimes.”
“What?”
“When you first met us, our relationship was pretty new. He was so different from every other guy I’d met. So brilliant and so incredibly interesting.”
Jim had to agree with that.
“We had a lot in common and I was able to practice my Vulcan language skills. It was young love for both of us.”
He tried not to flinch but judging by the glare she shot him he hadn’t been successful.
“The point is, at some point the first blush of young love begins to fade and you get…I don’t want to say comfortable, but it kind of is. We got comfortable with each other. The affection was there, but a lot of the passion that existed in the beginning faded fast.”
“I guess that’s pretty natural.”
“It happened pretty fast for us and it took me quite a while to admit why that was,” she told him as she took another bite of her bar. “Spock still loved me, but he wasn’t in love with me. Physical intimacy became a-a chore. Maybe that’s too harsh an assessment. But the sex between us became less and less. I thought it was me. He didn’t want me anymore. But it was less to do with me then to do with…” She paused and sighed. “You.”
“Me?”
“From the time you beat his test, by cheating I might add, Spock couldn’t get you out of his head. I don’t want to use the word obsessed but I think it applied. He couldn’t move forward more than he had with me because of you. It wasn’t so much that he didn’t want me, but that he wanted you.”
“Uhura—”
“We didn’t break up because I’m Human, Captain, but because Spock is in love with you. And has been for a long time. Neither of us wanted to admit it. Until there was no way to deny it any longer.”
Jim thought about that. “But what about…”
“Don’t look for trouble where there is none. Spock loves you, you love Spock. End of story. And really, this is the last time we’re going to discuss this.”
Jim’s communicator chirped and he jumped at the unexpected sound. He flipped it open. “Kirk here.”
“Captain,” Spock’s voice. “The storm is breaking up. We are preparing to beam you up within thirty minutes.”
Jim exchanged a smile with Uhura. “That’s great news, Mister Spock. See you then. Kirk out.”
And later when they were once more aboard the Enterprise and he was alone with Spock, together lying side by side in their bed, Jim whispered, “I love you.”
“I love you as well, t’hy’la.”







